yawn yawn another day has gone by.....
and i am one day nearer to the dreaded common test....
whahha ironic thing was, i still went out today.....
*sigh* tell me HOW am i going to score well when i cant even mug whole-heartedly 4 one day........
whahaha guess wat, me went to take the NEL~~~~
woo hoo!!! was quite excited abt the whole thing lar, coz well it is NEW
whahhaa, k it was quite ok lar, normal... thot the purple colour was real nice...
aniwaz took to the harbourfront, y leh? duno... go see the harbour lor.
not bad la, the scenery is real nice~
heex, saw so many ships and cruises~ whahha had the urge to get on a cruise and go for one week holiday so that by the time i return, the dreaded ct will be over~~~~ whahha k k..... thats impossible.....
hai.... wonder how HARD the papers will be this time.....
they neva failed to surprise me with their papers and questions la,
so wats new if i go thru the entire paper and dun even have a question that i am confident abt? thats called xi guan le. if i can realli sae the paper is ez, den i guess i muz have been in the wrong sch or i have been given a wrong paper le.
i hate to do ct in the hall.... i hate the feeling where i feel that the ppl besides me seem to noe a lot and yet here i am struggling in the sea of words....
hai but i guess i deserve it? ppl have been muggin 4 the whole holidays..... look at me, what have i done? slack? play? havoc? anithing but MUG.......
Queen Tona @ 10:44 PM
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Friday, June 27, 2003
If I were a month I would be: May [ coz my bday on may]
If I were a day of the week I would be: Sunday~
If I were a time of day I would be: dinnertime~
If I were a planet I would be: SAturn
If I were a sea animal I would be: sea animal? polar bear is or not?
If I were a direction I would be: East coz i wanna c the sun!
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: TV
If I were a historical figure I would be: someone worth remembering
If I were a liquid I would be: vodka~ duno y aso
If I were a stone, I would be: i am already a stone in njc
If I were a tree, I would be: rain tree so BIGGGGGggg
If I were a bird, I would be: parrot? coz they v pretty and can talk
If I were a tool, I would be: hammer
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: sun flower~
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: rain [but muz drizzle that kind]
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: phoenix~
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: guitar
If I were an animal, I would be: monkey~ hahahahha
If I were a color, I would be: pink i LOVE pink
If I were an emotion, I would be: sianz
If I were a vegetable, I would be: celery~ they smell nice
If I were a sound, I would be: music
If I were an element, I would be: fire. full of passion.
If I were a car, I would be:merc~ whaha cool
If I were a song, I would be: the ABC song
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: myself
If I were a book, I would be written by: myself
If I were a food, I would be: icecream
If I were a place, I would be: north pole
If I were a material, I would be: silk
If I were a taste, I would be: sour
If I were a scent, I would be: sweet-smelling
If I were a religion, I would be: nutting. free thinker.
If I were an object, I would be: mirror
If I were a body part I would be: hands
If I were a facial expression I would be: =)
If I were a subject in school I would be: maths?
If I were a cartoon character I would be: BubbleS!!!!!!
If I were a shape I would be: circle
If I were a number I would be: 3
If I were a word, I would be: iUhAiJ
Queen Tona @ 10:45 PM
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hmmmmm its a raining afternoon again,
wonder y the weather juz seem to be so gloomy these few days yea?
whaha but well suits my mood la
aniwaz manage to mug quite a bit today, while listening to the radio
quite a nice feeling~ feel quite calm and hmmmmm whahah
hope those things that i read manage to get it man~
the DJ was talkin abt relationships and how ppl change...
sets me off thinkin too i guess
she said that relationships normally dun last that long, and that she realise that there is no "tian chang di jiu" stuff ard anymore, whahah come to tink of it, me agree, i guess.
yes, thats a v pessimistic view of love... but look around and see... how many couples u noe now have really carried on and end up marrying each other? i am sure they once started off v confident of the relationship too, confident that they will love each other 4eva.. blah blah kinda rubbish. its utter rubbish la, when u come to tink of it. u realli tink wat he said is true? u realli tink he meant it at all? yes, maybe at that pt of time, when u are practically blinded by love, you will...
hmmmmmm y am i sayin all this? wahaha maybe from past experiences, i have learnt to not take things too seriously? guess so bah, guess i have learnt to stop belivin in fairy-tales and to start to see things in the real hard sense.
was clearing up my old stuff last nite and i realise juz how frequently he appears in my mind as i go thru my stuff. my books, my soft toys, my cards etc.... *SIGH* wats over is over lar~ be glad it happen rite? though if given a chance....
actually i am realli v afraid of any relationships at the moment. becoz being in a relationship, u run the risk of losin a fren..... and thats wat i feel sad abt.... i lost a v good fren i guesS? sigh, no matter how ppl sae abt u gettin back as frens after u break up, its neva going to work, u are neva going to get back to the stage u were once at... so tink twice and maybe thrice, b4 u decide to plunge into a relationship...... [ is that an advice? no lar juz my thots....... feel free to tink otherwise]
Queen Tona @ 5:31 PM
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Thursday, June 26, 2003
guess wat, me went back to sch today~
whahha had this lecture or rather discussion on the CT 2002...
quite amazed that after going thru the ans, i actually got quite a great score
although there are careless mistakes here and there......
but thats besides the pt, the pt is, going back to sch realli STRESS me up.
walk ard the sch, everiwhere is ppl mugging
walk past ppl, most of their conversations revolves around CT...
'oh so how many chapters have u have left?'
'u finish practising all the TYS?'
many wld reply 'no lar, haven study much...'
oh PLS, here u are telling me u haven study much
and later ur results turn out to be the complete opposite!!!
pls lar, u want to mug den MUG 4 all i care, dun have to act that u dun give a damn when in actual fact u are MUGGING like mad at home.
thats like how fake, u want to be a mugger sae lAR
dun need to act cool and funky and go ard telling ppl u haven done this and that...
seriously lar, damn blooody pissed with this kinda ppl all rite,
esp TODAY. ARGH duno why!
aniwaz on a side note, receive a call from alvin LATE last nite....
i was shocked, surprised even....
i mean ok, we used to be v close etc, but this year we haven been contactin much at all, we haven even been sms-ing each other,
aniwaz he wanted to go out 4 dinner tonite, i mean HELLO
do i look like i want to go out with him....... tried to come up with stupid excuses
said wana go town, and he still SAE he aso wanna go TOWN! #!$#@!$!%!
its in the middle of the BLOODY nite and u calling me, i areadi neva sae much liao, still refuse to put down the fone! @#!$!%! decided to use my irritated tone, said i was sleepy and he FINALLY said, oh den talk some other time.
sianz la, i mean if he had called in the day i wld have been nicer to him, BAH
Queen Tona @ 5:04 PM
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Wednesday, June 25, 2003
ok i hereby conclude that i am DIED. damn died 4 the common tests...
its here, i can finally START to panic for the bloody CT...
yes. a tat too LATE rite?
i am realli damn damn woRRIEd... SAVE mEEEE......
there are a zillion things to be done and yet i have only a few million secs lefT?
i duno whahha.... all i noe is i have a FEW days left to MUG my hearts out 4 the CT.....
GOD SAVE ME....... although i have slack and havoc so much i noe i dun derserve any help.......
HAI, may all the Os and Fs stay away from me.
Queen Tona @ 2:12 PM
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Tuesday, June 24, 2003
hmmmm aniwaz got quite a nice and complicated "joke" here!
We know that
a) Time is Money
b) Knowledge is Power
c) Power = Work / Time (From Physics)
By simple substitution:
Knowledge = Work / Money
Knowledge * Money = Work
Money = Work / Knowledge
It follows that as knowledge goes to 0, money goes to infinity.
sigh, does that mean i have studied so long 4 nothing!!?!?!?!
hahha aniwz enuff of crapz. today is supposed to be a v special and sweet day... but i guess not anymore. heck shall not dwell on it, y water a plant when u noe its died rite?
Queen Tona @ 10:11 PM
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Monday, June 23, 2003
yawn yawnz, juz had dinner. feel so BLOATED.
but well... i startin to dread dinner now a days.... no more home-cooked food....
mum has decided to go work coz she is bored at home...*sigh*
and with my bro's increasin dissapeareance.... i am usually ALONE at home.
yes, many may jump at an opportunity of being alone at home...
but not me.. really.
its so quiet when there is no one in the house except me.....
and the poor me still have to mug like nobody's business 4 the bloody CT...
i am beginning to dread the days when i have to spend my time alone at home...
sometimes i realli feel so lonely..... i feel like there is only me left on earth.....
a long time ago, i used to yearn to have more freedom, to have more free time of my own, to be alone myself at times.... and now? i have been alone too long i guess? yes, i got wat i want, i dun have to ans to anione abt my actions, my behaviour, i dun have to bother abt being too close to anione anymore. but frankly speaking, i have enuff of such a life. yes, i may have my circle of frens, but i still feel empty at times. they do have their own life, and wats more, many are attached, i cant possibly expect myself to have that impt a place in their lifes as their bf/gf. that i understand, that i agree... and these will be the times when i wish that someone special will be there 4 me, to accompany me when i need company, to cheer me up when i am sad, to be there to listen to my problems or even my crappings. i do wish to have a impt place in the heart of someone else....
ok i sound desperate, but sometimes i realli am.
there have been opportunities, but i duno y, i juz turn them down,
its not that i dun feel anithing, but y? y am i contradicting myself?
here i am saein i want a bf, and there i am tellin others i want to be alone?
or have i been single so long that i dun even dare to start anithing....
*shrugs* aniwaz, today's 23/6... exactly one mth to SYF... lookin 4ward to it coz i juz want to get the bloody thing over and done with. i am tired of it totally, trying doing the same thing 4 9mths....... hai, hope our hard work pays off laR.
Queen Tona @ 7:51 PM
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Sunday, June 22, 2003
oh great.... flipping thru the calendar..... there;s only ONE WEEK left
and here i am still slackin and havoc-ing away........
its realli scary when i realli start to sit down and tink of the many stuff that i have NOT TOUCHED at all... and to make matter worse, i cant seem to find any time to finish wat i want to do! and oh pls even if i do have the time, does that confirm a pass in the bloody common test in njc? oh pls, i noe too well, study like mad the most i get is a C? heck abt it and i mite scrap thru, and maybe get the dreaded F.... ARGH!
frankly speakin, i dread the life in njc when it comes to tests, exams, studies....
u sld have seen how ppl actually mug 4 their work, and of coz there are others, who CLAIM that they cant be bothered and yet seem to be mugging like hell at home... sucks la, everione is like so FAKE. still remeber the time when the genius in my class got his file stolen.... and the DM actually found it in the toilet. i mean oh pls LAR, its scary to tink that there are such shallow and selfish ppl around me lor.
hai.. common test... come to tink of it..... i haven even gotten an A in the common tests in njc... unless chinese counts... its sad when i tink back to days in the sec school.... the time where i realli slack a lot and still manage to scrap thru quite well..... i miss those days. ok, i admit that i am realli not that interested in mugging, not interested in wastin my precious life on books, that prob explains why i haven realli MUG with my heart and soul 4 ani exams at all.... i can juz sae i am lucky to get to where i am now......
but lookin ahead.... will i be that lucky agai this time? the As..... its scary.... i dun want to get the kind of bloody results that i am gettin now in nj..... but apparently i guess if i want results, i will have to fight 4 it... am i willing to do it? am i able to realli get down and mug? i hope i will soon.... in the mean time.... *prays hard*
Queen Tona @ 10:39 PM
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yest was too tired to come back and blog le...... so today muz hurry write down!
aniwaz yest was a LONG day..... reach home at eleven plus..... totally shagged.
afternoon went out with xin ru serene and alicia~ quite fun lar actually. get to see my OLD frens whahhaha. actually they aso neva change much lor. aniwaz apparently i was the earliest again, even though i reach at one plus when we were suppose to meet at one..... [gals..] haha nvm i 4eva so punctual one lAR! aniwaz went in search 4 food.... was quite hungry but decided to save my stomach for tonite whahha so ate zinger burger and a few fries..... den we wenta walk walk and take neo-print~ whahah finally got a neo-print with the 4 of us~ the other time they took without me ok! boo hoo hoo...... heez aniwaz after that we went in search 4 xr's XXXX stuff.... appararently we din succeed in buying anithing.... juz crap crap along the wae... aniwaz nearin four... so i made them walk with me to dobby ghaut there coz i needa take 171 to his house... whahhaa from orchard to dobby ghaut ok!!!! SAVE ME!!! aniwaz felt quite bad that i cant accompany them 4 v long..... so had to bid them farewell..... aniwaz got my bday prezzie from xr.... after so long rite? heeeezx muz realli thank her and zp so much! me realli like my prezzies a lot!!!!! =) thanks!! *hugs* *muacks*
saw the bus and ran after it..... i am late alreadi leh!!!! whahah aniwaz sat on the bus.... felt so tired suddenly.... maybe its the bloody hot weather la. duno leh juz felt so sianz diaoz suddenly... no mood 4 partying at all.... aniwaz took a slow walk up the his house which is so deep inside!!!! @!#!$!$@ was feelin more and more sian..... but welll when i step into the house, i guess their cheerful greetings and all manage to perk me up a bit lAR.
said hi, went to sae hi to him.... apparently he has some golf lessons tonite whahha and everione was like.. ooooooh jh will be so sad... =|
heck la. xi guan le~ aniwaz they decided to bbq AGAIN....
so wenta help a bit with the fire.... bbq a bit but was in no mood to eat...
sat down and crap a bit.... i guess they neva fail to cheer me up la~
chi cheng's suaning, gary's loud and ah beng-ish actions, jennifer's cute replies, xiaoyanjie's hysterical laughter [often at me...... ] junliang's suaning of me and mine suaning of him!! =P , and of coz hanwei;s and xinwen;s company~
aniwaz we ate most of the food b4 proceedin to the house 4 5566!!!!! AH!!!!
so shuai!!!!!!! hehe... aniwaz ccrap a bit more, and watch sum tv..... there was this show... this poor kid...... he got leukemia.... =( and so ke lian..... and the dumb dumb me watch until cry...... faint la... felt quite stupid whahah aniwaz sat ard and talk till ten plus... he is still not back from golf.... so me aso neva wait le la, walk to the bus stop and took bus home la. aniwaz i aso wun want him to drive me home although they almost wanted to lock me in the house and force me to wait 4 him.... whahha.
k that ends my day.... YAWNZ. reach home totally TIRED.... today still v tiRED....
Queen Tona @ 12:04 PM
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hmmm saw this one zr's blog thot its quite fun... [so cut and paste! =P]
----------------- HAVE YOU EVER------------------
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: dun tink i drank that much of alcohol....
*Missed school B/coz it was raining:miss sch coz i sianz den got
*Ever put a body part on fire for amusement: NO WAY!
* Got hurt emotionally: guess so? whahah i am a weak gal all rite?
* Kept a secret from everyone: got got
* Had an imaginary friend: when i was young i guess
* Cried during a Movie: apparently, i cry v ezily... got sad scenes i will cry. =(
* Had a crush on a teacher: got whahhaha =X
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: u mean its on fire?!?!
*Had a New Kids on the Block tape: whats that abt? [yar lor wats that abt?!?!]
* Been on stage: yep
* Cut your hair: I juz did on fri!!! and now my hair is a complete disaster!!!
------------------FavORITES------------------
*Shampoo: nice smelling ones
* Soap: nice smelling ones
*Color: pink!!!!
* Day/night: Night [ muz have loads of stars]
* Summer/Winter: Winter [ i love snow!!!! OMG!! romantic!!!!]
* Lace or satin: satin~
* Fave animation: ok pardon me but.... [ powerpuff gals!!!! bubbles!!!!]
* Fave Food: italian food? [thanks to my dad]
* Fave Movie: pearl harbour? duno le...
* Fave Ice Cream: sticky chewy chocolate! [ bleah! ]
* Fave subject: eh CME?
* Fave Drink: ice lemon tea~
* Fave persons to talk to online: the usual frenz~
---------------RIGHT NOW------------------
**Wearing: nothing! [whahah NO LAR t-shirt and shorts!]
* Hair is: BOO HOO HOO [get wat i mean?]
*I'm feeling: tired, sianz diao, lethargic....
* Eating: AIR
* Drinking: AIR
* Thinkin bout: the ans to the nex question
* Listening to: Jolin
*Talking to: the computer
*Worn a skirt:i wear it in sch.....
*Met someone New : u mean today?!? yest den got la
* Cried: the last time i cried was yesterday~ not cry la tear coz of the dumb dumb tv show
* Cleaned your room: My room is like a pig-sty [ my mum sae one!]
* Done laundry: not realli...... =X
* Drove a car:whahah not me drive! *wink*
--------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
*Yourself: i should be bcoz thats the key to success rite?
* Your friends: some?
* Santa Claus: when i was young.....
* Tooth Fairy: my bro does!
* Destiny/Fate: Fate
* Ghosts: Yes? Maybe? No? duno?
* UFO's:Yes? Maybe? No? duno?
-----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
*Like anyone?: i like my frenz~~~~~
*Who's the loudest: Guang Yi! [agree! ok maybe i am second.... =| ]
* Who's the weirdest: i dun have weird frenz la i have nice frenz
* Who do you go to for advice?: myself!
* Who do you cry to?: the wall
* When you cried the most: hmmm at nite?
* What's the best feeling in the world: to live happily eva after with ur loved ones~
* Worst feeling: lonelinez
*A message to anyone/everyone?: life is BeauTifuL~
whahah ok thats abt it~ hope ya ppl will start to love me more and more whhahah
ok beta stop being so crazeeeee
Queen Tona @ 11:48 AM
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Saturday, June 21, 2003
lalla~ its a beautiful morning!!
haha guess zr is right after all~ feel quite good after a nite's sleep!
tink i realli got quite bad mood swings yea?
(sorry 4 last nite arh zr! )
quite eager for today's outing.... and of coz tonite.... [hope nothing dramatic happens...] long time neva go out with xr they all le......
miss the sec sch days i guess.... now a days wanna go out aso hard to really arrange a time... everione juz's bz with their own stuff...
wonder wat my life wld be if i went to ajc with xr, sr and hx though.....
well one thing 4 sure. i wudden have been in the wonderful class of mine now!!!
heex come to tink of it i reali love S05!
yea~ *muacks*
Queen Tona @ 10:41 AM
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Friday, June 20, 2003
Aniwaz let’s juz begin by saein THANKS TO ZP!
for helping me with the blog…. I am almost a computer idiot….
Today’s a bad day to begin my first entry…..
Because I got a feeling I will prob scared all the “readers” away with my MOOD
( rite… those who want to leave rite now, please leave)
it’s a bright and sunny day I wld sae..
did sum studying..... and as planned.... me went to the hair dresser~
rite... i noe... SYF is rd the corner.. and i am headin 4 a hair cut?!?!
i tink bing hao will murder me....
but heck la.... went to trim my hair a bit........
the hair dresser was quite shocked to see me again, so soon..
*shrugs* at least i contribute quite a bit to her income i guess...
i aso duno why, but it seems as if i find myself going to the hair dresser
whenever i am not in a rite mood ( dun ask me how i define it......)
i juz find joy in sittin there and lettin someone tend to me...
and well, after the hair cut, felt much better.
isit a physcological thing? i duno? i juz feel like some of my troubles are gone~
but well when i reach home and tried to tie my hair..... UH-OH
i had to put a hundred pins..... HECK i have a mth to grow my hair back...
provided i stay out of the wrong mood.
hw sent me a msg today at 7... [ hey! saw wm at je mrt with his gf]
it was a casual msg..... i noe that.
i was in the midst of my dinner.... and i juz lost my appetitie.....
i noe. i noe i shudden even have any rxn when i see that msg.
wats wrong with me?!?!? the other day i was juz saein i have gotten over it.
i have, havent i? den y the sudden change of mood when i saw that msg?
i noe v well he has a gf! den? i neva choose to believe in that?
when will i believe? when i walk on the streets and see the 2 of them together?
ARGH. FED UP WITH MY LIFE. MYSELF. MY MIND.
4get it.... its juz one of those days.... when my mood plunges to rock bottom.
when all i want to do is go out there and find sum body's shoulder to cry on....
*sigh* hope tml is a betta day~ going out with my frenz and later going to hc's house...
rite.... jia you.....
Queen Tona @ 9:49 PM
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testing again!123
Queen Tona @ 9:39 PM
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testing again!
Queen Tona @ 9:35 PM
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testing?
Queen Tona @ 9:30 PM
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testing tsting
Queen Tona @ 2:51 PM
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testing testing 1 2 3
Queen Tona @ 2:44 PM
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testing testing
Queen Tona @ 2:35 PM
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