sigh. i conclude i hate mondays.
especially starting it with the 306 lecture.
its demoralising and stress-ing the hell outa everyone.
just totally felt lost in space.
english never sounded so foreign to me.
numbers never appeared so scary to me.
den followed by the 206. multinational exchange.
i seriously wanted to puke blood.
i dun understand his english. he dun understand our english.
we ask him tis, he answer everthing but that question
i mean, i noe he mean no harm, and in fact he is nice,
but nice doesnt helps. in my understanding of wat he is talkin abt.
so everytime i just go lesson to witness some examples of communication breakdown.
hai. tat sums up my long and hungry 6hrs of lessons.
now i am just swimming in the readings.
literally. i think i have ard 200+ pages of readings & frs & all the acts waiting
for me, not to mention half of the Scotts textbook,
and den a few chapters from the 2 other texts,
and den seminar and lecture notes tat requires re-studyin to self-understand,
and prob a dozen plus undone semniar questions,
plus one seminar assignment to be handed up tis week,
plus two project presentations coming up.
and we are only in the 3rd week of sch.
welcome to my life. =\
Queen Tona @ 12:54 AM
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Monday, August 21, 2006
can someone tell me why there is so many things to do?
i haf endless readings waiting.
and i can never seem to clear it.
now i am still clearing the first week's readings.
tis sux.
and i still haf so many other stuff to attend to.
=(
watevers.
the only good news is that starting from nex week,
i will have two free days. tues and fri! =)
budden again, free days is for mugging.
sianz.
its already tis hectic now,
i cant imagine when the projects start coming in,
and den i stilll hafta go IMF,
and den i am stuck wif lousy tutors again
ROAR.
y isit tat there is not a single sem of peace?
and recently i keep dreamin abt the same stuff,
i aso duno why.
its like the setting may be different but the gist of it is the same.
and there is no much link of tat to my life,
so i aso duno why.
weird.
放不下
龚诗嘉
词:徐世珍曲:方木雄编曲:tim ngoh
你好吗
你的夜是不是跟我的一样漫长
是不是
还把我给你的爱好好戴在手上
要坚强
我常常对着镜子里的人大声讲
虽然说
孤独的想一个人好像一种惩罚
msn上太多的路人甲
偶尔你也该上来说说话
想着你的温柔
想着你的模样
我放不下
都说过了再见
我们各自飞翔
各自长大
抱紧爱会挣扎
放开爱会心慌
神也很忙
到底要实现哪个愿望
离开你那麽傻
可以後侮吗
风很大
怕你又穿得太少会让自己着凉
我很棒
一个人换了灯泡房间变得很亮
每一天
发生的事情我都好想要跟你讲
爱很怪
什麽都介意最後又什麽都原谅
ooh心里最深的牵挂
越想遗忘越不能忘
Queen Tona @ 12:13 AM
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
wow. its been a bz weekend.
haven done a single piece of work as yet.
tats y tryin to mug now.
todae during training the trainer showed us funny clips in btw breaks.
haha got one which i thot was damn good.
it shows this little boy buying coke from the vending machine.
den he bought another can.
the two can of cokes were actually used to increase his height
so that he can reach and press for the pepsi.
haha. i thot it was quite a brillant clip.
=D
aniwaz, dun crap liaoz.
better go off!
tataz
and b4 i forget, i can forsee a tough sem ahead. **sigh*
i see it.
too clearly.
right smack into my face.
this sucks.
Queen Tona @ 1:13 AM
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
happy bday XR!!!
cheers to the years of frenship!!
*muacks*
Queen Tona @ 1:30 PM
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
so how was the long holidays for everyone?
haha i was faced with a funny situation.
match-making
ok, before i am going to be pictured as tis desparate old woman,
i must sae i never say i wan to "match-make"!!!!
i was just joking as u noe me,
haha, all becoz that person looks like tony.
hai, am i really tat old liao?
everyone dying to marry me off, including my frens?
haha, no la, i believe its all for fun,
so dun worrie everyone.
now tat the guys are entering uni,
i believe everyone is eager to fill up tat part of their life : love.
bz lookin ard for suitable candidates, hoping to meet that special one.
in a sense i tink i have aged mentally,
tis whole issue of yearning for love and support thing,
no longer true to a certain extent,
as in, i feel that even if at the end of the day,
i must end up alone, i can picture myself being happy.
not tat i am going to be a nun liao,
but as in, with or without, i think i can do fine.
watever it is, haha if love wanna fall on me,
i also cannot stop it right?
=D
tml going to see fireworks!
romantic~~~~
i love love love love love fireworks,
i tink i cannot declare enuff my love of fireworks.
hahaz.
~~~admist the dark sky,
i see bursts of hope and happiness,
befalling onto the world~~~
Queen Tona @ 10:39 PM
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
having survived 6hrs of lessons on the 1st day of sch,
i believed, there is nth much to expect for the rest of the week.
excpet for adding of GE tml,
which got me really pissed off,
coz we wanted to get forensic science and the last time i checked yesterday,
there was 40 plus vacancies,
and just now i check there was none.
apparently the add/drop either started w/o us knowing or
maybe its just those yr 1 who got to add/drop snatch all our slots.
the system is damn screwed up.
they sld let us have the priority ok.
irritated.
if i dun get my GE tml, i am going to slap ppl.
ROAR
aniwaz, i can forsee a disgusting sem ahead yet again.
today 1st thing in the morning,
the lecturer came and gave us black face and sae
we are supposed to be able to chant journal entries at the count of 3
and tat we mus remember aa101 aa201 stats, company law, biz law, fm etc
that basically means we must remember wat we learnt for the past 2 yrs.
damn sian.
not sian coz of wat we must learn
but sian coz he come and give us attitude early morning.
just totally spoils the entire day.
Queen Tona @ 12:39 AM
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
ok. i finally finished goong.
wasted so much of my tears.
i duno y leh, maybe its the fact tat i watched in so fast,
that i am too engrossed into the show,
tat i reali feel so sad and haiz for all of them.
even those "mean" ppl,
haiz. they werent mean for the sake of being mean.
so sad, everyone has sucha sad story behind them.
and den u try to see things from their perspective and u can
really understand y they do certain things sometimes.
after thoughts abt the show?
i duno, i have many thoughts running through my mind
so much so that i still feel very in the show right now.
nvm. i shall blog abt smth else first den.
tml is the start of sch
wat to expect?
the usual?
or maybe, something different
a rekindled hope?
or just an illusion?
i dun want to fall into yet another trap
so i am just going to be skeptical abt the whole thing
sld i choose to believe just once more?
can i really do so?
i tink i have progess on to a different stage.
where i am just not going to do anything abt anything.
so i am just going to give the heck care attitude towards everything.
i dun wan to be stupid and go and waste all my effort on useless stuff.
and den end up inflicting all those nonsense on myself.
and make myself so unhappy over nothing.
so watever it is,
i am not going to compromise my happiness over such things.
tis time around,
i am determined to not let anything affect me.
at least not in the negative way.
YAHOO!!!
Queen Tona @ 10:41 PM
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
progress so far: ep 16
tired tired tired.
i watch until todae already getting a bit giddy hahaz
coz must listen and read the synopsis
but nvm, its worth it hahaz
Queen Tona @ 12:31 AM
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
thanks to XR
i can end off my holidays with a BANG!
Queen Tona @ 11:54 PM
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
today is a happy day!!!
coz i went for a hair cut
and the highlight of the day
LONGANS!!!!
i love longans!!!
YEAH!
MUACKS
i can jus imagine tony carrying a basket of longans in front of me!!!!
k lame.
Queen Tona @ 11:49 PM
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how's this!
new look.
i am changing my add soon too.
stay tuned hahaz
Queen Tona @ 1:39 PM
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sometimes, i hate being a gemini.
this whole double personality thing sometimes just makes me damn tired
feeling sad when i am supposed to be happy.
feeling happy when i am actually sad.
am i being unreasonable down here?
or selfish?
or evil?
or am i merely jus asking for some reassurance.
den everytime i dun get any, i tell myself nvm, wait.
its stupid. pure stupidity.
and i know it myself.
den y is it that i allow myself to be so stupid?
sometimes i realli dun wish to blog abt such stuff,
becoz i dun want to be reminded of such issues, such thoughts.
i want to remember everyday as happy, fun and meaningful.
but wat happens if somehow or rather, things have to go the other wae?
its alway tis wae.
isit tat i set too high hopes and wishes?
and i care too much abt certain stuff?
wat i am? in the other party's eyes?
where do i stand?
just like any other ordinary passerby?
wat if it isnt the case for me?
den do i carry on like tis?
or do i adopt the method tat u use?
can i be stubborn and try one more time?
or do i just resign myself to fate?
i noe i have the ans,
its just an ans that i do not wish to happen.
i feel that i am beginning to lose it, bit by bit,
and when i try my best to cling on tighter,
it just slips away even more....
i am afraid of the day,
when i realise, all i am clinging onto was nth but the air.
Queen Tona @ 12:37 AM
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