yes, finished love storm.
wat exactly is the show abt?
this gal named jia le is searchin for her
MR right. she met yin feng, someone who
saved her life twice, and knew that he is
the one she is searching for. bao long is
this guy who is jia le's childhood fren.
he likes jia le and is alwaz her guardian
angel. after much help from bao long,
jia le and yin feng got together. but yin
feng was actually from the hei1 dao4,
and jing jing who grew up with yin feng
will resort to all means to break up whoever
that is with yin feng as she likes him.
so, series of events happened.
jia le got kidnapped, and bao long even got
stabbed coz he wanted to protect jia le.
after much misunderstanding, jia le choose
not to be so brave, she choose to give up the
r/s as it is causing so much harm to the ppl
around her. after much more stuff....
too many to write.... jing jing finally understood
and gave up on yin feng,
and jia le and yin feng finally got together.
typical story, typical ending,
yet not so typical after all.
i realli realli realli fell in love with bao long
in the show. he is everithing a gal will want.
and he has everything i feel i shld learn fr.
everione feels tat he is dumb, stupid coz
he neva fails to be there for jia le, although
nothing hurts him more den seeing jia le and
yin feng together. yet again, he does not
hold any hatred, any anger towards yin feng,
i can sense his genuine happiness for them,
his genuine wishes for them, and the very
fact that he will be happy
as long as jia le is happy.
wat abt me?i alwaz thought i will be happy
too as long as the one i love is happy.
i alwaz thot i was that noble too.
but it juz doesnt seemed so....
am i a very evil person?
i juz noe that i cannot feel any happiness.
in fact, u tell me to stand here and give
my well wishes to them, after so long,
i can neva do it.
isit human nature to be selfish?
or isit juz me?
i realli wish i neva had this feeling inside me....
hatred, anger, it neva fails to bring me down.
but yet again, it juz subconsciously appears....
when i least expect it, i find myself tinkin of bad
things.... and den i start to feel so sick and
tired of myself...
like y the hell am i doing here?
i feel like a two-faced demon.
i wonder when will be the time....
the time someone comes along, and make me
put away all these stuff... and i can finally start
to feel that i am impt to someone too...
sometimes, at nite, i stare at the stars and wonder,
if there is even going to be another someone for me....
i am juz a simple girl...
all i want is someone to dote on me...
i can appear wacky, crazy, mad, childish,
heck-care but actually, wat do i realli want?
do i realli want tony?
do i realli need to marry him?
of coz not.i look around me,
so many happy couples,
i wonder to myself, when i can feel that same
feeling again? sometimes i tink, how come ppl can
change their bf within a few mths,
and turn up in front of me with a diff guy everytime,
and yet i am here, still the same, after so long.
wat do i want?i want to be special,
to be special to someone.y isit so difficult?
or havent i tried hard enuff?
in actual fact, i am sick and tired of trying,
anithing, animore. i find myself becoming more and
more not bothered. i have come a long way, i feel.
i stumbled, i fell, i got up.
with every fall, the more hopes i lose....
the more courage i lose....
now? its evident, so clear, even to myself that i am
juz plain afraid to give, even a tiny weeny bit.
and now with the sem coming to an end,
probably, its good for me too....
i duno how to deal with the entire thing too...
and i am too tired...
to tink, to figure out stuff, to do stuff,to
contribute stuff..... i dun wan to end up like
the same me again....
so i dun wan to try... anithing.
contradicting.if i refuse to give, how do i expect
others to give also rite?
sometimes i find myself so pathetic....
becoz, i noe, i noe my life is so much more terrible
when compared to his...
y? wat did i do wrong?
maybe everithing was wrong
rite from the start....
nth can turn back time.... i noe.
i noe too well.... only in dreams....
i see u, and me, holding hands, walking under
the starless sky...
and wake up knowing i have yet again....
yet again let u get the better of me.....
i realli wished i can finally stop dreamin
of u someday... becoz nth hurts more den
waking up in the morning and knowing that
several yrs have passed.....
and i am still the same.
i am stupid, i am a fool.
forget it, juz ignore this me....
Queen Tona @ 11:50 PM
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yes. u din step into a wrong blog.
this is mine! yes, jh! the crazee woman's blog.
i change my template, coz i was bored.
and i was hungry.
no lar, crapz. i changed the template partly coz i was bored,
and partly coz i feel it suits me....
but i tink no one agrees. hahaz.
i finished love storm,
yep actually i finished it last nite.
but i re-watching it now.
and yep, love storm made quite an impact on me.
make me see certain stuff.
i feel like typing so realli in depth thots,
but i am so afraid that i end up flooding the place with all the
saddening stuff again, so in order to not scare away the already pathetic
number of readers, i shall sae....
"i am still going to blog.
dun care! haha."
aniwaz, so yep watch out for this space.
laterz.
Queen Tona @ 3:36 PM
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Sunday, May 01, 2005
u have been warned.
jh is suffering from excess dosage of love storm...
running low on sleep coz of love storm...
haiz.
i thot the story was a totally bimbotic and u noe crazee show,
the last thing i need is a SAD story....
y did things turn out this way?
isit that alwaz in life, u dun get happiness for long?
y lidat, feeling so depressed.....
i realised that everitime i see that ken chu cry in the show,
my heart aches....
okok i noe he is a big fat jerk,
but in the show, he is realli so NICE.......
nvm, wateva it is, shall go continue with the vcds....
give ya ppl more in depth updates soon.
when i finish my love storm craze.
aniwaz, i juz realised i still have a paper on wed,
and its not on love storm,
its on singapore society.
wohoo, i am a singaporean.
laterz.
Queen Tona @ 1:19 PM
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