AHHHHHHHH.
damn sianz, y am i so unlucky?!?!?!
keep bumping into old frens and their other halfs,
when i look damn lok kok in orchard rd after dance prac,
with extra large t shirt, shorts, slippers,
ugly bag, ugly specs, messy hair, oily face.....
oh gawd.
they must be thinkin wat the hell is wrong wif me.
BOO HOO HOO.
y must they catch me when i am most un-glam
havin a headache now,
sianz. i tink its the weather, freaking HOT.
i tink if i stay out in the sun for an hr, i will just faint.
have a lot of thoughts in mind actually,
but to type them all down is a different story altogether.
sometimes u tink u have very little, but actually u have a lot.
sometimes u look like u have a lot, but actually u have very little.
tats human beings. i feel.
as much as i tell myself tat i have a whole lot more when compared to some,
i still tink its not enuff.
and den i keep thinkin, y can't i have this? y can't i enjoy that?
and den i start to do stupid things that cause myself to be so misearble.
sometimes, i guess we just need to treasure wat we haf,
instead of forever thinking wat we can haf.
no one leads a perfectly complete and happy life,
happiness comes when u learn to accept wat life brings to you,
and make the most out of it. right?
so maybe from now on,
instead of dwelling on what i don't have,
i should think of what i do have instead.
=D
Queen Tona @ 11:55 PM
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Monday, December 11, 2006
todae is the first day after the exams tat i get to slack at home the entire day.
wow.
feel like a luxury man.
so i just tidied up my pig sty,
and you tube for most of the day.
now feels damn tired.......
watch ep4 of my ella show,
oh gawd, wu zun, i wan drag him outa the computer sometimes man.
cannot stand it.
and also managed to catch up on my dear shaowei show,
almost din wan to continue watching tat time,
coz in the middle the plot was realli damn pathetic,
but now towards the end, at least better a bit.
as usual, i can onli sae, poor shaowei,
bad luck in love.
forever.
friendship vs love.
logically, the answer seems clear,
but doing it is a totally different story altogether.
the 3-party triangle love r/s is sucha typical plot,
it happens almost in every drama,
but still, it never fails to "sell"
y? y isit tat someone will forever have to be left alone.
SAD.
anyway, e star awards yesterday was BORING, i thot.
i onli tried to stay awake for the sake of my tony and kui,
which i wld sae was worth it of coz.
haha, hehe, hoho. ok madness.
right, end of one slack day,
actually i tink its better having something to do,
coz i was feeling so sleepy the entire day.....
maybe partly coz of the rain,
so well, nvm starting tml bz bz,
and after tat, i am flying off to thailand~~~
woah.
i can onli foresee tat it will be a v special experience.
=D
Queen Tona @ 11:41 PM
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
OMG. tony and ah kui is here todae!!!!!
two lovers in one day.
hyperventilates.
Queen Tona @ 10:25 AM
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Saturday, December 09, 2006
how impt a role do i play in ur life?
sometimes, somethings......
i tink i must be insane,
to a certain extent i noe i am.
its like digging out some fossils from the previous century,
and trying to make sure things go the wae u tink it should.
its like trying to get some assurance of the past,
although it shouldnt even matter anymore now.
i duno y i have tis feeling,
like i dun see the reason to.
because i tink its stupid.
but den again, its sad.
i mean, i feel sad......
wats so difficult? abt just mere appreciation?
is it all such painful memories?
i am so very not confident, abt myself.
as a person.
i feel lousy, like i have such pathetic character.
and u jus haf to use sucha harmless sentence to prove me right.
and even manage to make me feel even worse.
everytime i tell myself i sld be angry,
like there sld be hatred, so as to get everything over and done with,
but to use hatred as an ending....
its just too extreme a measure.
sometimes, i just wan be a coward,
and seek comfort somewhere,
but who's going to lead me the way?
who's going to be my pillar of support?
crapz.
i hate writing such entry.
hate. hate. hate.
每个人的心里
都会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留
Queen Tona @ 11:33 PM
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Friday, December 08, 2006
b-u-s-y
t-i-r-e-d
s-t-u-c-k-e-d
to go ey or deloitte?
when i decide go ey, i start to hear bad things abt it.
when i decide to go deloitte, i start to hear bad things abt it again.
AH.
now wat?
y is everyone bitching abt everyone else.
tis sux.
someone help me decide.
and i realli tink i am going to be the last person.
last person to do wat?
i shall not state out the explicit.
but hai.........
there are some things tat u can work hard for,
but there are other things that u cant work hard for.
fate.
its all f-a-t-e
Queen Tona @ 9:21 AM
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
todae i wenta cut my hair with xr!
and its damn cheap!!!!!!
10bucks!!!!!!
YAHOO.
and it was at far east summore.
feel so shuang. =D
feel 10kg lighter. haha my foot. =X
and after i cut my right eye felt itchy and a bit pain.
den i just heck,
den by the end of the day, it was realli uncomfortable.
so i desperately try to find the reason.
den after washin my eye under water.....
i realise there was a 4cm strand of hair hidden at the top of my eyeball.
nice one.
WOHOO.
Queen Tona @ 11:33 PM
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006
well, seems like i din get pwc.
=X
coz hw got offer from them yesterday le.
ok la.
contented wif the rest actually.
so its decision making time......
but for now,
let me crack my brains..........
for some dance steps.
AHHHHHHHHHHH
oh i took the new mrt today. WOHOO
Queen Tona @ 12:42 PM
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Monday, December 04, 2006
yahoo! its monday! time for my fav show.
haha i can conclude tat ella realli can act man.
=D
aniwaz, exams been over for nearly a week?
but i haven been able to get my 8hrs sleep as yet........
feeling just as tired as b4.........
hopefully wednesday i can sleep MORE.
coz tml must reg subjects........
sianz.
tired tired tired.
and my legs are aching!!!!!
stairs are my enemy!!!!!!!
aniwaz, interviews are done.
not as tough as i expected it to be actually.
haha but i realli tink interviews are abt selling urself la.
so, its all white lies........
=X
and i got the 3 offers........
wat abt my dearest P????
i hav no idea.
hahaz nvm leave it all to fate.
lastly!!!!
tony!!!! kui!!!!!!
my two "lovers" are coming on sunday
tis is the first time i seriously love mediacorp.
hahaz.
and i tink it will be the first and last time =X
k over and out........
Queen Tona @ 11:35 PM
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Friday, December 01, 2006
YAHOOOOOOOOO
Queen Tona @ 3:49 PM
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hai.
interview later.
i am damn stressed.
tis is a thousand times worse den exams......
heard yesterday alreadi got ppl got offers from Ey....
=(
i duno, as in i had my interviews yesterday.
the first interviews of my life.....
but i duno how to gauge if it was good,
because i duno wat they want me to do.....
appear wat? enthu? friendly? serious? capable?
i just go there and be myself,
and tat makes me not v confident of getting anithing........
haiz........
y huh y?
i v STRESSED.......
wat if no one offers me anithing.......
JOBLESS?
=(
nvm,
wish me luck for later.
and hope someone accepts me........
Queen Tona @ 8:50 AM
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