the sad ugly past.
always back to haunt her.
no one knows.
except her.
no one can know.
except her.
and every now and then,
it returns.
its just like a scar.
forever there to remind.
as much as she wants to forget.
its never easy.
who can she blame
who can she question
alone in this muddle
she is really helpless
its scary the way things are turning out
because sometimes even she loses control
is there an ability to forget
so much so tat it doesnt return
the burden's too heavy
when is the time to abandon it
deep inside her
is a lost soul
confused. helpless. scared.
why, someone tell her, why..............
wat exactly is the meaning of all these.......
why on her and no one else.......
why causing so much pain to so many........
when is the cycle going to stop.....
where exactly is her saviour.
Queen Tona @ 11:43 PM
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
great. super turn off by the fact that i have lessons tml with the wife of the dust-emitter
and even more turn off by the fact tat we are FORCED into stupid groups.
how am i going to survive 13wks of tutorial wif her i duno.
i am juz glad tat its not seminars or i will realli die.
wat totally irritates me are those ppl who try to be funny, tink they are funny,
but are actually nothing but funny.
hai...............
aniwaz so todae i tried to do my strat tutorial, but to not much avail.
coz i end up doing any other things except the tutorial, which i tink is total crap.
so i watch youtube!
den i watch tv!
den i was online window shopping for a while.
hahaz.
aniwaz two things to share.
1stly, i watch the tv
and there was tis news abt some country having males going ard topless in shops.
why? coz they are supposedly there to let u gauge and see how those tops will look like
on ur other halfs or brother or husband or whoever u are buying those clothes for.
so basically eg, i want to buy a top for my father,
den i just go into the store, and den spot any topless guy which has the smilar build as my dad,
den i can ask him wear whatever i chose, and see wat it turns out.
i duno abt u ppl,
i find tis idea quite stupid.
i mean, unless u have the body of rain or wu zun,
i will be quite uncomfortable with the idea of half a dozen of guys, tall, short, fat, thin,
walking ard me topless.........
and i really wonder if their sales realli improve a lot,
haha imagine nex time there is a female version of such a thing,
i tink it will be the first to be boycott by women!!!!
and they will kill their bf if they ever enter the shop, let alone buy anithing.
aniwaz i was surfing ard and i saw tis.
looks so yummilicious.
haha ok laming.
better go.
will update on my tutorial tml. hehez
Queen Tona @ 11:51 PM
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Monday, January 22, 2007
yea. i finally finish my korean drama.
i guess we all need to forgive and then forget.
in order for us not to be tied down by all those burdens.
esp as we grow older and older......
there are really things tat we must learn.
things tat we werent taught in classrooms....
wat am i saying here todae. haha.
talkin abt O-L-D,
i think we are seriously really starting to grow old.
esp when we all start to think back abt the past,
and den sit down and replay those bits and pieces of memory,
and den smile and think...... what a wonderful time it had been.
seriously, i tink this activity has been repeated at quite a high frequency nowadays.
whether its alone, or with friends,
u start to think back on the old times, and den have a good laugh at all the funny incidents.
i used to only end up with bad memories abt the past,
but now, i can look back and see the happy and good side of it all.....
sometimes i wonder, where did all those time went to?
like its gonna be 6mths more b4 i enter the workforce?
watever's going to happen.
i am not ready to grow up actually. i juz want to put on the uniform again,
and sit in class, and listen (and slack if i want), and juz care abt how to finish my hw.
i believe school is the best place to find true friends......
no motives, no demands, just purely care and concern for each other.
hai..... wat am i doing,
sound like an old woman. *gasps*
watever it is,
no matter where we may all end up,
let's not forget where we started.......
Queen Tona @ 11:00 PM
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
todae's the day to go out.
hahaz.
went town to celebrate sr bday.
and all i spent on was food.
=X
aniwaz, i haf nth to blog abt actually.
haha juz tat i tink i am still v much in holiday mode.
so i haven done a single work. haven read a single page.
haven wrote a single word.
better start my engine soon,
haha but not b4 i rush finish my korean drama tml.
yippe yah.
oh and monday is coming!!!!
the day for..........
i noe i sae i onli have two loves. tony and kui.
haha but can i juz make him an exception? =D
ok ppl. have fun drooling hahaz.
nitezzzzzzzzz
Queen Tona @ 12:28 AM
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Friday, January 19, 2007
todae was housewife day.
ok no. maybe housegal day since i am no one's wife.
hahaz.
another's week of sch is gone juz like tat?
and the total no of days i been in sch so far is not even 5?
ok la, but i forsee life will get worse coz i tink i got the worst strat tutor eva.
i cant imagine....... ending off my last sem with sucha freak.
WHY OH WHY
realli never a single sem of peace.
and WHY OH WHY
cant we haf our own grp mates.
i hate working with ppl whom i noe i will definitely not click wif even a million yrs later.
and den having to go there and endure and act like we are so U-N-I-T-E-D. my foot.
ahhhhhhhhh
i dun wanna hafta endure another round of SPM
my heart cannot take it.......
*inertia*
Queen Tona @ 11:51 PM
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
firstly, i have asthma. after duno how long.
=X
and the doc still happily sae, "oh how come tis week so many ppl asthma?"
like i noe.
BOO.
aniwaz, so i din do anithing, i watch tv.
and watch arena. since my ex sch was on so i thot better watch to see wat happens.
and i can onli sae, wat a thrashing.
from the start of the 1st speaker, i knew the debate was a goner.
ok la. its a bit difficult to be the proposition,
but at least, i feel they din even manage to get the basic right.
and the examples they use? was =X
duno wat to sae la, i tink the oppo must be thinking wat an easy job.
i thot the first episode was better, though i dun understand y ri lost.
coz i thot they were clearly v much better lor.
aiyarz, but wat to do, its the TV.
so obviously they go for the one with more entertainment value.
okok.
shall go off to rest.
hope to get well REAL SOON
Queen Tona @ 11:23 PM
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Monday, January 15, 2007
sometimes. i can only say i deserve it.
or in more layman terms orbi quack
after having recovered from my sorethroat last week,
i have been eating a lot of chilli, coz obviously i cannot survive w/o chilli,
or rather, nth taste good w/o chilli.
and yesterday, i ate one whole packet of the pillows, which is tis chocolate puffs with choco inside. and tat was the last straw.
went to bed with my throat feeling v dry,
den i thot, sian........ dun tell me........
den morning still v dry and feel v hot........
so i tink for the whole of todae i drank 2 plus litres of water......
now at least getting better.......
so morale of the story?
dun do things ur way,
especially when u noe, ur way is not the right way.
dun eat food u like,
especially when u noe the food u like is not the right food for u.
dun fall for the person u like,
especially when u noe the person is not the right one for u.
crap.
aniwaz todae's monday!
the day for my wu zun and ella show!!!!
WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~
and the time for tis song
double WEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeee~~
我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
Queen Tona @ 11:34 PM
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
wats with the weather.
i really wonder.
there just seem to be a never-ending amt of rain.
must be that the sky is very sad......
tats y its crying non-stop.......
even i feel sad for the sky.
or rather, the weather made me feel so.
sometimes, i tink i am falling in love, with solitude.
like i can spend the whole day, juz doing nothing, by myself.
like i can just live my life, alone, and i tink i will be happy.
like i can eat, play, slack, talk, complain, laugh, shop, by myself.
like sometimes i dun even feel like going out there to interact with any new ppl.
i just want to stay in my own comfort zone. and let time pass by.
am i turning into a loner?
or am i somehow forced to become tis way?
sometimes i really wonder,
seems that as i grow older, the more "enclosed" i get,
i dun feel like opening up to new ppl,
am i just plain lazy?
or am i just giving myself stupid excuses.
Queen Tona @ 11:45 PM
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
today.
i had a nasty shock.
then.
i had a pleasant surprise.
i guess. god is fair.
=D
Queen Tona @ 11:43 PM
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
@%*@%(@(%(@%@)%)@%)@%$(^^$^()!)!
i juz type a long entry and its gone.
DARN.
Queen Tona @ 9:54 PM
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
haven been blogging! AH.
aniwaz, damn unlucky to spend my last week of holidays doing nth.
nursing my illness.
except on fri when we went out for a while.
SAD.
the cough is more or less gone,
but i then had a terrible sorethroat,
which is only getting better now after i get a change of antibiotics.
sad.......
i tink its coz i haven been drinking water......
esp when i was in thailand.
=X
ok. aniwaz, got my timetable.
haha. tues and thurs : 12.30- 4.30
wonderful!!!!
hope to get some temp job......
ani lobangs?
Queen Tona @ 11:16 PM
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
omg.
i spent my first day of 2007 sleeping at home......
tis is sad.
and i cough until my lungs wan fly out le.
even more sad.
and tzr curse me sae it means i will have poor health tis yr.
most sad.
BOO. haha
aniwaz, heard of the bombing in bangkok.
scary man, to think i was juz there one week ago?
=O
wonder wat is the world coming to.
wat a sad way to start the new year.
i have been wanting to blog abt thailand trip.
but my cough makes me not feel like thinking and typing
haha.
so well,
nex time la.
Queen Tona @ 12:00 AM
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Monday, January 01, 2007
my new year resolutions:
1. Treat my frens better than last year
2. Treat my family better than last year
3. Treat my BROTHER MUCH BETTER this year. I MUST stop bullying him!!
Future plans:
1. Earn BIG BUCKS
2. Get married by 30
3. Get a SPORTSCAR
4. OWN a bungalow
5. Have kids!!!
THE ABOVE WAS DONE BY MY BRO WHEN I WAS BATH-ING.
haha save my trouble of typing.
actually i only wanted to post one line..........
which is.......
I cough all the way to 2007.
hahaz.
losing my voice. SUX.
aniwaz, great yr ahead ppl!!!
2007!~~!~!~!~!~!~!~
*hugs*
Queen Tona @ 12:09 AM
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