sometimes u really cant help wonder,
why nth seems to be going the right way in life.
i mean, if i haf one particular portion that is going well,
then at least i can take comfort in that.
but i guess things does not seem to be the case
at which particular part of my life did things start to go wrong.
i really wonder.or maybe, there wasnt any right to begin with.
so many things to worry abt/to be stress up with.
things within/not within my control,
things that are getting out of control,
things that have gone out of control......
i wish i have a better grasp of my life.
and i can path out exactly how i want it to be.
like how they say we sld plan our audit,
i wish i can plan out my life too.
so that things can go smoothly the way i want it to be.
as much as i hate to admit it,
i can very much conclude that my life is in a mess.
i duno where i am heading to.
no directions. no headings. no signals. nothing.
很害怕。
走不出去的黑洞。
辜负不了的期望。
掌握不了的未来。
承受不了的压力。
这一次，
我真的可以吗？
幸运女神，
你会帮我吗？
Queen Tona @ 10:47 PM
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
being ages since i last blogged. HAHA
some updates.....
work
actively searching for job. but so far. no good news. but not particularly worried.
not sure y too. maybe i just have a feeling i will leave by dec. so its ok.....
family
haha mummy has officially "retired". so now i get a lot of home-cooked meals.
omg, nth beats that. seriously.
oh, and mum has started to learn swimming.
so now the fav family pasttime is to head to the swimming pool as and when we are free. i mean, since the pool is like 5mins walk?
driving
haha, surprising, i have progressed to Stage 2 of my driving.... so effectively,
i can drive on the roads. just that i duno where to put my car when i stop haha.
as in cannot park..... and cannot u-turn etc. but well, takes time. hope to finish lessons by Dec and pass with minimal tries. ok. i aim pass at first time. though v hard. hohohoho.
twin anniversay
090909 was our 2 years. special guest appearance was boots.
and we exchanged gifts. and twin baked us cupcakes.
haha cupcake that looked like me! =D
omg, maybe i sld learn to make a cupcake that looks like my hubby too!!! =D
proposal VS time traveller's wife
caught my two most wanted to watch movie. proposal was so funny!!! and romantic!!! and of coz, v not realistic. u are not going to fall in love and marry someone within 3 days. NEVER. but den again, who say movies must make sense? they show how the audience want things to be, not how things should be in real life. time traveller's was actually ok. as in, i expected worse. coz obviously i know the book will be better. i just wished they had put included the last part of the book in the movie.
will i be the next one?
Queen Tona @ 9:52 PM
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Monday, September 07, 2009
TADA~~~~
today is my hubby's big day~~~~
and here is his new song!
haha i must give him some credit coz frankly i dun expect much from him
coz after all he is just an actor/model so to speak.
but i must say, i was pleasantly surprised.
HAHA
he has indeed done his wife proud. =P
i mean, of coz nth spectacular,
but definitely above my expectations haha. not that much to begin with. =D
Queen Tona @ 11:05 PM
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Sunday, September 06, 2009
sometimes,i question why this and why that.
although i noe, nth is fair.
but somehow, some ppl just seem to have it easier.
in whatever aspect u can think of,
and i just wished,that somehow, those some ppl can be me.
forget it.
just another feeling lousy day.
i want to be thankful for the things i have,
but sometimes its tough,
coz many a time, ppl have what i have,
and i dun have what they have.
Queen Tona @ 11:14 PM
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Thursday, September 03, 2009
i wish i can time-travel for a day.
so i can know wat to expect of the future.
but den again,its a scary thing.
wat if the future is not smth that i want,
and yet i can do nth to change it at all.
Queen Tona @ 10:54 PM
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