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Name: Jiahui
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Saturday, July 31, 2004

haha aniwaz, today is zong rong's [dalalama toh]bday~
so yep yep, happy bday my fren~
haha now tat u are of an equally same age, i feel much younger hahaz
k crappingz.
oh but one irritatin thing is actually last nite or maybe this morning haha i wanted to dedicate something to him on the radio like wat i did some days ago when we were havin our uno game in the hall.....
but well, duno y the stupid dedication din get to be read out......
so angry. and quite sianz diaoz coz waste my money siaz.
hurmphz.
oh wellz, k tats not the main pt.
hope ya enjoy urself today hahaz.
[how dare u cancel our outin! beta watch out!!!! hahahhahaz =P]

ok tats beside the pt.....
in a v sianz mood now.
let;s juz sae tat i am in a dilema now.
AHHHHHHHH
wat to do?
either decision i choose aso wun end up good i tink
and i seriously hate the indecisive me.
i guess i am juz those kind who will stick to something if it pleases others.
wat to do..... even though i totally detest it, i aso wun voice out.
HAI!!!!!!!!
y am i lidat.
cannot, i muz be firm.
gawd.......
wat to do
wat to do
wat to do


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Friday, July 30, 2004

heyo everione~ i am back from ntu~ haha actually i was already back yest but i was too lazy to blog la huh.
come everione, tell me how much u all miss me whahahahhaha
k la i shant make u all puke out all ur food la huh? =)

aniwaz, life;s been quite excitin in a certain sense this week
let's begin with hostel life~
haha ok la, it wasnt as bad as i thot it to be.
although on the first nite i realli cudden sleep.
i was in a semi-conscious state tat kind.
but well after all its fun la.
although i realli ate a whole lot of rubbish esp at nite when slackin with the gals.
haha and it was quite fun la, going crazy playin cards, singin and of coz our own japanwhite hahahaha. tats the best i think.
but well, its only the first week la so hard to sae if i got suited to the life there,
so shall see how.

sch is also quite sianz coz its only lectures started
and there are realli sum ppl who i realli detest to see appear in the sch.
i mean wtf, u see the same ppl in njc and now in ntu. i realli feel so sianz diaoz.
its like they are juz hauntin me with the past memories.
or rather i sld sae BAD memories.
*sigh* wat to do, its not as if i own the sch or sumthing.
but oh wellz, i am pissed! terribly!
and the worse thing is i seem to see them where-eva i go.
are we fated or wat?
F!

oh maybe i sld mention abt the smokin habits there la huh?
they juz smoke like where and when they like la.
even in the hall they aso stand at the corridor and smoke like no one's business.
sianz.
and today was even worse.
i was waitin for the lift. and den this old man came out
and i went in and i almost fainted la huh?
i cant sae it smells of smoke coz thats too weak a term,
it totally REEKS and STINKS and wat have u, of the stupid smoke la
WTF!!!!!! if not the fact tat he is a old man, i will call the police and arrest him la huh.
does he have a teeny weeny bit of brains to noe tat the lift is like enclosed?
like no ventilation?
so i was tinkin ok nvm, i wait for the NEXT one.
den i went open letterbox and i was walkin to the another lift which juz came
when that same old man entered the lift in front of me again with the cigarettE!
my gawd, i juz stare at him, covered my nose
and CLIMBED all the wae to eight floor.
i feel like i am losin my rights here!
yesh, losin my rites to take the lift!!!!!!! =(

y cant the ppl juz bloody hell stop smokin?
u all wanna die early its none of my business
but pls la huh? i dun wanna die early coz of all the smelly smoke tat i breathe in without a choice!!!!! F!
and den wtf cigarettes are so expensive. if everione is claimin to be so poor nowadays,
den stop smokin and u will prob find urself a few hundred dollars richer la huh?
spendin money to shorten ur own life and even the lifes of others near u?
i dun see much sense in tat.
i realli dun.

may we all have cleaner and nicer air ard us,amen~
hahaz



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Monday, July 26, 2004

in ntu now~
sch sucks
hostel sucks
the weather sucks
only my roommate is a bit nice.
hahaz
oh wellz, tml shall be yet another day.

dun miss me too much guys.
haha and zr dun worrie cos gals wun dare to abandon u all one hahaz.
it will be u abandonin us for ur other gal frens haha *wink*
 
worst news of the century
ms papaya has landed in ntu.
 


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Sunday, July 25, 2004

ok to all my fans out there. haha as if there is any la
i am leavin for hostel.......
v sad......... as in realli v v sad......
as in reali reali reali reali v sad......
[ok u get the idea?]

sigh. in less den 5hrs? i will be away from my hse,
my room, my bed, my bathroom, my table, my softtoys that i cant bring over,
my tv, my radio, my aircon, oh wells, and the list goes on.
haiz, duno wat to expect.
and of coz, i wun even have any chance to blog......
v sad!!!!!
haiz, i seriously think i will be homesick badly.
haha who noes maybe i will juz run home in the middle of the nitez.
=P

oh wellz, at least i brought my tony and marimo to accompany me.
hahaz. maybe tat can cure me a bit.
hai, seriously la, i aso duno wat to expect there.
=(
how ppl? i juz hope i can survive.

haiz, actually i have tons of things to blog one laz.
but u noe those kinda lost for words kinda feelingz.....
wateva it is, i will juz miss everithing and everione. =haha tats besidez the gals coz i will see them everiday!!!! hahaz

k, stay tune for my update on my uni life lahz.
till then, i will be stranded in the "zoo" in boonlay.
hahaz dun understand y zoo? nvm la hahaz.
private jokez.
all rite, ppl, till then, farewell and take care~
i miss ya all~ *muacks*

----haha and so sorrie din update on all my happenings for the week.
aiyarz its juz exciting and fun and fulfillin hahahz.-----



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Friday, July 23, 2004

ok, i noe i haven been bloggin but i have been v busy.
wat to do, my freedom is coming to an end muz make full use of it.
abt my adventures, well maybe update tml.
now i muz blog on smth real impt.
it concerns my future!!!!!

hw went for camp and sae tat she realise more den half of the guys smoke.
yes SMOKE!!!!!! wtf.
rude shock. bad shock.
have i told ya ppl how much i detest smokers.
as in REALLY detest?
as in UTTERLY detest?
omg. i cant imagine sufferin from air pollution daily.
and sittin near ppl who stinks totally of smoke.
URGH!
my gawd.......
now makes me wonder how many % of the guys actually even manage to fulfil my 1st and most basic requirement: not to smoke.
urgh.
at this rate, i am gonna have to remain single all my life and drown in the clouds of smoke!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!

ban smoking~


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Monday, July 19, 2004

i am feeling so terribly old~
aniwaz, went back to peiying pr today hahaha.
v rare coz the last time i was there i was in sec 3?
=X

aniwaz, i neva realise how old i was until
i saw mrs chan's son in the peiying uniform.
haha coz the last time i saw him, he was a baby!!!!!
my gawd, now tats wat u mean by watchin the time pass haha.
aniwaz, peiying change a lot, the sch is so much nicer and newer now.
tat i am so jealous! i dun care i want to go back to pri sch again~
terriblez.
haha but well one thing is the teachers dun seem to change at all.
hahaz, as in they are still how i remember them to be.
aniwaz, its a damn weird feeling to be enterin a class
where the kids look so young and den it seems as if yesterday tat i am juz sittin there.
listenin to mrs tan nag us etc.
hahaz. k now i feel like some old woman reminiscing abt the past.

nvm, aiyarz and another thing, sch is startin in a week's time?!?!?!?!?
hard to believe tat i juz spent like 8mths of holidays juz like tat.
its like omg, so fasT????
urgh. i duno wat to expect in the uni la seriously.
and i dun have a v good feelin abt it either.
wateva.
beta adopt a positive attitude and juz see how things go......


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Sunday, July 18, 2004

this is it!!!!
i want to watch brotherhood!!!!!
i muz watch!!!!!
within this week!!!!

haha k, anione interested......


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Saturday, July 17, 2004

yawnz. realise i haven been bloggin much.
aniwaz, my main focus for today shall be hostel~
coz i went to collect the keys on thurs with the gals.

so aniwaz, it was truly not anithing i anticipated it to be.
its truly neva judge a book by its cover or rather neva judge a hostel by its cover.
firstly, the room is small. smaller den my bedroom. [sob]
the floor is so dirty its unfit for humans to step barefooted on.
the bed is so unwelcoming.... dirty and not springy
everywhere is filled with thick layers of dust.
and the light is so dim and weak.
and the room is juz so so so so so so small.... for comfort!!!!
=(
and the toilet is even worse.
there are only four cubicles for shower, i tink i will juz die there.......
depressed.
and there is no tv, no com no nothing in the room!!!!!!
more depressed.
i tink juz by lookin at it makes me not feel like stayin there...
k, i shall juz go there and try to live the so called independent life for 2 mths
and get out of that place soon.....
unless haha unless got shuai ge lah, or i start to realise the ppl are nice haha. =P

and one more thing, hall 9 seems to be those kinda seriously happenin halls.
so i tink they can juz kill me.
i have no interest in sweatin my heart and soul for one silly hall la huh?
and den when i went to collect keys, the gal nex to me was in such heavy makeup
she look like she was going to perform wayang.
and pls lor seriously lor, save me laH!!!! i dun wanna be surrounded by bimbos
who tink of nothing but dolling themselves up and lookin pretty even in unearthly hrs.
they beta stay further away from me or i will probably drown from the thick layers of foundations tat they have applied!
gawd....... y am i in sucha hall!!!!! =(
urgh!!!!!



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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

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haha now i am over the moon manz!
=) i feel like an angel haha


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lala! 5566 is on i-weekly!!!!! or rather tony is on i-weekly!
*muacks*
haha he is juz so cute lor. my gawd.....
k ppl rush down to ur nearest news-stand to buy k?

aniwaz, i forget to mention tat i am living in hall 9!!!
[haha dun worrie hw, its v nice and new so u and weber can feel free to drop by!]
k laterz~



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Sunday, July 11, 2004

watch the nkf show.
the kids realli look so pitiful.....
imagine the kinda pain they hafta endure lah...

so i guess. we sld realli be thankful for wat we have and who we are.
dun complain over the slightest things becoz if u think u are v ke lian,
i guess there are many more ppl out there who are more ke lian den u bah.
be glad tat we can walk, we can smile, we can talk, we can hear......
and juz the v fact tat we are here on earth and in the best of health.

k, aniwaz, juz wanna sae.
i love u daddie!
i love u mumie!
i love u bro!
i love u all my frenz!
i love myself!
*huGz*


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Saturday, July 10, 2004

let's begin with.......
happy bday my dear zeyan [aka fear]!!!!

welcome abroad the "19yrs old" boat
*hiack hiack* now i have one more person who is the same age as me!!!!
yippe yAH!

aniwaz, today i wenta ps to watch windstruck.
bad move. wrong choice. total disaster.
i mean, the movie was all rite, ok, even sad at times.
BUT
me and xr din even feel a single urge to tear lah.
let's see, we were sittin at the rite middle two seats.
so the couple beside her supposedly talk thru out the show and made such stupid comments tat she was controllin her laughter at the saddest part and me was aso affected.
haha, u noe those kinda wanna laugh but cannot or will get killed tat kind?
and the couple nex to me even worse....
i bet they din even noe wat show they are watchin la
unless u are tellin me they can understand korean lang la.
they were simply all over each other......
i mean, ok fine, i noe there is lover's seats and yes u prob needa make GOOD USE of it..
but WTF!!! its so damn distractin all rite.
i mean, its not tat i am even interested in lookin but can feel the "movement" nex to me and even sounds one k...... total turn off.
they can do wateva they want at the back but here!!!! at the front few rows!!! beside me summore! realli askin for a beatin.
wah liew!!!! i realli v irritated lor. cant they juz sit and watch a movie for a few hrs without pouncin on each other......
urgh.
fine la fine la, i am single la. u can sae that i am juz cannot eat grapes sae grapes sour.
but urgh!!!!! i feel so....... k wateva.
i am bloody pissed!! i wanna complain!!! hurmph!
and the worse thing is they seem younger den me!
my gawd.... wats with teenagers nowadays.
are they too desp or are they too too desp?
nonetheless, the movie was all rite.
farni and sad.
zhang he looks stunning,
and i dun care, i pray tat i wun have such horrible hungry-for-humans couples beside me in future when i go for movies esp at ps since there is lovers seat.
if not i will juz ask them to stop wateva they are doing
i mean if they find it hard, i can sacrifice and sit BETWEEN them.
hurmph!!!!!!!1
URGH!

after tat, went shopping.
i bought a pencil case and a jacket.
actually neva realli consider or wateva.
juz bought in a spur of the moment.
one of those "i feel rich","i wanna spend money", "i wanan buy stuff" days.

oh yah, i watched troy on vcd on fri,
wonderful, i love it totally.
i love war movies, den they potray true courage and bravery and talk abt the love for their nation and ppl etc.
omg.........
was so afraid when hector and brad pitt battled and den after tat brad pitt still dragged hector's body back with his horse.... omg. so sad lor. i cried!!!!
and after tat the hector's father came and beg to have his son's body back,
total touchin!!!! *sob sob*
and the last part, when brad pitt got shot coz he wanted to save tat gal he loved.
so sweet, so sad, so courageous!!!!
now this is wat i call a real man!
hahaz
k am lookin forward to the brotherhood.
yeah~


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Friday, July 09, 2004

HA. today me in a shopping spree so i wenta buy loads of stuff.
let's see, me wenta buy stationery, mascara, lip stick, undergarments [haha =P ]
and my shampoo.
hahaz, crazy lah juz feel like spendin money, as if i got tons of them lah.
but oh wellz, its juz one of those days where i start to be v vain lah huh? hehez.
gals wat! =)

aniwaz, hostel...... quite excited quite nervous......
coz in the end i am going to live with a total stranger from god noes where....
[tat is if i accept the thing which i haven]
i mean, i am not exactly a v v friendly person
but oh wells, maybe this is a good chance for me to learn how to get along la huh?
duno leh.
feeling quite miserable too. the fact tat i may be left alone to deal with some weirdo from no-where..... *shudders*
but tats the worst scenairo la.
pray tat i can be the best of frens with my rmmate bah.....
*sigh*

k its prob wrong of me but heck, i am feeling so abandoneD!, left out! detached! =(
aiyarz, its juz me here worryin abt prob nothing.
k haha,
nvm, i will survive!!!!!!

lala. havoc time tml~~~~~


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Thursday, July 08, 2004

k i am bored.
v bored.
let's have a competition here......
namin marimo contest

all suggestions are welcome~

aniwaz, zhang a wei's new album is so nice and cute!
k now i am tempted to buy.
and i tink his singing skills improve le!!!
tats wat i like abt him! willing to work hard man!
ganbatte!!!!


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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

aniwaz, sorry abt the missin cat entry there. [ haha if anione remembers tat]
i did blog last nite but the dumb internet a bit prob arh, so it din get to publish itself.
wateva. nothing impt.

today's another first for me coz i wenta ajc for my first time!
the gals went back to take their certs and i tagged along.
strange la, strange tat i only come to see the sch when i alreadi graduate from jc.
and realli, the sch cld have been where i ended up in
if not for somebody, some circumstances, ok wateva.
u get wat i mean?
i mean, its near, convenient and wat have u. and my close frens were all there.
so yah, i realli cld have ended up there. and not njc!~ but i guess its all fated.
njc though boring and nerdy and stony and whateva terrible things u can tink of but did bring back many many many nice and sweet memories for me. the sch, the ppl, and of coz my dear dear frens which i have made.....
and the fact tat we went back to aj today, made me kinda miss nj yet again....
how i wish we were back to the sch-ling days.... *sigh*

u noe the feelin when u juz sit at the particular same spot and u can literally see the past playin in ur mind. the canteen, where we pig out, the tc21, our fav clzroom, the lts which neva fails to freeze everione, the lib where we mug our hearts out till nitetime,the track where we run like there is no tml, the dance studio which contains all our tears sweat and hardwork, the gym, the hall, the million of stairs, the corridors, the bookshop, the lockers, the labs... everithing...... i can literally see myself rite there and then. but then again, those were the days la.... its all over.
i am old.
i am suppose to move onto a new phase of life.
uni is startin in 3wks time?
heck. i am so reluctant to change. to go start a new life.
everithing is juz so unsettled and uncertain.

what will happen to me and my life?
duno. i am feeling so ???
isit juz me or wat.

=\



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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

.
isit this sweet? haha.

yawn rainy day. makes me wanna sleep.
stay tuned for my entry later
haha will tell u guys abt my encounter with the CATS. meow~


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Monday, July 05, 2004

yep peeps its me back here crappin again.

aniwaz, have u ppl eva done anithing crazy juz becoz someone mentions tat he/she wld realli love to have this this this?
yesh, the word here is crazy. becoz u find urself so easily influenced.
its like ur actions are juz governed by that someone.
and den u start to revolve ur entire life ard the person.
u do all u can to help tat person get wat he/she wants.
yesh, all u can, even if it means sacrificin ur time, sacrificin ur sleep
but u tink its all worthwhile.
but wat happens in the end? he/she merely juz mention a 10q.
he/she wun even noe how much trouble u have gone thru juz to get things done.
wat u have done prob doesnt even seem significant when compared to others
who merely went to a gift shop and grab something off the shelf.

so have u wasted ur efforts?
oh no, u find ppl saein tat as long as its for the someone i love,
i dun mind doing anithing for him/her even though there wun be anithing in return.
WTF, to me its utter bullshit.
ok, maybe everione else can be tat wei3 da4 but not me.
i am a v selfish person.
u want me to give something unconditionally? w/o even a single return?
i cant.
i cannot sit down here and sae tat as long as tat someone is happy now, i will be happy.
becoz i wun.

y cant i be the one who is happy?
after going thru all the trouble arent i the person who most deserved happiness?
y isit tat everione gets things so conveniently and i am juz like a bloody fool down here.
am i realli tat unlucky?
i had a good cry last nite....
i juz sat on my bed and cry my hearts out.
y isit tat time and time again i put in my heart and soul and i get hurt again and again instead....
i keep tellin myself tat if i try harder the nex time,
u may start to notice my efforts. i will finally get something in return......
i realli hope tat somehow my efforts have not gone to waste,
tat somehow it has not gone unnoticed.
but y is this happening?
y am i here crying for someone who isnt worth my tears.
y am i here crying for someone who wun even noe tat i am here cryin coz of him.....

i am feeling so weak.
sld i carry on believin? sld i carry on trying?
or sld i juz put an entire stop to this entire nonsense.


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Sunday, July 04, 2004

k this is dear jh reportin on the outing today as promised.....

haha, cos gals plus 38 club [minus weber and plus cc]
wenta kTV!!!! as sorta real BELATEd bday celebration for hw.
it was great fun realli! i muz repeat, its GREAT FUN
i mean, ktv is realli abt a whole grp of frens go sit down and sing and chit chat
and get together and have fun!
and den u sing like there is no tml and no one cares whether u sing nice or not.
wonderful~
aniwaz, as usual there were a variety of songs.... some which i neva picked when i go ktv coz i tink they bring back real bad memories.
but well, after singing my hearts out today, i realise prob i wasnt as affected as i thought i wld be. haha so nex time can choose tat for ktv.
and i cannot stand it coz they sae i sound like tat stupid cyndi..... TERRBILE.
i realli realli dun sound like her!!!! i dun like her!!!!!
=( y do i have such a terrible voice.
feel so sad.
aniwaz, it was really fun, too bad weber missed out on our outin YET AGAIN...

after tat hw left and the rest headed for spiderman 2 at cine.
aniwaz, a lot of ppl sae its damn nice but i find it so typical.
its those kinda u watch, u noe spiderman wun die, u noe the bad guy will die.
and den u noe the endin will be the city being peaceful again and den u noe tat the nex movie will feature yet another bad guy.
so wats so good abt the movie? maybe in this time when the entire world is in a utter mess with ppl killing other ppl and holdin others hostage everi other day and bombs exploding everi fornite, everione is hopin for a "hero" like spiderman to come save the world bah.
maybe la huh, aiyarz but well the world is really scary now, ppl are becomin cave mens....
scary to see them killing here and there like no body;s business.
aiyarz wats the big deal rite? juz live ur own life la, do they find joy in killin ppl or do they really tink tat after they kill like how many ppl den their problem will be solved.
terrible. heck, k i am digressing.....

back to the thingy, after movie gy left coz he needs to book in early tonite [ poor thing]
den the rest, headed for chicken rice at far east and proceed to heerens to shop for gift for zr's fren which is when yz left and the rest haha not much rest left.... went to heerens!!!! of coz, me wenta show zr my dear marimo's zhen mian mu!
haha i gave him warnin first k, haha in case he faint and i have to carry him down i will faint myself..... haha [ maybe u guys sld refer to wat he feel abt my marimo in his blog]
k la, i noe i am stupid, dumb, lame, silly wateva but well i guess i juz like it
for no reason, i means its reali like how u like someone and u cant find a reason as to y u like him/her.

k la, i am going insane i think. i am going insane abt the fact tat i have havin such conflicin thots recently. sometimes i haf a strong urge to find someone and maybe start sum relationship, and den sumtimes i haf the "guys are such jerks and waste of time" kinda mindset..... craze. zr sae i haf high expectations, really? is it too much to ask for to find someone who i love and loves me back? probably. does this kinda relationship really exist in the 1st place. terrible.
and apparently my dear marimo is supposed to bring love and happiness to all ard me.
ha, i noe its juz a dumb legend la, but well, sumtimes u rather believe in silly things den to believe in urself.
seriously i dun even have much faith in myself.
i dun have much confidence abt myself.
sumtimes i feel juz so small when compared to others.

wateva, heckz. so will marimo really bring me happiness?
am i even entitled to real happiness? or perhaps its juz me stopping myself from attainin it. wateva the case, u'll neva noe.
maybe someway down the rd, u see me tellin another story,
u find me happily in love,
or maybe someway down the rd, u realise tat after readin my blog for so long,
i am still tat pathetic me.
[ i wun be surpised if tat happens, becoz i am realli not tat nice/gd a gal......
in fact, i dun tink i am a realli nice person at all...... =( ]

k enuff crapz for the day.
oh ya i muz mention this......
zr keeps indirectly implyin tat i am short!!!
how can u do this to ur fren!!!
u noe how much u broke my heart whahahha.
dun fren u liaoz la, esp after wat u wrote abt me in ur blog. hurmph.
i can be as petty as k u haha.


lala~ k. catchin tv..... 2.35am~ portugal vs greece!!!!!!
i dun care greece betta win
i hate portugal!





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Saturday, July 03, 2004

i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo

forgive me but i am tat excited!!!!!!
i got my marimo all thanks to XR!!!!!!!!

my gawd, i luv her so much, she actually bought marimo for me!!!!!
so kind of her!!!!! *huGS*
although i did sae tat i will marry whoeva buys it for me la,
aiyarz but i cannot marry her or zp will kill me,
so nvm la, we shall be frenz 4eva!!!!!!
haha, so happy!!!!!!!

actually i aso duno y i am so obssessed over it.
but i realli like it a lot.
it may seemed a bit stupid but well, i like it. tats enuff.
omg, its juz so exciting......
the thot tat i got my marimo is omg.....

=)
thanks xr, realli thanks!!!!! haha dun worrie i will tink of u when i see my dear marimo!

aniwaz, din get anithing from zara nor mango. nothing nice.
got a polo T instead!
haha but tats beside the pt
coz of coz highlite is my dear marimo!!!!!
b4 i end this entry allow me to........

i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo
i got my marimo

=P




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Friday, July 02, 2004

hehez. was out in town with my cos gals~
and so qiao coz all 3 of us turn up in white T and jeans skirt!
now this is wat i called mo4 qi4!
my gawd, i miss them so much!!!!
haha, it juz feels good to crap and shop ard mahz.
but well, we ended up with nothing though.

tml's gonna go town again.
headin for mango and zara sale.
muhHAahaHAHAHAa.
sales are the best la!

oh yah and sun's KTV!!!!!
yeah!!!!!
and see cos gals again! with 38club.
heex.
lookin 4ward.

k laterz~


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Thursday, July 01, 2004

here's a treat!!!!!
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oh boy its been long since i blog a decent entry~
oops not tat i mean my other entries were indecent, aiyarz u get my idea la huh?
let's see wat are the happenin stuff tat has happened these few days.....
yawnz, actually nothing.
haha =P

aiyarz, boring boring boring..
everione;s talkin abt going camps/orientations in the uni.
seriously lah, they dun REALLI look exciting or attractive to me.
and realli, i dun feel like going to a single one of them.
call me anti-social la, but wats the whole pt of payin $$
and havin to go torture urself 4 5days, and acting all friendly and enthu,
and playin all those dumb dumb games and gettin all dirty and wet.
and at the end of the entire thing, ok maybe u make one/two close frens
but the rest? prob they wun even bother to wave a hi when they see u the nex time.
urgh.... sick and tired of puttin up an act and actin as if i am tat friendly.
so will i go for any?
undecided.

of coz the other major happenin was the huge BLACKOUT...
and lucky me wasnt affected.
but well, i noe wat its like la.
suddenly u feel so lost and helpless coz there is no light and nothing to do.
and den u start to realise how dependent u alwaz were on electricity....
yawnz. quite terrible experience la or rather tramatising.
esp for those who are stuck in the lift.
my gawd, i cant imagine if it was me, i wld have fainted.
but well, if i am trapped in the lift together with tony, HAHA
tats a totally different story, =P
and did ya noe tat the iweekly sae tat tony is stella's rumoured bf!
my gawd totaly absurd! how can tat happen!!!!! hurmph!
i dun care, rumour only la huh, dun believe arh!


aniwaz, got my programs all up for the nex few days,
so its havoc time yet again!!!!!!!


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