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updates~
last week's training ended with the blink of an eye.
other than having to work 2rd shift for some days,
the rest of the days were well spent!
highlights include, dad's bday on wednesday where we went to defu lane for crab feast,
and friday the last day of core training,
where we ended at 1plus, celebrated mama's bday and went out for a feast in town.

let's post some pics~
(fotos thanks to evil twin and my laopo)

evil twin and me, and our messy table plus mulitple flipcharts behind

mama with his gay partner and the portek team~
PS: the FS are finally signed. YOHOO~~~

my training group for the 2 weeks,
haha having a guy in the group means,
we can slack more! =P

the gals that attended core training~
missing weber and wendy. such a pity.

finally, pic of me and laopo.
at the rate we are seeing each other,
i tink we are heading for a divorce. HA.

sidenote: tink my dark circles are getting more obvious. super SAD.

two weeks of toil ahead.
Hope to make full use of it!
update soon~~~~

Queen Tona @ 11:24 PM 0 comments

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Sunday, October 12, 2008

this time of the night,
i feel detached from my own life,
away from the work stress, the troubles, the worries,
dun have to try to acheive what others expect of me,
dun have to conform with the majority and ensure i am not the odd one out.
its only me, and me.

i used to be really hate doing things alone.
like, eating alone, shopping alone.
if i have to be outside doing smth myself,
i make sure i chop chop get it done, and head home.
i just din liked to be doing things alone,
and getting spotted being alone.

but seems like the older me,
has beginning to be able to adopt a rather independent lifestyle.
financially, emotionally and psychologically.

makes me wonder,
if i truly enjoy this solitude,
or have i forgotten what is it like,
to have someone i know i can truly fall back on.

无敌是寂寞的，
大家眼里常无厘头的她，
其实，也有点寂寞。

Queen Tona @ 12:47 AM 0 comments

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Sunday, October 05, 2008

family day on saturday was in the zoo.
so i went to the zoo twice this year. =D
not that i am complaining,
but i am just concluding,
zoo has not much appeal left to old people like me.

i was just super hot and tired.
carrying the laptop and walking around the zoo is no easy task.
and going back to work after half a day in the zoo is almost mission impossible.
but, i guess,
even if its mission impossible,
we must make it possible.

this whole work-life balance thing,
i duno what to comment.
in the sense that, given the unattached me,
as compared to those who have their other halves to answer to,
i sld be very free, no commitments, nothing,
so i sld be putting my heart and soul into my job,
even if it means working inhumane hours.
but even so, i dun want to.
as in, even if i dun need to go dating,
i also want to go home and spent time with myself and my family.

we all just work to live, not live to work.
so i see no point, no meaning, in how others can work all day and night.
maybe, we have different goals, different aims, different circumstances,
but mine's definitely different from theirs.

i believe there are many other things out there for us,
happiness can be very simple,
and yet, we often forget the simplest thing.

Queen Tona @ 11:05 PM 0 comments

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Wednesday, October 01, 2008

ok.
technically speaking,
i have one full month away from work.
core trainings for two weeks,
and two weeks of clearing my toil.
anyway speaking of that,
i was supposed to be doing interims during my two weeks of toil,
but i just cant be bothered.
and asked the AIC to get a replacement.

another stupid way the company works that irritates me.
i booked my toil like 3 months ago?
and den the person can happily book me, w/o even asking me if i mind pushing back my toil.
actually if she had asked, i wldnt have mind doing so.
but the fact that she cant be bothered to even check wif me, pissed me off.
so i cant be bothered as well.
and to tink that woman even said i sld be prepared to keep my time free for the bookings.
excuse me, if i even did that, i wld be landing myself into bigger shit.
and getting more jobs thrown at me ok.

i mean, ok, its a job.
i get paid to do it.
but how do u justify the ppl sitting in the pantry, shaking legs, watching youtube,
doing absolutely nth for weeks,
and getting the same amount of pay as those who are slaving on the jobs?
i mean, i have nth against those ppl, coz they are unassigned in the first place,
and its not their fault that they are unassigned.

but den the least u can do is let those ppl do some work,
and let us poor souls go for a short break.
then its only fair.

continuity on the job is good, to a certain extent,
that i can understand,
but i am sure its not a MUST.
its going to be a vicous cycle,
the unassigned will continue to be unassigned,
and those booked on jobs will continue to be booked on jobs,
and everyone will still be getting the SAME pay.
wonderful.

the other time i say i am not sure abt wat i want to do,
but i am very sure,
i want to get out of this place, as soon as possible.
as the time passes,
i am beginning to see why ppl are leaving,
its not that they cant take the stress,
i mean thats one factor,
but its all the misc things,
like not being appreciated for the efforts we put in,
not getting the recognition they deserved,
subjecting urself to senseless scoldings both internally and externally.

watevers.
another random work entry.

anyway its public holiday tml YAHOO~

Queen Tona @ 12:26 AM 0 comments

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