i forget to mention
was meddling with the stupid friendster thingy though i am not really into it la.
manage to find so many long lost ppl but also neva ask them to be my frens.
and its so exciting to see how ppl are linked up.
the world is indeed a v small one. =)
Queen Tona @ 2:14 PM
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yawnz. i am so TIReddd........
seriously, had a stupid dream last nite, dreamt that i was fighting in a war.
btw who? i also duno, it was juz a totally bloody and scary and sad experience la,
woke up with a total major headache. UrgH
wateva the case, it was a total absurd thing and leaves me wakin up thinkin
those kinda like, "where am i now? what day is it now?" thingy la.
boo hoo hoo, no more of such dreams man......
now thinkin back still so scary....... i was tryin to dodge from a zillions bullets coming out from NO WHERE.
wateva the case, i am still safe and sound so rejoice~ and be thankful ppl!! muahahha
was watchin the stupid tv show: abt romance
whahaha, human beings are juz so so shallow. those who look presentable and pretty are the only ones who got flowers and "matched up" in the end. and den even havin like chance to voice out opinions and such also those gals get asked and u literally see 10 outa 10 guys swarming, yes the word here is SWARMING and droolin at those few gals. aiyo, the rest duno go there for wat, juz to fill up the empty seats man. and den the guys were there making a complete fool outa themselves saying wat all they want is someone with a kind heart all those kinda shit la, sae wat its not impt to be pretty etc. so give me ten reasons y u all seem to have missed out on the other contestants? pathetic.
aniwaz, juz tink those kinda match-making shows also v CMI one. who in the rite mind wld want to put themselfve on public display and go join such shows i aso duno.
wateva the case, juz crapping here. nvm my dearest zac is coming up soon. ciao~
Queen Tona @ 1:45 PM
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Tuesday, May 04, 2004
yep yep my dear frens, i am pleased to announce tat ur dear pal here has started to get onto the slackin slackin and more slackin mood. seriously it feel so so so shuang to lie on my bed, blast the music, slack, watch tv, or even juz stoning. =) k, i am a pig, lazy pig but i cant help it!!!! *Screams*
and i kept day-dreamin abt my tony!!!!!!!! Ah!!!
aniwaz, xr is havin a "great life" slackin at her work too. chat with her for a while whahha but the food show caught my attention a teeny weeny bit more so hang up to continue the show =P i cant resist the temptation of food....... basically i cant sae its been a meaningful day la but its been a well-spent day! i neva knew my bed was that comfortable.
oh ya yest nite juz happened to watch the holland v repeat on tv and it juz so happen to be the sad part abt tianyang and rourou....... totally depressing la. my heart juz felt so heavy thruout the show but i like the part when yang yang is talkin to rourou.... the part abt time coming to a standstill. yes prob, at times when things dun go ur way and u feel totally devasted, u feel and prob wish that at that pt of time, everything has stopped, time has stopped too. but seriously, no one is stopping for ya, no one is gonna stop the time and wait for ya to recover from ur shock.
so prob for any min spent in depression, sadness, anger etc, u are juz depriving urself a min of happiness in ur life. how many such mins can we afford to sacrifice? i guess its all in the mind. u can give urself dozens of excuses, tons of reasons y u sld be feeling so shitty, so miserable, so depressed, but at the end of this entire thing, its juz u who is depriving urself from being truly happy.
i used to think time can ease the pain, but i guess i was wrong. only me, myself and i can do something to ease the pain inside me. if i dun wan to be truly happy and move on, no one can force me, no one can make me do it. as for now, me is juz glad that i am able to come out of all these diff ordeals and emerge a stronger person! =) hey, i am not such a weak gal kae? =P
aniwaz, juz wanna thanks all my pals who have been there for me all these while. love ya ppl to bits. =)
*muacks*
Queen Tona @ 10:39 PM
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Monday, May 03, 2004
lala. spent my first un-employed day outside! =)
wenta ntu and den town with my dearest hw.
great way to spent my day whahhaha, although town was quite crowded and i duno y.
prob got to do with us la huh? all wanna come town and see us mahz
cant help it! *gasps*
tink shall start shopping and gearin up for the uni soon, tat is provided i have the $$$$.
guess it will be fun bah juz tat cant decide on whether to stay in the hostel........
cos gal all not stayin and i cant seem to find anyone else. YAWNz.
do ya ppl tink they will let tony come and stay with me? *blink blink*
aiyarz, heck la shall see how things go.....
yippe tml is yet another slackin day. lala~
k shall blog tml when i am free, which is most of the time MuhAHAhaAHa
Queen Tona @ 10:44 PM
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
yawnz here i am alone on net coz there is no work tml.
dun feel like sleeping. dun feel like doing anything.
feel like chattin with someone but i tink if i fone anyone at this weird time they will be so pissed.
nvm, shall enjoy this quiet night with me myself and my fav doll! *muacks*
nitez ppl, sweet dreamz.
Queen Tona @ 11:36 PM
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hmmmm allow me to sorta use up this entire entry to touch on really old stuff. =)
no la dun get me wrong i am not gonna get into the depressed mood again becoz i am way pass that.
i juz feel like using this entry to thank someone, yes, but prob he also wun be readin this la whahha
i guess i sld really thank him for havin played such an impt part in my life.
for all the notes that he will give when i go camp, go abroad and ask me to read one daily,
for all the cards that he will give, be it get well, good luck and of coz not forgettin the 7 cards he give as a "countdown" daily till my bday.
for all the small surprises he will spring in the wee early mornings when we meet to go to sch
for the zillions of hrs he has waited for me
for the millions of naggings he has given me
i look back now and i realise that when i compared myself to him, i neva really did give in my 100%
when i compared what are the things i have done/ not done, it all seem so small.
he's a damn nice bf, its juz me being mean, greedy and un-feeling.
wateva the case, the rest is history and its indeed how things sld have ended
he certainly deserved someone better and i guess this serve as a lesson for me too,
for havin take things for granted for so long.
as for now, hmmmm i shall juz slack for a week first coz i am currenly jobless whahah
and spend more time with myself
and spend more time with my old frens, jc frens etc.
and spend more time with my family
and spend more time at ktv, town, shopping
and spend more time eyeing for new guys muhahahah my standards are high k!
[ muz at least fulfil my first basic condition: look like tony sun!! muahahahha k kidding. =P ]
yawn yawn k off for a nap. so tired...... its great to be at home~
Queen Tona @ 4:06 PM
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Saturday, May 01, 2004
yawnz. did wat zr did.
whahah let me paste it here. tink its quite true too.
how you feel about yourself now (The Magician)
You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential. You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in your self and go for it!
what you most want at this moment (The Tower)
The cards suggest jiahui, that what you most want at this time is an easy solution to a problem. However in life, turmoil and upheaval often brings about change - just not quite as we would like it. Seize this opportunity of change as a chance for a new beginning. You may want to move home but will be experiencing setbacks.
your fears (The Hermit)
You are frightened of being on your own and loneliness, and you simply don’t know quite what to do. Take time to relax and in time you will have the answers. The Hermit signals a warning not to make hasty decisions, so try not to get too stressed, and if you have been unwell this is a time for rest and recuperation.
what is going for you (The Sun)
The Sun is shining on you, it's your time for success, joy and happiness. You will feel confident and full of vitality. It's a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, perhaps enjoy a well-earned holiday, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby. If you are not feeling this way take heart, you will enter this period soon.
what is going against you (The Devil)
It's like you’re in a drug-induced haze - it feels great and always leaves you wanting more. This is addiction pure and simple, whether it's an obsessive sexual relationship, money deals that are too good to be true, materialism at any cost or recreational drugs. Take care - it won’t lead to a happy ending.
outcome (The Empress)
This is a truly creative and fertile time. Expect the best if you are considering having a child, creating a new job or business opportunity or starting a creative project. The Empress symbolizes abundance, joy and happiness, and reassurance - a firm foundation for future progress.
Queen Tona @ 10:08 PM
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