when work turns u into someone u dun want to be,
you know its time u do smth abt it.
i believe no one is truly evil. ok maybe a few.
its circumstances that makes ppl turn out this way.
thats the world out there.
u want to suffer alone, or u want to make others suffer wif u?
u want to be kind to urself, or u want to be kind to others?
of coz the ideal situation is everyone suffers equally hard,
and work equally hard towards the common goal,
but nth of that is going to happen. coz its only human nature to be selfish.
i have been really not motivated abt work these days.
i mean, yes i do complete wat i am tasked to do,
within the deadlines as much as possible.
but i admit i dun exactly put my heart and soul into it.
like i give my 70% and i feel i have done my part.
i mean i noe i can give it my 100%, but that wld mean giving up my precious sleep and weekends, and so i just cant be bothered. and i stop there.
i guess, i have finally reached my crossroads.
as much as i dun really know where i am heading to,
but i know i am not staying here.
so i am beginning to draw myself out of this mad race.
wats the pt of working inhumane hours,
when there isnt going to be any rewards for me at the end of the day?
i just want to lead a normal life.
那些多出来的自由，
我一点都不想要。
Queen Tona @ 11:01 PM
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
its time to leave.
this inhumane place.
this unhappy place.
this stressful place.
this dreadful place.
its time to leave.
and find a better job.
and spend my precious time doing smth that i like.
rather than spending my precious time trying to do smth i will never like.
the feeling is so strong this time
i think its really TIME.
Queen Tona @ 12:25 AM
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
work-life balance or bank balance.
your choice?
stressed over work.
or maybe.
i am just stressing myself.
just try my best.
although sometimes, my best isnt exactly up to anybody's expectations.
RARR
Queen Tona @ 1:48 AM
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Monday, July 13, 2009
Queen Tona @ 11:00 PM
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Sunday, July 12, 2009
人就是犯贱。
明知不该做的，
就偏偏要去做。
然后，又因此而不开心。
真的。
很无奈。
早知道。
原来是这种感觉。
Queen Tona @ 11:27 PM
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seriously lagging behind,
but this time,
i dun know what i can do to bring myself back on track.
it sucks to be not in control.
and somtimes even worry for the future, which no one knows....
feeling kinda disillusioned sometimes these days....
somedays i question why this and that.
but den again at the end of the day,
i guess its all fair and square.
its just a matter of how u see things.
you gain some, u lose some.
sigh.
watevers.
hate to have such negative thoughts.
but i guess somehow,
i am just starting to not believe.
that maybe somehow,
imperfections do happen.
just sucks to fall behind everybody's expectations.
and this time,
i cant exactly work hard towards it.
i hate to disappoint.
will i really have to? someday?
Queen Tona @ 12:54 AM
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Friday, July 10, 2009
omg.
peaches is duper cute!!!!!!
movie was really good, esp in 3D.
Happy~
SHALALA~~~~
Queen Tona @ 11:44 PM
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Thursday, July 09, 2009
unlucky day for queen at work.
AS2 died on me and i had to redo the work i did for most of the day.
=(
wat to do?
no choice.
thats life.
sometimes, u just dun have a choice.
Queen Tona @ 10:38 PM
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Sunday, July 05, 2009
tadah........
its the end of my LONG break.
seriously LONG.
and strangely enuff,
i do feel quite motivated to work.
not sure if its a temp thing.
but i guess, its a good start.
and i sure hope it stays this way.
given the land of pork,
and a different level of expectations i need to meet,
i will definitely need all the motivation i can get.
i aim to complain less and work happily wif my fav team this year.
=D
AzA Fighting!
加油！！！
Queen Tona @ 10:45 PM
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"Dreams are a series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep"
i am someone who dreams a lot.
or rather i sld say,
i am someone who remembers my dreams when i wake up.
not sure if this is smth to be happy abt though.
在梦里以不同形式和你再会，
仿佛一切的一切不曾改变。
而那些我曾经渴望会发生的画面，
一一的在我脑海里反复的出现。
我的眼泪，你的承诺，
我们全新的未来，
就这样在我无法控制的潜意识里，
跟我开了一次又一次的玩笑。
在我睁开眼的那一瞬间，
我又不得不回到现实，
然后，心里一阵乱。
很可怕。
我无法控制的一切，
真的很让我担心。
这样的情节，到底还要上演多少次。
-__-
Queen Tona @ 11:30 AM
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Thursday, July 02, 2009
oh my lord!!
my banana tree FINALLY has one banana~~~~~~~~
Queen Tona @ 12:10 AM
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