Name: Jiahui
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Monday, February 28, 2005

today's the release of O levels.
congraz on bro for gettin A1 for his chinese.
haha for that i am going to get a treat from him!
yiPPeee.
i tried to recall what it was like when i took mine
in sec 3.... and sadly enuff, i cant remember.
i mean not the details, but the entire thing.
realli realli, i cant remember where,when,how
i got the results, wat i did, what i did after.
omg. its kinda freaky.... am i that old?

aniwaz, sometimes i wonder how some ppl
can go on with life, tinkin abt wat kinda desserts
to eat for the day, how many movies they want
to watch in one single day, what to buy for the
new condo wat so eva, when here i am.
staring at the bloody balance sheet.
trying to get it to communicate to me,
the reason y, it juz REFUSE to balance.
not by a bit u noe,
by a whooping amt of 68000!!!
68K!!!! if this happens in real life,
i am so dead.

boo! tml, gay session with the gay of course.
skipping breakfast. its neva good to puke in
front of gays, they dun noe how to handle it.

lalaz. balance sheet. u betta TALK!
where did u put that 68K!

Queen Tona @ 9:25 PM 0 comments

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Sunday, February 27, 2005

haiz. the one week break is over juz like this.
and i have still zillions of stuff undone....
biz law assignment is only 3/4 done...

duno y, i juz feel that this sem or rather yr is juz
totally wrong, wrong, wrong.
the class, the modules, the ppl, the tutors,
the grps, the projs etc....
and den, my thots,
my doings, my feelings,
i quite hate myself sometimes.....

i realli wonder..... wat isit like to wake up one day
and realise that it had all been juz a major nitemare.
and den, i can go back to that me.....
haiz. now, i realli duno.... i am juz feeding on my empty shell....
pushin everithing aside and trying to get my mind
to mug.... to mug those useless stuff.
those useless stuff that i am prob neva going to touch
when i enter worklife.......

i realli dread it.
i dread that feeling in me....
i dread the actions of mine.....
i wonder wat will happen if i realli go out there
and try to find another place and start all over again....
i realli want to forget it all.
forget all i heard, see, feel, done....
and go out there and become a new person.....

i look back at the roads i took..... it was filled with nothing.
nothing but sorrow.... there were laughter....
but only split seconds.... becoz sorrow came....
and flood them all.....
y? y isit lidat? everione seemed to be laughing.
at me. at such a failure.... at such an idiot.
and den i tried to rebuke,
i tried to sae i did succeed, be it in family, or frens, or even studies.
but den again, did i realli even shine in any of them?
i tried to prove my gd pts, but everione rebuked them.
i tried to get my 100% to ppl, but they merely trampled on them.

and den i gave up.... i gave up trying to prove anithing.
and with everi step i take..... i am feeling nothing....
becoz nth is going to hurt any deeper....
nth can be any worse....

i wonder wat will happen if i juz leave everything and
go away.... tired.
i realli am.....

Queen Tona @ 10:41 PM 0 comments

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Saturday, February 26, 2005

judging from the way the quizzes results are
and the amt of things that i actually noe,
it has finally dawned into me....
its time to mug....

and i mean it.
given the type of tutors i have this sem,
its a miracle if i eva pull thru with my state now.
i duno most of the stuff arhz.
BOO.
no more playing. tat can wait.
no more havocing. tat can wait too.

now i better put on my glasses,
pin up my irritating fringe,
and get my rusty brain working!

woHOoooooo.
i shall emerge,
an genius.
haha okok, not genius larz.
but juz let me get at least all Bs can le.

i realise i dun realli set goals for myself
all thru my life, i take exams lidat.
juz go there, slack slack, do do, juz hopin to pass.
tats it!

its time to set my goal.
going to mug...
shall blog less.
take care peeps.
pushing all the irritating stuff aside,
setting my priorities right!

lalaz, books here i come!!!

Queen Tona @ 11:36 PM 0 comments

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Friday, February 25, 2005

Wilson Phillips - Youre In Love
Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.

And now i see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And i'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
Aah, my love, aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be'cause i want you to be happy
You're in love
And i know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now i'll let you go'cause i know
That you're in love

Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh i could have died.

But now i see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And i'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... ooh, you're in love

Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now i'll let you go'cause i know
That you're in love

Queen Tona @ 10:41 PM 0 comments

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

yoHOoooo.
haha obviously me is in quite a good mood today.
but thinking of tml;s acc grp discussion puts me off totally.
comtemplating if i should bring along an oxygen mask.

i mean, u want to give me hell, den fine.
i can go there and stone and act like i duno anithing
and refuse to contribute much in the proj.
but if u want to do ur part too, den of coz
i can also go happily along.

hahaz, juz like today, went to do IT proj at woodlands lib!
quite fun i thot, and of coz the only guy present in my grp
is like a total opposite from the acc guy lar huh?
hahaz, he is deemed as prized catch by me! =)

coz today i brought my laptop along, den he voluntarily
carried for me thruout the whole day! =D
den he also open doors for urs k! and of coz the most impt,
he dun pollute the air! =)
aniwaz, we meet up eat lunch, den do do do,
do do do, do do do, slack, den went off to eat dinner!

aniwaz, he realli bear quite a resemblance to someone....
character wise.... the wae he speaks and do things....
wonder if its got anithing to do with the school...
do sch nurture ppl of similar characters? whahhaa
coincidence bahz.

aniwaz, today during dinner my fren was helping us
do the palm reading thing.
den she said someone is going to enter into my life soon...
haha i wonder how accurate the thing will be manz.
my dear tony... hahaz

yawnz. on a heavier note, i still have the biz law assignment
laying in the corner, being ignored by me.
and i still trying to do the master budget plan for tml
grp discussion, seriously, i dun make much sense outa it.
BOO.
y am i so stupid arh?
i aso duno.

Queen Tona @ 10:44 PM 0 comments

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Boo. I duno wat u all tink of this pic.

apart from the fact that i quite detest that woman
and all, the way jay handled the issue realli makes
my blood boils.
i duno if u all agree abt the fact that he was with
jolin before this woman came along, but to me, i take
it as it did happen. like wat xr said, jolin and jay are juz
like fann wong and chris lee lorz.

assuming that they were indeed together,
how can jay be such a heartless jerk and den suddenly
after the whole thing, deny everithing and purposely
draw the distance by calling her " tong xue!!!"
i mean, ok, if they realli break up coz of probs, i got
nothing to sae abt this, its their personal lifes,
budden, wat the crap, he neva wanted to acknowlegde
and even admit anything, and den suddenly act so cold
and distant with her and like, oh now that i am with her,
u better stay as far away from me as possible!
i wun be surprised if he stops writing songs for her also.

BOO! lousy guy.
and to think i thought he was different,
i am so going to dislike him!!! AH!!!!
how can he treat jolin lidat?!?!
now i see him or hear him, i feel so YUCKS!
i hate these kinda guys.
hate hate hate.
they tink everione worships them like god,
they tink everione cannot live w/o them,
and den when they dun want to have anithing
to do with u, they kick u aside, they erase u from their memory!
RUBBISH.
heartless!
stupid.

i dun care., i hope the two of them suffers together.
since that woman also so scandal, den fine lar.
the two of them can go flock together!
boo!

and i din blog yest abt my horrendous proj meeting with
my acc grp. remember that guy i talked abt sometime back?
nvm. here's much worse.
we met up and did proj, den as usual he and tat gal was
quarrelling while i juz kept quiet.....
den nvm, after a while, he HAPPILY took one a cigarette
and smoke in front of me!!!!
he din even have the courtesy to ask.
hello?!?! not everione enjoys shortening their lifes by mins
juz coz of some posion that u puffed out of ur mouth.

den nvm, coz we have a assignment due nex fri too.
so we were saeing we meet up another day this week to get it done.
den he went, HUH? u all want to? u all have time meh?
den we were like sayin no choice since the deadline is quite near,
den we sae maybe meet fri lar. have sometime to prepare the calculations
part b4 we meet up.
den he sae " no, coz i want to get my fren to do for me, den i duno when he
will do finish for me lehz"
i mean huh? u counting on ur fren to finish the thing for u?
u confirm he will? b4 the deadline?
and den are we juz going to sit here and do nothing,
and wait for that ans from ur fren. which is not even confirm?
den we were like, realli needa meet coz quite a lot of stuff and need to
tally the calculations etc.
den he sae " dun worrie, i will sure get the ans. juz duno when."
and a whole load of crap. in short he juz refuse to meet up.

i realli duno wats his bloody problem.
or maybe he has been smoking so much, the smoke has
clogged up his brains.
sucks. i knew it. i juz knew that my acc grps are cursed.
last sem, the quiet grp and this sem this, with a huge moron!
ROAR.
tell me, juz tell me how are we going to get things done?

u realli dun deserve to even belong to the longkang,
u sld be fried, till u become chao da.
and throw to feed the rats. BOO!!!!

Queen Tona @ 10:21 PM 0 comments

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

before i start "lecture" proper,
let me begin with a few impt announcements

1) happy bday to my hubby dear!
i love u to bits! =)

2) congrats to xr on the launch of
her new album!
haha. it realli sounded quite kewl and nice siaz!!!
if i pick up 40bucks on the floor, i shall get the
cos gals to go sing a S.H.E. song. =D
or who so kind wan sponsor us aso can, when we
become superstar we will give u free albums.
hahaz. mad

yep. so let's start "lecture".
haha today, i came across this in the papers.
"this is how spore women see their men
longkang fish. but to foreign women, the
spore man is a prize catch."

haha i thot it was quite an interesting thing
to sae, not saying that we sld compare men
to fishes, of coz.
but do we realli see our men in such a bad light?
i duno, but to me, a large portion of the men
here realli ought to belong to the drain. =P

1stly, the men are not gentlemen at all.
apart from the fact that they dun hold doors,
dun give up seats, dun serve us etc,
they have to fight with us for everithing under
the sun up to the pt that u DIE DIE muz
be the one who gets up/down the freaking bus b4
me.......

2rdly, the men tink v highly of themselves.
esp university guys, or rather ntu guys.
they tink that having serve the nation, they have grown
intellectual in million folds, and they tink that
everything they sae are meant for us to worshipped,
and everithing we sae are juz, child talk.
den they tink we are childish, not mature in our thinking,
they feel that we haven seen enuff of the world.
i mean ok, so wat if u serve NS and come out a 'MAN',
that does not make u any wiser k.
ROAR. u all duno how childish u look to us too.

3rdly, they sae tat we have high expectations.
actually i feel that we juz noe what we want.
and we dun want to force ourselves to marry
for the sake of marrying.
i hate to be so cynical, but the foreign women that many
spore men has gone to marry, u telling me that love has
flourished within that short span of time?
is it love, or is it money? or is it for a better life?
are men realli treated as the "prized fish"
or are they merely stepping stones for the women
to get what they want before they go find their true love?

actually, there are still a lot of reasons y i really
feel that the majority of guys can be considered
longkang fish.... but i dun wan sae lar. i dun want
to be hurled by nasty comments coming from the guys.
=P

but i guess, as time passes, more and more guys can
be considered longkang fishes lar. coz i feel that environment
can all can cause ppl to turn more nasty.
as for now, hahaz coz of my quality control, most of the guys
that i have come into contact with are still "prized fishes"
=D

but of coz, there are women who of shitty characters
and all too. so thats another story altogether.
aniwaz, hehe, juz some random thots.
dun take too seriously hor, esp the men out there.
i am juz a weak and innocent gal. =P

Queen Tona @ 10:36 PM 0 comments

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

heez. have been MIA for quite a few days.
partly coz i need to at least skim thru all the zillions
of pages of stuff and partly coz i juz dun feel like bloggin.

aniwaz, the hectic week is finally over.
and sucks lar. me econs quiz only got a pathetic 6/10.
this is wat u get when u play too much.
BOO. y lidat!!! and tats not the worst.

coz when we were walkin we bump into weber's fren, miss F.
and the two were walkin in front and me and hw behind.
The conversation went sorta like…..
miss F asked "so how did u do for ur econs quiz"
den weber said 8/10.
den miss F went "wow, so smart leh u!!!"
den weber asked " u leh?"
den miss F had to announce so loud
" oh, 10/10 lorz"

WTF larz, i am so pissed!!!!
apart from the part that u get full marks and i got a pathetic SIX,
but den the tone and all, u juz seemed to be
putting everione down and acting all high and mighty,
like wats the big deal?
juz a full marks ok!!!
hurmphZ! if i am weber i wld have snapped back at her.
and said " oh realli? given ur intellgience u can get full marks?
alamakz, did u take the wrong quiz or wat?"

idiot. i am so angry, i have decided!!!!
for the next quiz, i shall get full marks too!!!!
and make sure u dun!
thats it! that shall be my goal for the nex half of the sem.
lalallaz. =) ganbatte!!!

so the nex time i walked past her, i shall declare so loudly,
"oh that quiz, i get FULL MARKS!!!"
and give her tat look, that u are shit and i am god look!
BOO!!!
down with her!!!
Stop walkin with ur nose in the air lar,
If u bang into the lamp post u wun collapse, but the lamp post will!

aniwaz, today was a v slack day for me.
haha i even took an afternoon nap! omg.
actually i juz laid in bed slackin
but i un-knowingly slept all the way till evening.....

tml shall be my continuation of the ang bao mission!
hahaz, yippEE.
k laterz.

Queen Tona @ 12:11 AM 0 comments

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

i realli duno how to deal with this.
u. her. everione.
i tink i am juz going to hide.
i am going to stay away.

Queen Tona @ 10:23 PM 0 comments

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pardon me if this entry is too un-understandable.
i am at a mess myself. i juz feel like typing...
my everything.....

u managed to break my heart yet again......
this time, i did not cry, i juz felt empty.
like someone came along and dug out everything from me,
and i am left with juz an empty shell.

i alwaz thought that if my life is to be made into a movie,
it can be classified under "tragic comedy"
heaven alwaz seemed to enjoy to play stupid jokes on me.
and juz when i tried to pick myself up again,
it had to come again and make everything even worse.

y? y isit that juz when i thought things are on a
brighter side, it took a turn to the worse.
i duno why.... i realli duno wat happened.....
u neva did joke with me eva again.....
u neva did talk and laugh directly with me again....
u neva did look at my direction again....
all u gave to me was cold-ness....
utterly cold....
y muz u do this to me?

there are certain things that i have stumbled upon,
that i realli wished i had not....
i realli wished u haven cared so much more for her,
u can care for anyone else....
but y her.... y someone so close to me.....

i hate myself when i start to think evil things....
when i start to even tink bad stuff abt her....
how can i eva be like this? i realli duno....
i realli hate it.
y am i such an evil person?

i realli duno wat to do..... i realli duno.....
i realli wished i did not know anything....
i realli wished i can live in my own dream and neva wake up....
i am tired of facing the truth....
i am tired of having to smile and act as if nothing happened....
in front of u, in front of her, in front of everyone....

i can do anithing..... realli.... anithing.....
juz dun do this to me.....
dun dump me into the corner.....
dun, please dun..... dun treat me like a stranger....
i noe i realli muz stop pushin things away...
pushin all the facts, the hard cold facts....
that i am juz a nobody to u...
that u can care for anione more den u care for me....

y?
maybe i do noe.....
i am everything a gal should not be.....
mean, selfish, loud, rude, troublesome, lazy, whiny,
stupid, short, ugly... wat have u....
she is everything i am not....
but y her.... tell me why...........
y muz heaven play such a major joke on me.....

i am realli v tired....
sometimes i juz want to leave everything behind....
and go hide in a corner and be a loner....
becoz everytime i give my everything....
no one bothers.... in fact.... no one cared....
and although she din do anithing.....
she is more impt to u....

i duno wat to feel. realli.
should i feel stupid? sad? depressed? silly?
angry? lonely? painful?
i realli dun want to put in a single ounce more of effort...
if u want to carry on ignoring me foreva...
so be it....
let me live the loner life of mine....
let me die in the silence....
becoz, i dun want to go initiate anithing animore....
if thats realli wat u want, wat else can i do?
if it makes u happy, i can disappear....
from ur sight....
maybe even from everyone.......

i alwayz wondered why everione ard me seemed to have
such wonderful lifes.... except me.
i realised.
i am too awful a person to deserve any.

drowning...
silently,
quietly,
deeply,
in my sea of tears.....

u are not worth my tears....
but yet again...
to me.... u are worth my everything....
even if to u....
i am totally worthless.

Queen Tona @ 12:14 AM 0 comments

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Monday, February 14, 2005

this is bad.
running very out of time for everything
so i shall juz write short short.
3quizzes 1 presentation nex week.
boy i am so excited.

barely touched ani.
i tink i am going to fail.
i am so dead.
lose face. lousy gal.

aniwaz, today out whole day again.
after yest bai nian ji, today went fotang
to eat yu sheng [ my 3rd this yr....] and steamboat..
den went to watch constantine. [xr u watch already?]
quite ok show, not as scary as it was.
actually not scary at all.
so i din touch my books today again.
actually omg, i din touch it for the entire week!

now, i muz repeat,
which are the idiots who decide to give quizzes rite
after the cny break?
are they humans?
WTF!!!
but den again y din i pay attention in lectures?
y din i even go?
y din i do tutorials?
AH!!!!!!! too late!!!
ROAR.

aniwaz, i heck. i had a real fun cny!!!
haha and its not even over yet!
woHOoooo. ang baos, here i come!!!!
i now have ard 300+
=P

and tml i muggin with cos gals! =)
hopefully it will be fruitful.
haha and i got a date tml!!!
woHOOOo
ok i see the 38club radar BEAMING.
hahaz.
dun worrie its a huge grp of ppl.

but sometimes, it does not matter wat the quantity,
the quality is most impt.
hahaz
(code code)

=P
GEEZ. i am happy.
quizzes and presentations. BOO!!!
u cant bring me down!
k tataz.

tony was on TV today! zhong yi da ge de.
he broke my heart when he gave elva flowers.
y lidat?!?!
hahaz. k bye.
nitez

Queen Tona @ 12:37 AM 0 comments

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Saturday, February 12, 2005

wohoo.
been's a long day.
went to bai nian at qing ying, yan lao shi and junliang's hse!
=)
quite fun hahaz. althought the weather's been horrible.

and tat brings me a day closer to all my quizzes......
wat else can i sae.
i need more den juz luck.

have there been instances when u juz noe that
no matter wat u do, u wun get the results u want, and yet u still do it?
have there been instances when u hear certain things and
u juz refuse to accept it and instead pretend that u din hear it?
is this a form of self-delusion?
or isit tat ppl juz like to believe in things such as miracles....
for me, i juz dun want myself to seem too pathetic...
i juz dun want myself to look like a complete fool....
i juz dun want myself to feel that i am juz a nobody........

i quickly laugh at everything, for fear of having to cry.

Queen Tona @ 11:31 PM 0 comments

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Friday, February 11, 2005

yoZ.
i am in such terrible mess.
i have 3 quizzes, a dozen tutorials, a zillion pages of text...
all hiding in the corner and fightin and screamin
"pick me.pick me"
omg, when did i become to popular?
like i give a damn when it comes to such popularity...

aniwaz, today was supposed to be muggin day.
but like i did much.... terrible.
my mind was filled with my beehives and ang baos...
y lidat?
boo hoo hoo, which idiots decide to give quizzes rite after cny?
they sld ban quizzes thru out the 15days of cny,
and of coz, give us 15days of holidayS!!!
woHOO, dun worrie ppl,
i will do such changes when i become the presidenT!! =)
count on me, singapore!~~

and guess wat i have a primary sch gathering tml.
pri sch, yesh, u noe like maybe meetin up with ppl
whom u haven been in contact or even seen in 8years.
but of coz, i am not going.
haha seriously i tink its thanks to ppl like me who cause
this kinda gathering stuff to be a flop.
but well, i rather bury myself in my zillion pages of text
and let them kill me, den face near-strangers,
and try to act friendly and pretend that oh after so long,
i finally decided to give a damn abt wats going on with ur life.
i dun wan go force myself to do such stupid stuff lar.
or rather, i am merely being anti-social.
i dun care.
like anione will give a damn too.

so instead, i shall go bai nian. ang baos, wo lai le!!!
and of coz, it wld be great if every hse i go, presents me with
buckets of beehive. =)
*grins*

and so thats it.
i am so sorry for not paying attention to u....
i din mean to....
i din mean to break ur heart...
i noe how much u are dying for my attention....
but i simply dun feel anithing....
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sorry my tutorials.
sorry my text.
sorry my quizzes.

haha i am cRAzeeeeee.
off to enjoy!

Queen Tona @ 11:40 PM 0 comments

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Thursday, February 10, 2005

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yes yes yES!!!!
its finally the much anticipated chinese new yEAR!!!!
haha wOhooOOOO!!!
wat time isit? its ang baos time!!! =)

aniwaz let's be a little long winded and talk abt
my whereabts these 2 days.

wed: woke up quite early and went to my
god-mother's hse first.haha weird rite?
y i have a god-mother. apparently my mum said that
when i was young, i was realli realli naughty and all so
they believe that kids who are notti need to
acknowledge a god-mother or wat larz.
so well, yep so i have one! =)

after that i went to my ah-po hse in amk.
neva do much there actually, last time when my ah-gong
was still here, we wld invite the lion dance.
but we dun do it already. so its much quieter.
actually i dun realli go to my ah-po hse v often,
at most also once a mth, sometimes even lesser....

but when i was young, it was my ah-po who looked after
me, and everyday i will go with her to the market and talk
with all her old frens in hainanese.
yes. thats wat my mum told me lar, i cant remember much.
apparently, at that time i can speak real fluently in hainan
and the old folks quite like to talk with me.
hahaz. smart kid. but now, i can only understand
and speak minimal content le.
actually my ah-po only noes hainanese and nothing else...
not even chinese... so my bro who duno hainanese have
quite a big communication prob with her...
and she's alway "naggin" him to learn lar.

nowadays my ah-po is having some problems with her legs....
not as agile as before....she;s been complainin abt her legs
being pain and sometimes numb....
although my dad they all have been telling her to go get an
xray done and everything to get it check out,
she simply refuse and keep saying that its ok.
and she went to see the chinese doc instead,
who cant do much mahz, coz its not really wat they specialise in....

sometimes its realli hard to understand the old ppl's mentality....
they realli like to save and save and save.....
my ah-po is one example.... she likes to buy those kinda canned
veg and eat with the rice... although we already told her not to
eat those coz not healthy, and when they wanted to throw it away,
she not pleased.... den she like to eat salty salty things.....
and sometimes, when its like big occasions and there are leftovers,
she can eat and eat up till one week.
they told her upteen times that its not good, but yet she still does it....
my cousin bought her cny clothes, and the cute her, wore it when
my cousin was there and den hurriedly took it off when she left.
coz she sae at home no need to wear so nice, and she dun want to spoil it.

actually my ah-po has the money to go buy good food ..for herself and all,
but i guess, thats juz the life-style that she is used to..
juz like how she neva eats outside food, she only only
only eat home-cooked food....
i duno, i juz hope that she can at least dun compromise her health
at the expense of such xi guan....
hope her legs get better......
coz after all, she is prob the closest grandparent to me....
and she's also the only grandparent i have now....

aniwaz, after dinner we went down to river angbao!
juz to soak soak in the cny mood lar.
the crowd was damn bad lar, and its like seeing ppl more den
seein other stuff... saw 3 ppl i noe there lor whahhaaz,
so i guess it means that spore's really small.
after that, we walked to the link btw esplanade and merlion there
and watched my all-time fav-------------- fireworks!!!

as usual, its so pretty... so beautiful.
i remember not long ago i heard on radio abt the DJs askin
abt the ideal way u want ur bf to propse to u.
haha i can already picture mine!
the fireworks, by the river, roses, ring, and the perfect man.......
omg. =P
hahaz. okz.

thurs(today): normally we gather at my uncle's hse to celebrate...
but this yr, my two aunts have gone to shanghai to spend
the cny with my uncle..... so the bai nian is changed to nex sat.....
so today nothing much to do actually.
went to watch i do i do.... quite nice show.
farni yet not senseless that kind.
hahaz, i quite like it.
after tat, we went to my aunt hse, to sit sit and eat eat.

hahaz, now for some senseless stuff.
wat are ur fav cny goodies? can tell me?
i tell u ppl wat is my all time fav, duno if u all noe or not.
the bee-hive thingy!!! u noe the one with a lot of "holes".
i aso duno y but i juz like it lar!
=)
so nex time juz get me bee-hive biscuit when u come
my hse to bai nian whahahha.
=)

aniwaz, on a heavier note, there are 3 quizzes nex week.
and i can safely sae that i haven prepared for any.
i dun have the mood to prepare for any.
i dun have enuff time to prepare for any...
boo hoo hoo. y muz they do such things to us huh?
ROAR.

aniwaz enjoy ur cny!!! chEErs!

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Sunday, February 06, 2005

as i am advising you what to do,
i am at the same time convincing myself to do it too.

sometimes when u love someone,
u dun have to have them,
and in most cases, u can't have them.

do u get it?

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she was standing.
at the bus-stop
waiting for him to fetch her home.

she was sick.
she needed comfort.
she did not want to be alone.

he waved her goodbye.
he gave his company to her instead.
he neva did return.

her heart shattered.
she watched him and her from afar.
she was alone.

empty.
cold.
alone.

the same bus-stop.
a different him.
she felt touched.

she tried.
he cannot be him.
she knew too well.

their path crossed.
he was the same.
to her, he was different.

a lover.
the next day.
a stranger.

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regrets.
love.
pain.
tears.
memory.
gifts.
blessings.
hugs.
cards.
dinners.
stars.
stadium.
ice lemon tea.
s11.
sling bag.
garfield.
pizza hut.
beach.
streats.
pm.
flowers.
brandnew.
bear.
gate.
dance.
sketches.
nite.
notes.
piggy bank.
candles.
mrt.
car.
roads.
bus.
lift.
stairs.

random thots.
sigh

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Saturday, February 05, 2005

tats it.
i realli tink i need to declare something here.
out to the public.

there have been too many ppl asking me wat am i going to do on v-day.
TOO MANY.
so let me tell u, i am juz not going to do anithing ok?
no date. nothing. slack whole dae ok?
so unless u are going to date me, pls stop asking me this bloody question la.
i am seriously quite irritated.

ROAR.

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Thursday, February 03, 2005

tats it!!!!
today i shall complain abt everything that made my blood boil today.
in short, all the guys stepped on my toes today.
in particular all the NTU guys.
ROAR

today i had econs tutorial by this china-man.
my grp, grp 2, was supposed to give the presentation and
grp 3 was supposed to present today too coz nex week got
no tutorial mahz coz of cny.
so we were supposed to do tutorial 4 and 5 today.
1stly, my grp presented..... den my fren sae finish part (a) le
and was already finishin part (b)
when that china-man decided to finally speak and sae "part (a) is wrong"
ok, so we were like, ok den sir can u tell us the solution lar coz we duno.
den he was like " no, u tell me the ans. wats the ans? tell me. write!"
den my fren was like ???? coz she realli duno,
so we were like saying we don't quite know how to do that part,
den he sae " tell me the ans."
and he juz sat there and keep repeating that sentence....
and my fren was up there trembling her life away.
SUCKS lorz. wats his bloody problem?!?!
i din pay u to come here and repeat like a robot.
and he din sae anithing or explain a single thing in the past tutorials that we had.
i dun see much use in him being there actually, except to take the attendance.

ok den nvm, after that it was supposed to be grp 3. consisitin of 4 GUYS!
den they SAID " oh, we did tutorial 4 too." den the tutor was like
y din u all said juz now when we presented.
den they made it seem like OUR fault
" they went ahead already what. like first come first serve lidat"
i mean WTF, ani logical thinking person will noe that grp 2 will do
tutorial 4 and grp 3 will do tutorial 5 rite?
and the tutor was like y did they do tutorial 4.
den they sae " oh coz it had four questions and our grp has 4 ppl"
farni huh? wat stupid logic. cant u count? our grp has FOUR too.
SUCKS.
wat kind of gentlemen are they lar?
pushed all the blame to us and made it seemed as if we snatched
their chance of presenting... and as if we were the one who did the wrong tutorial
den sit there keep quiet and act pitiful and wait for the tutor to ask den they speak.
den nvm, so no one can present tutorial 5.
den coz the nex tutorial we are supposed to have quiz le which includes tutorial 5....
so we sae can he go thru the tutorial instead....
and guess wat,
he said: " i am not prepared"
i dun see much sense in preparing?!?!?
u mean to tell me as a prof u cannot even do our tutorial questions on the spot?
wat kinda stupid logic lar.
ROAR.
so in the end he let us off one hour earlier.
i realli wanna go straight to the nbs office and request for a change of tutor lor.
ROAR.
and i swear i am going to condemn him in evaluation.
i am going to do such a lousy evaluation
u will get a low pay. and hopefully get fired too!

den ok, as if those guys haven pissed me off enuff.
i went to discuss proj with my acc grp..... one gal and one guy. both yr 2s.
so the gal managed to get a project from last sem to like see see
how they do and get a rough idea.
den the guy came along and sae "oh so ur fren proj is an A"
"eh B" the gal said.
"HUH? y u take a B proj? get an A one lar"
i was quite shocked when i heard that.
wats his bloody problem, ppl made the effort to bring the
proj here and let u see see and the wae u react,
it seemed as if a B project is not fit for u to refer to.
den nvm we wanted to do on Breadtalk.
"but quite a lot of grps are doing" guy said.
" at least its better to do something you are familiar with
den do something u duno rite?"
" lidat how to shine from others?" guy said.
by then, i was so utterly pissed i refuse to utter a word.

y the hell are guys so full of themselves?
u tink u are the only high and mighty ard isit?!?!?!
idiot. dun go ard and look down on others ok, esp gals.
we are not here for u ppl to bully hor!!!!!
and who the hell said we are supposed to get a bf in the uni?
wat do u expect me to do when guys are of such quality!!!!
i am going nuts, i have to endure such big-headed guys for the rest of the semester.
and den i have to endure guys who dun act like guys too.

AHHHHHHH. i am so angry today!!!
i feel so bullied!!!!!

GREAt. wat a great semester ahead.

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Wednesday, February 02, 2005

hmm hmmhmm.
duno wat to sae leh actually. but i just feel like typing.
haha tats y i am blogging.
yawnz.

dad is thinkin of going to indonesia to set up business for 1yr.....
but apparently mum's not v pleased....
as for me? i guess i aso dun realli want him to go bah.......
one year leh, not one mth.
=nothing's decided so shall see how......

haiz.
realised i am v behind time for everything...
be it in studies, or in life......
terriblez.
feel like juz abandonin everything and going away for a while....

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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

sometimes i find it a complete joke when ppl comes to me for help,
esp in relationships.
becoz look at me, juz look. i am in nothing but a mess myself.

why. why. why.
why isit that the ans to my question cannot be found anywhere....

SUCKS.

off to find ans, for my IT tutorials. at least they are foundable.

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yes, today is tuesday, the day.
the day for wat?
the day i have biz law tutorial...
the day i get tramatised by that gay.....
and mind u, he neva fails to tramatise me even more....

today, he wore a normal white long sleeve shirt and black pants.
but tats abt the only rite thing he did.
he draped a jacket over his shoulders and happily
swing abt when he was walkin ard the class in front....
and u noe wat? the jacket is so...... alamakz.
sld not be called jacket lar.
its white, so small, wollen, its a pullover, and it looks an exact
duplicate from the ones u find in mango.....
and it screams " GAY " rite into my face......
v sianz, i realli duno wat to do siaz....

to laugh or to cry? i tink i am going mad soon......
if i attend any more of his lessons tat is.......
and he carrys a RED file.....
which guy in the rite mind carrys a REd file?!?!?
i wun be surprised if he turns up in class nex week in a skirt or something...
but i wun noe coz i am skipping it.

ROAR.

i realli wanted to go up to him and ask him to stop being so gay.
i noe it may not be his fault, but it is realli distracting me!!!!
i cant concentrate at all!!! i realli want puke....
he is realli the most gay gay i have eva known.....
sigh......

i am officially so broke.

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