family
Last weekend's desaru trip wif my parents was relaxing.
our hotel room was super nice, two stories, facing the sea. WOHOO.
happy to spend some quality time wif my parents b4 i start abandoing them for portek.
today went dinner wif my bro and mummie.
i tink i am guilty of not talkin much and easily irritatable after work,
like i just come home, feel so sian, head back to room,
either continue working or watch some youtube,
and i dun exactly talk much to my parents/bro........
hope to change this.......
friends
seems like some of my frens will be leaving spore sometime soon,
like meanie, and maybe miss ong.
i just hope that portek wun make me miss out on the outings that are going to come,
okok, i shall make it a pt to go, as long as i can end work early,
even if i am looking v shagged and tired....
am already v sad that i know for sure i cant go for miss ong's convo....
hai, and just the thot of sending miss ong off at the airport, already made me tear yest,
i must be mad i know. but i duno, it cld be tears of joy and sadness together.....
"at least one of us gets to lead the life she really wanted"
as much as i hate to admit, its true.
we all haf smth in mind, just a matter of, whether its realistic enuff to materialise.
and i guess, sometimes, we just have to make do with what we are given, at least at the moment.
and try to make it into smth tat we yearn to have.
work
Portek. it was my first nightmare, and i never thot that one yr had passed,
and the 3 of us are back here, facing a bigger nightmare, with more responsibilites.
i have two entities to audit per week on average,
and we are supposed to be in charge of the entire audit, b/s, p/l, audit adjustments,
WIP, loans, investments, debtors, creditors....... and the list goes on.
not forgetting the biggest headache, consol.....
AC Meeting is to be held on 15th Aug,
last year it was 29Aug,
i have no idea how we are going to complete so early this year......
just like i have no idea how i am going to be able to meet the deadlines.
i am just v lost, having to do stuff i have never done in the past year,
and not having the competency to know wat accounting treatments/FRS sld have been used.
not knowing how much amt of work i must perform,
not knowing what is it exactly i need to do for each section....
i was telling myself that i am not going to give myself so much pressure,
that i am just going to take things easy and just do wat i can,
but then again, when the expectations are there, and its so much higher,
how can i just take things at my level and not feel the stress?
random
知道不可能是我的，
但又害怕，
好像越来越离我遥远，
好像，他的心在为别人而跳。
是我太自私，
也许，我害怕，
一切都会改变。
也许，那时感觉没有不真实，
只是被掩饰，
为了让一切恢复正常，
她选择伪装。
就这么简单，
真的，
她的爱，
就是这样的简单。
Queen Tona @ 11:37 PM
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Saturday, July 05, 2008
YIPPE~~~~
off to desaru till sunday!!!
YAHOO~~~
Queen Tona @ 12:00 AM
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Friday, July 04, 2008
nearing the end of the week,
nearing portek.
there is just so many things that is going to happen in the nex few mths,
i dun even noe if its possible.
nvm, i shall look forward to my desaru-getaway on sat with my dear parents~
kinda a good way to un-wind and re-charge at the same time i feel.
omg, the sun, the sea, the sand!!!
i hope got hunks la, but well, quite difficult. =X
我一直都在流浪
可我不曾见过海洋
我以為的遗忘
原来躺在你手上
<<残酷月光 - 林宥嘉>>
ooh, another nice song of his.
super nice. super addicted!
anyway, steamboat tml with the gals.
omg, i cant wait!!! to eat steamboat,
and also to meet up wif the gals. hahaz.
Queen Tona @ 12:05 AM
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Wednesday, July 02, 2008
AHHHHHH my nice nails are gone......
how SAD.
they started to chip off one by one after i finsh mopping the house......
must have got to do wif the detergent used. SAD.
meanie had recommended me to watch this jap show:
"Proposal Daisakusen"
basically abt this guy who attended his childhood fren/someone he loved but never said's wedding.... and den he was sumhow given the ability to go back in time to re-do or change certain stuff that he have not done/regretted doing....
to me, it was a truly frustrating drama to watch.
not in the sense that the plot was lousy or wat,
but its frustrating in the sense that that guy is really useless,
useless in voicing out wat he truly wants.
and i am kinda frustrated that he was given so much chance to go back and change everything.
i tink i am so frustrated coz i see a certain part of me in him,
and so i duno whether i am angry with him, or angry with myself.
you stay with what you decide,
you live with what you choose.
and if it means u have to live with some regrets,
then thats just too bad,
coz in life, nobody gets a second chance.
Its exactly one year into my job,
wonder if hanging in there for two more years will be the right choice,
well, only time will tell
Queen Tona @ 11:23 PM
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