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Name: Jiahui
Age: 22
School: auditor in training ~~ntu acc~~ ~~njc~~ ~~st nicks~~ ~~peiying pri~~
Often known as: Queen

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Credits

Saturday, August 30, 2003

hai feelin damn tired......
although its a SATURDAY and i am supposed to have slept enuff but i duno y....
last nite, i remember i had a long dream but all i can remember abt the dream was me
juz squattin on the floor and crying, ppl were juz walkin past me, and i juz squat there and cry.
someone was there, to comfort me, but i cant remember who... all i know was tears juz keep flowin and flowin.
ended wakin up feeling drained, drained of my energy.
wat a GREAT way to start a day rite..

i miss ccas!!!! i miss spendin most of my sat in the dance studio.... in the hall.... =|
i miss listenin to the syf music.... i miss all my juniors..... i wanan go back sch and watch them dance
HAI, but well CCA has really come to an end. and all i can do on SAT is to slack at home and try to mug.

sigh.... wateva. sumhow, last week was a BAD week, i saw dozens of stuff that i should be unhappy abt, that i sld be sad abt, but i felt nothing, becoz i am immune, immune to reality. hope, i can avoid such tiring dreams tonite..... somehow, i juz feel sianz diaoz abt life, abt bloggin....... shall see how.

prob. time to hibernate.... [familiar word]

Queen Tona @ 10:26 PM 0 comments

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Wednesday, August 27, 2003

WOW. me juz came back from the colours award dinner, although there are tons of things for me to complete.... but well tink shall blog this special entry 4 this special day~

rush home and hurry change coz meetin zr at 3.30 and i sorta declared that i wun be late b4. whahah. cant really decide wat to wear, or rather not much choice too, coz its a formal dinner and me most skirts are denim, only left with 3 to choose from. so anihow pick la, end up with blue top and a black frilly skirt. whahah quite UNLIKE ME. i cant really stand myself wearin till that formal la. but well thats wat the dress code says. BAH.

meet up with zr. whahah tink he got quite a surprised look when he saw me. y arh? coz i not that late or coz i look weird in that STUPID outfit? duno la. aniwaz, we ended up reachin sch quite early, quite thankful that we arrange to meet coz its juz SO WEIRD walkin in sch with that outfit.

aniwaz, its quite excititn to see ppl dress up 4 the occasion. some wear till v nice! some quite weird.... [wonder which category i belong to..... sure the weird and ugly one la] =( dinner was ok, whaha and i SHOOK miss kua's hand. kewl. glad that mine din break. =P anwiaz, juniors did a dance, its juz so weird to sit down and watch them perform. duno how to describe the feeling.... maybe cant bear to leave them.. and leave the fun that we used to have....... =( quite sad. after performance was sorta disco stuff la, was supposed to meet zr to go back but he thot i left and i din take my fone along to the dance floor, so by the time i wenta check hp, he already at the sch gate. so me stayed a bit longer, havoc a bit, den walk out of the MAIN GATE.

*sigh* tired, time to do njc prelim b4 i get killed tml by mr yong, surprised that he came 4 the award thingy aso~

Queen Tona @ 10:26 PM 0 comments

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Monday, August 25, 2003

how sld i describe wat i am feeling? i duno. i really duno.

been feeling damn stressed up and all these few days, tink today is the LAST straw. han wei came to sch and din sae a single word to me, weber and jia bi. i mean HELLO? u unhappy with me, u jolly well tell me STRAIGHT IN THE FACE that u not shuang with me all rite, wat is this? u juz dun utter a single word and u expect me to noe wats wrong? and all u did was talk to the 38 club. FINE, i cant be bothered.

i duno wats happening. i feel the entire world crashin down on me. studies? prelims is juz ROUND THE CORNER and wat have i done? am i ready? with the results that i am gettin now, where do i even tink i can end up? relationships? nothing. nothing. nothing. friendships?

i duno, i duno y. i juz feel like i am juz wastin resources on earth. wastin food, wastin oxygen. with those useless results, can i contribute to the society? spend 2plus years of my life, but wat did i end up with? end up with ppl scoldin me, saein that all i did was bring trouble to both his and mine life. frens? wat have i acheive? i dun even noe y han wei was angry with me today....

i juz feel useless. all i did bring abt to everyone;s life is misery, all i am doing on earth is juz wastin resources..... all i eva noe is to cry... i want someone, someone to assure me that all is fine, that all is well.... where are u?

Queen Tona @ 7:46 PM 0 comments

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Sunday, August 24, 2003

was supposed to do an essay question on : " marriage is not a word. it is a sentence."
duno where to begin, dun feel like starting. the last thing i wanna deal with now is to talk abt love and relationships. my mind is in a complete mess. my heart is feeling one thing, my mind is tellin me to do another.
wenta fo tang for dance. was talkin during lunch, crappin. apparently, topic neva fails to turn to hsing chi and me. heck la, i tink i am fated to be related with all the diff scandals, is it juz them or am i bringing trouble to myself?

been staring at the stupid fone for quite long,
there are 2 ppl that i wanan msg.
one is someone who i sld feel like msg-ing becoz i noe how HAPPY i can be by juz one msg that i receive from him. but well, i noe, noe betta den to make such stupid moves, becoz previous experiences have shown, shown that its only a plain waste of sms.
the other? i duno, duno y sld i have that urge? am i losin my mind? i juz wanan talk to him, talk abt wat? i duno. i juz feel like hearin his voice, readin his replies, somehow i juz feel happy ard him ... wats WRONG with me? y sld i be tinkin this wae? y complicate things? y run the risk of losing yet another fren?

so, eventually, i sent a msg, or rather some msgs, but not to either of them. i juz forward this msg to some of my frens...... HAI. juz so sianz diao.

is marriage abt love? is marriage abt money? is marriage abt getting a companion? somehow along the wae, my perception of marriage has changed. so wat if u get married? do u tink it will end the wae it does in fairy-tales? blah and blah live happily eva after? time to wake up. welcome to reality.

very often den not, marriage is abt responsibility. u are responsibe to ensure that it work out. wats the thing that keep couples together? in todayis world , its not love, its the kids, its the responsibiliy that they tink they sld have. so is marriage abt love? NO, not now, not anymore. not happy? get a divorce. easily said and done now.

and there are others... u see young gals with old man, married. u tink there is love? u tink that woman really LOVE that bald old man? hello, y did they marry u? u really tink that at the age of 80 u are that attractive? wat is it that that gal want? MONEY. is marriage abt love? NO.

i used to dream abt gettin married, abt wearin that sweet wedding gown, with my other half, walkin down the aisle. now? i duno, i duno wat to expect of marrriage. u may be saein "I do" and a year later, u are packin up and leavin ur husband/wife.

wat is marriage to me now? i duno. to me, its juz a word, it makes no sense. it looks ridiculous. if marriage is abt love, den y are so many ppl divorcin? den if marriage is not abt love, den y bother wastin money and time?

wat is marriage to u?

Queen Tona @ 10:23 PM 0 comments

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YAHOOOOOO!!!!
its a bright and cheery sunday mornin!! and i am up and about so early. RARE.
whahha apparently, me gettin outa the house in 30mins time.... coz going to help out at the dance item 4 the charity dinner thingy....

aniwaz, juz a gooood morning poST!!!!! its a happy day~ be happy~ =)

Queen Tona @ 9:30 AM 0 comments

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Saturday, August 23, 2003

does the human heart has the capacity to love two?

i duno. becoz i tink my brain is going mad, from stress. its either that, or i am losin control... lettin my heart rule my mind again. becoz, somehow, i find myself startin to miss a new someone, somehow, i find myself constantly tinkin of that person. have i grown to like him un-knowingly? this had betta be exams stress, becoz i CANNOT let passion rule over reason, i cannot allow myself another chance of getting hurt.

Queen Tona @ 2:22 PM 0 comments

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Friday, August 22, 2003

din wanna blog today but well i really MUZ MUZ MUZ add one more thing to the list of things that i wish to do.

11) kill, murder and TORTURE arnold [ aka mr ****!]

the bloody no brain muscle man, made me went thru one of the worst 2hrs physics lessons that i have man! supposed to go thru TJC and VJC prelims papers. he started off by askin : ' who got Q** wrong? so simple. sure no one rite?" if there were to be some who raise their questions, he go BERSEK! " HUH. lidat so simple aso muz explain? u betta wake up! so easy, i can use less den 2mins to finish this. can save time for other questions. are u sure u duno, betta wake up ok? SO SIMPLE." den after a while, he din even ask if we have any queries, he merely flipped the pages: " this page v simple arh, shudden have any problems, oh this question common sense, can give the ans in 30secs. duno y the school set this kinda questions arh. should have no problem gettin full marks." seriously, i tink he has said 100^100 times of so simple and easy. i juz sat there, and feel like MURDERING ppl. feel like going rite up and scold him man.

i mean HELLO, IF I KNEW ALL THE ANS, I WUN BE HERE WASTING MY TIME LISTENING TO ALL UR "SO SIMPLE" AND "SO EASY" . IF I KNEW ALL THE ANS, I WOULD BE THE ONE STANDING THERE, TELLIN EVERYONE ELSE HOW EASY EVERY SINGLE QUESTION IS. IF I KNEW ALL THE ANS, I WUN EVEN BOTHER COMIN FOR UR LESSONS ALL RITE? U ARE HERE TO TEACH, NOT HERE TO TEACH US THE MEANIN OF "SO EASY" AND "SO SIMPLE". argh. damn pissed off la. wat kinda attitude is this?!?!?! he tink he juz come and earn money so easily arh? gettin so sick of physics. the sight of him and the physics MAKES ME PUKE!
argh, mood-spoiler. and den one more thing, he writes so bloody SMALL, only 4 himself to see. when qingru ask him abt this ans that was written on the board, he said " huh? u blind arh? eye-sight got problem isit?" WAH LIEW, u write so small, u tink everyone got perfect eye-sight? HAIYARZ, PISSED. glad that i am outa physics remedial, so i dun need to face him 4 any time other den the compulsory tutorials man! ALL I CAN CONCLUDE IS, I CAN TEACH BETTER. HE CAN JUZ JOLLY WELL GO ON "SO-SIMPLEING" 4 ALL I CARE.

hai, tml is maths mock. quite sianz, haven finish studying, shall pray for the best.
BYEEEEee

Queen Tona @ 9:11 PM 0 comments

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Thursday, August 21, 2003

*Sigh* bloody pissed off today.

1) the weather was sorching. the bus was crowded. i felt like i was suffocatin.
2) realise that maths mock exam is in like 2 days time and i haven practise a single question.
3) cant find that cd that i want to hear. #!@$!@%(@%
4) did TJC prelim paper and cant figure out wat one part of the Q is talkin abt.
5) tried to blog in chinese but my com hung!
6) tried to keep calm and cool but i cant stop feeling anithing BUT calm.
7) realise that prelims are like juz a corner away and i am not even 1/4 thoroughly thru my work.
8) realise that my studies and my brains realli sucks.
9) realise that i cant survivie very well with less den 6hrs of sleep.
10) realise that i am hopelessly in need of some1 4 me to vent my anger on.

things that i shall try to do.....
1) wear white socks and SMILE at sharon phua.
2) sleep at earliest 11.45pm.
3) mug like MAD
4) change my brains? [ hard to acheive]
5) drop outa sch.
6) burn njc
7) steal A level cambridge papers.
8) go on a diet
9) smile and mean it
10) get a bf and announce to the ENTIRE WORLD esp ...

juz like how they sae, ezier said den done.

Queen Tona @ 10:10 PM 0 comments

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Wednesday, August 20, 2003

heez. time 4 my grand entrance~
tata, its the kinda in the mood 4 bloggin day again 4 me!

was listenin to 9.33 juz now at ard 8. wat that DJ said really made quite a lot
sense to me i guess. cant really remember the exact phrasing, but those
who got listen sld noe wat its abt. she was talkin abt some old frens, and how she juz starts to tink back on the past and tink of all the stuff that they used to do.
she said somthing abt us wantin to remember that moment, prob not becoz of the person but rather becoz, at that moment, u are happy, enjoying etc. aiyarz, cant get the exact meanin here, but well the gist of it.

it makes a lota sense to me really. often, i walk ard and see loads of places, familiar places, and i can literally see myself there, chattin, laughin away. its as if things were juz like b4... but yet when u look around now, there have been changes. tons. yest passed orchard pt... apparently it has been torn apart.... juz suddenly came to realise that oh, time has really passed that long. it seemed as if it was yest when i was amazed by the escalator... when i was shoppin 4 flowers there. its a weird sense, weird sense of sadness... that time has already passed u by, and there is nothing u can do to get back to that pt of time again.

juz like today, skip gp mock. went 4 lunch at yoshinoya with zong rong. it was the exact same spot, there were so many seats available but yet we choose that table, i was at the exact seat..... exact spot. and yet, a few yrs have passed. a few yrs have passed since i went there 4 my first chicken bowl.... its a different feeling all together. a familiar feeling, and yet at the same time, i feel as if i have became a totally different person all together. sumtimes, i see familiar spots, spots that i frequent, spots that brings back fond memories, i get quite sad because i noe, i will neva be able to see myself back there again, juz like how things were b4....

juz like wat zr sae, u will neva learn to cherish the things u have, until u lose it. until u compare it with others, and realise that that was actually the right choice 4 u....

somehow along the way, i know that i have changed. i will neva find myself playin the merry-go-round with my frenz in causewae pt.... i will neva find myself doing useless stuff till the middle of the nite juz 4 the sake of a surprise..... i will neva find myself living in that world of my own again...... becoz, i have learnt that there are no fairy-tales. i have learnt the word, reality.

PS: sorry la zr.... please accept my apology. *blink blink* *look innocent*

Queen Tona @ 9:57 PM 0 comments

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whahha, sld i be guilty when i announce this? no no. shall be happy and give myself a pat la.

" i skipped GP mock exam today which sld start at 3.... so here am i, back HOME!"

whahah, tink its juz such a smart choice of me. imagine stayin in sch till so late again, and summore, tink that mock exam is such a waste of time and energy la. so wat if u do a thousand compres, a million mock exams, if u flop at the real thing, its the end of u. who wld care if u got 4As in ur mock exams, got fabulous results in ur common tests. if u stumble for As, u are gone. enuff said.

aniwaz, on a lighter note, walk past a shop and it sold lanternS!!! with nemo, dory etc!!!! so tempted to buy, really. but well imagine this, me walkin around the place with a stupid lantern alone, admiring the moon, when the peeps ard me will all have their company. so 4get it. let someone who can put that lantern into more good use have the chance to buy iT!

aniwaz, laterz~ blog at 9 plus i guess.... [whahah those who cant wait to see me online can come at that time! =X ]

Queen Tona @ 3:33 PM 0 comments

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Tuesday, August 19, 2003

hehez. got tis off my fren;s blog. time to crap again!!! =)

>1)Starting time: 9.45pm
>2)Full name: Jiahui!! =)
>3)Nickname: no nick name la..
>4)School: njc, ex st nicks
>5)e-mail: email me and i will tell u whahhaa [lame]
>6)star sign: star sign? eh..... A star
>7)zodic sign: gemini
>8)Siblings: brother!
>9)Gd frens: humans
>10)Ever go out late @ nite: of coz! nite life is more fun
11)Ever missed school because it was raining?: miss sch coz i was lazy den got.
>12)how often u go out: when i feel like it?
>13)Kept a secret from everyone?: hmmmmmmm maybe?
>14)Had an imaginary friend?: when i was young i guess
>15)religion: free-thinker
>16)wish 4 a sis or bro: yea. elder bro!!!!! sure will dote on me one!!!!
>17)Had a crush on a teacher?: i hate teachers. =X
>19)Ever at anytime owned a 'New Kids on the Block' tape?: whats that?
>20)Ever prank called someone: =X
>21)Been on stage: whaha e last time was syf.
>22)fav tings: fone, holland v, frenz, laughter, me, myself and I
>23)Colors: pink, white
>25)Online: almost daily~
>26)Countries: snowy places
27)Like anyone: like is a profound word.....
28)Who have you known the longest of your friend: zp? not sure. sad case 4 this question. SKIP
29)Who's the loudest: me! weber! -grins-
>30)Who's the shyest: me! [ whahha contradicting yea?]
>31)Who do you go to for advice: frenz? myself? my mirror
>32)Who do you get along with best: my mirror
>----------IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU------------
>33)Cried: yep. whahah women are made of tears all rite
>34)Been mean: tink so?
>35)been sarcastic: yea~
>38)Talked to someone you nv talk b4: not sure
>39)Missed someone: SKIP
>40)Hugged someone: yep
>41)Fought with your parent(s): nopes. i am civilised~
>42)Wished upon a star: no. wishes seldom come true. total waste of time.
>43)Laughed until you've cried: laughed till my mouth ache got. thanks to guangyi and company~
>44)Played Truth or Dare: nah. lousy game. the last time i played was in class chalet
>45)watched a sunrise/sunset: nope
>46)Went to the beach at night: nope.
>47)Read a book for fun: yep. whah the chance of sunshine counted not?
>48)Ate a meal: my purpose in sch is to eat all rite! =)
>49)Are you lonely?: SKIP
>50)Are you happy?: SKIP
>51)Are you talking to someone online?: nope. dun feel like talkin too.

yawn.

Queen Tona @ 9:59 PM 0 comments

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Monday, August 18, 2003

YAWN. rite a quick blog b4 i doze off.... 4 ur info i only slept like 4hrs yesterday.... damn tired now.....

aniwaz juz now took bus home. sat the one facin the entire bus.... regretted it seriously!! till now i still feel like puking! i tink i realli simply cannot sit that seat man. haiyarz, tink dun blog too much.... fallin asleep. realli. ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz
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Queen Tona @ 10:03 PM 0 comments

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Sunday, August 17, 2003

let's carry on with the crappy blog yesterday~

1) Why are there pictures of the sun wearing sunglasses when the purpose of sunglasses is to protect your eyes from the sun?

2) What happens when you say “hi” to your friend on an airplane who's name is Jack?

3) How do you know which armrest is yours in the movie theaters?

4) Just what was the "Baby On Board" sign for? Did it help us decide which car not to hit in case of an accident?

5) Can you cry under water?

6) Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

7) Why is it when we duck they call us chicken?

8) If you drink Pepsi at work in the Coke factory, will they fire you?

9) Why is the blackboard green?

10) Can you grow birds by planting birdseed?

=)

Queen Tona @ 10:20 PM 0 comments

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yahoo~ today has been quite an interestin day!

morning went 4 breakfast at the coffeeshop with my family... when we were eatin half-way, we witness a shockin scene! the person who is "in charge" of clearin away plates cups etc, suddenly smashed the cups that she was holding on the floor and the glass almost hit someone. apparently, she saw her husband, or ex-husband, with someone else and was so pissed that she did that. its weird, weird to see how humans can do such drastic things when it comes to love and relationships. i have heard of the guy actually wanting to kill his ex gal-fren juz coz she went off with someone else. absurd it may seems, but sometimes u juz love that person so much that u will do drastic things, juz to get his/her attention, juz to get him/her back. but well wats urs will be urs rite?

makes me think of wat me and zr talked abt on the bus-ride home on fri nite. whaha sorta told him abt some of my "love history". apparently he was quite shocked? or surprised? or wat? i aso duno. aniwaz, he was talkin abt how he tinks that someone is a jerk etc, but seriously, to me, i still choose to believe that he is still that caring, sensitive person that he used to be. duno la, sometimes its not that i choose to "act in that serial drama", but wat else wat i do? do some drastic stuff? wateva 4? will it be of any use? to come to think of it, its the longest period that i have stayed single since my june of sec 1. juz tired of relationships [ whaha not as if i have a lot.... juz 3, but well thats more den enuff] , y invest so much time and energy when u noe that it will 99% not work out? y even bother try to allow any chance 4 any heartache again rite?

aniwaz, wenta fo tang after that to rehearse 4 dance. coz they are puttin up a sorta charity dinner stuff, so wenta help han wei they all. after that, something shocking happened la, shant elaborate. den me, han wei and xin wen wenta mug a bit at star-bucks. drank mocha! yum yum~ glad that after that everything was all rite~ =) cheer up la, gal!

hai, aniwaz, here i am.. typing away in front of the computer. gonna mug soon later~

[duno wats wrong with zr, but well, cheer up yar? dun get so stressed up or so pissed off la. lidat will grow old ezily.bet u dun wanna advance from uncle to grandpa so soon rite? =P ]

Queen Tona @ 7:46 PM 0 comments

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Saturday, August 16, 2003

hmm crappy blog

let's start with crappy questions... eg
1) Why do donuts have holes?
2) Why do they call it an escalator if it takes you down?
3) Why are softballs hard?
4) If Practice makes perfect, and nobody's perfect, then why practice?
5) If love is blind, how can we believe in love at first sight?

some pick-up lines.... useful 4 guys! *wink*
1) It's not my fault I fell in love. You are the one that tripped me.
2) Did it hurt? Gal: Did what hurt? When you fell out of heaven? [ haha me like this one, so sWEEt]
3) As gal's leaving....Hey aren't you forgetting something? gal: What? Me!
4) If you were a library book, I would check you out. [ haha this is suitable 4 NJ-cians!!!]
5) you have a Band-Aid? I skinned my knee when I fell for you. [ haha this one's 4 tesla man! use on weber!!! =) ]

whaha some funny stuff
1) A repair shop:
WE CAN REPAIR ANYTHING. (PLEASE KNOCK HARD ON THE DOOR - THE BELL DOESN'T WORK)
2) "How to store your baby walker: First, remove baby."
- Anonymous Manufacturer
3)"It is white."
- George W. Bush, when asked what the White house was like by a student in East London
4) In a Bangkok dry cleaner's:
"Drop your trousers here for best results."
5)As I said before, I never repeat myself.

hehez. crap entry

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yawn yawnz. i cant help but come online......
i hereby conclude that chemistry sucks la.
cant believe it, i used to like chemistry in sec school and now whahah
maybe physics is betta compared to chem man.

spend ard 4 hrs juz now with chem..... finish equilibria and rxn kinetics.... seriously la, i tink the topics are damn sucky, i still cant do half the calculations on those stupid buffers..... damn pissed off. ARGH. almost killed my calculator!!!! and the paper!!!! and the questions!!! and chem mock is on tues.... sucky sucky. chem sucks. hafta finish energetics later b4 going out 4 dinner with mum at causewae~ kewl. long time neva go there le. shopping time!!! =)

hai. chem sucks. hw sucks. sch sucks. exams sucks. nj sucks. my brains sucks. maybe i suck too..... =\

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Friday, August 15, 2003

=). its the weekends again~ i have been lookin 4ward to it the entire week man! finally can sleep a bit more!!! and me so lazy, need tons of sleep one kae!

aniwaz, today started the day in a bAD note le. was crossin over head bridge, and the DM [sharon] was walkin rite behind me..... it din help that i was wearing both BLUE shoes and BLUE socks and my shirt was sorta out.... i purposely walk slowly and pray that she wun notice... apparently she juz kept turning around to STARE at me..... heck la, dun come here and breath down my neck i am thankful enuff le. after assembly, our beloved arnold ASKEd to see the entire class and scolded us early in the morning, at the parade sq. everyone who was walkin past juz gave us the weird look lor..... its was quite pathetic, the usual, sae we have lan4 attitude, no effort etc. heck abt him la, he 4eva scoldin us abt such things, but well tink thats how my class is, 4eva quite slack and all. =)

lessons was normal, long day with extra chem make-up lessons... in TC26.. after that wenta mug at the lib with han wei, weber, guangyi and zong rong. not bad la, tink studyin in the lib is quite good coz u see ppl mug like mad, u aso mug! =) stayed till abt 7 plus... han wei had chi cheng to drive her.... [unfair!!!!!] den me weber and zong rong took 171 home~ whaha quite fun la the ride, coz no matter wat zr sae i aso connect to **** =) dun care arh. bleah!

actually i quite like taking long bus rides home at nite, thats partly y i wanted to take 171 today aso. reason? duno, juz feel calm and comfortable, feel as if u are in a world of ur own. but well, apparently, zr saes that he tinks its lonely etc. y dun i feel this wae? maybe coz loneliness has become part of my life that i dun even feel it anymore, or maybe i juz like to do things alone, or maybe i am juz weird. *shrugs*

hai, tml's going be a looooong day again. have to mug like mad again. maybe i will go woodlands lib to mug? duno.... haven tried going there alone.... the v last experience with someone was bad, disatrous. =) maybe coz i juz refuse to make the effort to make the studying session enjoyable? duno, juz noe that no more going there with that person a 2rd time man! k la, going off to get some Sleep.... YAWNZ

-Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then, we'll be together,
Somewhere out there, out where dreams, come true.-

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Thursday, August 14, 2003

hmmmm supposed to blog an actual blog today.... but well, seems as if i simply cant find the time again.. whaha k la try try.

aniwaz, today was a LONG day and i can literally feel my energy draining away this week... its damn tiring.... i haven been sleepin early at all since the week started and i dun tink i can today.... sianz diaoz la. and the sad thing is tutorials are enuff to occupy me 4 the entire nite, let alone revision.... so far only started a bit 4 maths mock which is nex week. damn sianz diaoz.

haiyarz, and today is the first day i reach home early. PE ended at 4, the weather was bad, but well, i love this kinda gloomy weather, sets me off thinkin abt stuff~ aniwaz, went home with zr, suan him abt *** whahah, good man! who tell them alwaz suanz me abt Y in sch...... =| time to get back my "retribution" whaha tink he aso dun mind, seems to be enjoying it =P

aniwaz, reach home and thot that wOW good i can slack and rest a while... so read i-weekly... newspaper, had a nice bathe, eat, watch holland v.... hehez, my fav show 4 now!! seriously i tink that yan yan is gettin from BAD to WORSE to CANNOT MAKE IT. thank god xiao xin is smarter den her man! =) and jing jing was so kind or maybe to some, naive. she actually agree to marry that chicken king coz she feels that as long as xiao xin is happy with yan yan, den she will be happy too.
thats true la, u dun have to marry the person that u love most, becoz juz as long as u noe that the person u love is happier without u and leadin a fulfilling life, den you sld be happy for him/her too~ sounds all wonderful and wei da. ezier said den done. how many ppl can actually do that and mean it? i duno. *shrugs*

aniwaz, started muggin at 8.... did chem and physics... left with a bit of physics.... 1.5 question.. dun feel like doing maths... heck la, dun tink i will do it.... hope to sleep earlier a bit today so that i can last long in the lib tml nite till like 9? hope that i can mug more tml, hope that i can be happier tml, hope that life will be more beautiful in the nex few days.... =)

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Wednesday, August 13, 2003

heez juz came back from muggin at school.... damn bz still got 2 DRQ undone.... and its nine plus.... aniwaz juz blog coz......

ITS XIN RU'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!

hehe gal, hope u enjoyed urself today! lala, stay happy and pretty alwaz~
off to do work..... =| shall blog in more detail tml.

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Monday, August 11, 2003

today's been a hectic day~ YAWNZ. ended lessons only at 6. damn sian diaoz..... aniwaz sch was boring as usual. the only interesting thing was lunch. whahha =P k i noe i am a hopeless case.

aniwaz. takin a break from studying to blog. y sld i blog today? no special reason, no special day. juz some usual random rattlings. [ 4 those who have had enuff, pls leave. ]

sometimes i wish i can graduate from nj earlier. no, not that i am eager to start the most dreaded A levels, but njc is definitely not a school that i wld want to come back and visit. why? becoz it brings back painful memories. yes, i may enjoy the company of my close frens, but well, there are juz SOME PEOPLE that i dread to see in njc... maybe dread is a wrong word. i duno, i duno wats that feeling that is going on inside me when i see some ppl.... i juz feel outa breath, i juz feel like diggin a hole, i juz feel my heart aching. but seriously, is there a need to feel that wae? i have gotten sick of walkin into sch rite behind that someone, a familiar back view, a familiar voice, but we are juz so near yet so far. its an awful wae to start a day, and if there is going to be anymore of such days, i hope, i hope that it will come to an end soon. i duno how to describe how i feel, i only noe i felt tears in my eyes, and yet wat came out of me was the usual giggles and craps that i share with shu-ning on my way in sch.

sometimes, i wish i can juz enter sch with a happy heart...... with no bad memories, with someone by my side..... juz like how things were a yr plus ago.....

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Sunday, August 10, 2003

YAWNz. finally back on net again coz din blog yesterday~ whahhaa actually i did use the com yesterday but well, juz dun feel like bloggin. y? maybe shant blog the stuff which i tink are useless and stupid. heex. dun want any misunderstandings ard.

aniwaz, yest national day was ok. normal. slack abt the whole day. went out in the day. bought a handfone pouch. PINK! whhaha but well, regretted it later coz i thought it was quite ex. tink i alwaz buy things neva use my brains one..... =( and another irritatin thing happen yesterday!!!! my rite contact lense drop and gone with the wind man!!!! i cant find it..... damn waste my $$ one lor... wanted to get a new one yesterday but the shop was closed... tink shall turn mugger tml in sch... ARGH.

oh!!! yesterday when they showed the ndp thingy, they got show a bit of the preparation part and i saw mr tay on TV!!!! he was teachin them some dance steps i tink, quite kewl~ and there were a few steps which are similar to the syf dance too. =) quite shocked and surprised to see it!

today was BORING. woke at 10. whahha i noe i am a pig..... i cant help it!!!! =) had a v nice dream. but well.... remembered somehting abt holland v where xiao xin said that dreams are the opposite from reality. tink i agree..... but i wunt mind havin sweet and nice dreams becoz i noe that it is not gonna happen in real life anyway~ maybe thats y i dun feel like gettin outa bed... but well... had tons of things to be done so no choice.... mug 4 like 6 plus hrs today..... feel so proud of myself. k la, maybe to some, 6hrs is nothing, but tell u the truth, i haven mug 4 so long in one day b4 le!!!! heez so i guess i am realli startin to get in the mugging mood! good. *pat pat*

k la off to relax and take a break~ dun miss me people~ *muacks* *hugs* whahhaa [k tink i am going mad. too much books ]

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Friday, August 08, 2003

hmmm today's been yet another busy day... seriously i dun realli wanna have a hectic day today... wld rather stay at home and slack and sleep..... but well... since its supposed to be celebration lunch, so might as well come sch den meet the dancers and go together.

ndc was ok. normal. cheerleadin item improved. international dance item is nice though got someone i dun like there.... but well had to admit that she dance v well. heex. aniwaz, celebrations ended quite early la. after that met up with them at the canteen den went down to jurong east 4 lunch at this seafood restaurant. whahha we took a total of 3 tables~ invited mr tay too! slack 4 abt one hour there, look at the syf fotos, not bad la, tink its quite nice. but well damn ex!!! one 4R is like 1.20.... nvm la,. shall wait 4 the vcd to come instead den~ food was fabulous!!! hehez, though our table cant finish den gave some to the guys. took quite a lota fotos with mr tay~ bought him flowerS! aniwaz tink we juz stayed at that place 4 quite long but well the place not bad la, quite nicely decorated!

after that, some went home. others cant decide btw kbox and movie... so we decided to get to choa chu kang 1st and decide. finally decided movie home run!!! ehhez. me quite happy with that coz i wanted to watch that movie too! so bought 3pm show. the movie was not bad. betta den i not stupid i guess, its v touching though there are real funny parts too! but well.... as usual, me got cry la. i cant help it!!! the moment that gal cry, i juz cry.... she juz makes my heart ache 4 her. tink the song towards the end is real touching too.... towards the end when that gal was so brave, omg ... juz so touching... *sigh* tink those two siblings really love each other a lot.... and another thing that i saw in the movie was true friendship. its nice to see how the other frens help that guy when he is punished etc. so nice and sweet. hmmmm k la, shant reveal too much of that movie. worth watchin though.

anwiaz, wenta shop around after that.... den went home at ard 5 plus coz i wanna catch holland v. actually guangyi asked abt dinner tonight with him and yanzhi but well tink i am juz TOO tired. when i was on the train home, juz feel drained. holland v was another show that made me tear today..... i was so angry with that IDIOT yan yan that i almost wanted to drag her outa the tv and murder her!!! and towards the end when jing jing saw that guy and yan yan, i juz feel so sad 4 her and tear.... esp the last part when yan yan actually scold her when she is the one who is in the wrong!!!! $@$@%#^ she dun even like that man at all!!!! only like his money!!!!!! aIYO!!!!! irriating!!!!!! hai jing jing and that man cant be together!!!! ARGH!!!!!! poor jing jing..... aiyarz juz so irritated! stupid yan yan. no brain bimbo!

aniwaz, going off to catch amazing race. oh, by the way, happy birthday singapore!!!!!

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Thursday, August 07, 2003

whahah juz thot of something after watchin the holland v preview of wats going to happen tml~
the xie shaoguang is going to give wan wan flowers!!! or rather rose..... whahha den its weird to see wan wan juz turn fr v angry to quite happy! actually, i seriously think that roses can make gals happy. i duno, at least to me....

still recall v-day.... hehez. i was realli v touched when Y turned up at the school gate late at 7 plus juz to hand me a rose and a bear 4 v-day prezzie, seriously at that time, my heart juz melted... i am v touched. k la, maybe to some its stupid... maybe its been long since i have been so "pampered".... but well, seriously, juz that rose and bear and that thought makes me melts... hehez, but well... dun worry la, nothign much turn out from that. y? becoz i din let my stupid heart rule my mind. we are juz frenz la, whahah and me aso dun dare to get too near to him.... enuff of gossips around..... any closer and i am dead meat. whahhah =X

k la, juz thot of jotting this sweet thot down..... roses juz make my day~

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Wednesday, August 06, 2003

=) mock exams are over~ WEEeeee!
aniwaz, in the mood to blog a long blog again! so guys, bear with me! or dun read lor =X

shall talk abt econs first.. today had mock exams... entire syllabus~ kewl. tink i tried my best to mug as much as i can la, rare rite? 4 such an ultra slacker like me.. whahha but well, i did it! =) though i din complete all the topics... but well at least got read thru most and it really gave me at the v least some basic ideas of all the impt stuff of econs! the paper was hard... 3 outa 6... i could not decide on the last one..... coz din study economic growth had to skip 4... 1 and 3 i not v sure... den 2 on merger..... juz heck la, got to crap.. turn out that i did remember quite a bit!!!! *pat* hehez, aniwaz, felt quite relieved after the thing, juz feel that my load is lighter! OH, muz scold yan zhi here!!!!!! in the afternoon, we were muggin in the lib, den he sae he got tips that elasticities and price theory will come out, so i hurry read those... sacrificin my macro econs..... den.... IT NEVA CAME OUT!!!!! ARGH!!!!! so angry whahha. k la, my fault too.... who tell me believe in tips.... but well.... whoeva is the one who started it, betta watch out!!!!!! whahha

aniwaz, today during lunch, zr was quite shocked abt me eatin so much chilli. my reply? depends on my mood. really. when i am feeling stressed/unhappy, i juz go for more chilli. weird. but well, u noe the feeling when u take loads of chilli and ur throat burns and ur eyes tear? maybe that is a good way to vent out all my unhappiness? y were my eyes red? no, not from lack of sleep.... but because, with the help of the chilli, i can tear.... hai, *Craps*

aniwaz, today din sleep on the bus ride home... reason? whahah coz there was a shuai ge on the bus!!!!! k la, thats one reason! he realli v cute, when he smile, i juz feel like smiling too!!!!! aniwaz, juz sat thru the bus ride and thought abt stuff.... tink its realli time for me to turn into mugging mood. and this mock exam really helps to put me in that right mood. i shan;t be bothered abt anithing except studies animore. because, y water a plant when u noe its dead? tink its really time that i finally settle down to plan out my time and study. esp when time is relaly running out.... so well, guess shall turn into mugger soon!!!! heez, nex week tink some days going to study late with han wei and weber in the school lib. not bad la, i dun mind studyin with them, can motivate me somemmore. =) k so shall put all things aside, shall be mature! hehez muz jia you!!!

but well, today shall juz take a break and finish tutorials.... coz need a break from the mock exams~~~ hehehez k la, dun so crappy le......

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Tuesday, August 05, 2003

weeeeeeeeeeee me back again!
whahah aniwaz, its so early and i am back home! yippe!!! my turn to suan zong rong! =P k la.... but well i am supposed to be mugging 4 the SUPER DUPER DREADED TIME-WASTING BRAIN CONSUMING ECONS MOCK EXAM....... seriously i tink they will definitely be out to mock us..... ok maybe juz me..... sigh. still got quite some chapts undone.... and seriously i tink i have forgotten all that i have learnt b4~~~~ *Gasps* cross fingers man. hope that i can juz scrap thru.... and THAT needs more den juz luck.... but well, tink its too late 4 anithing except juz pray 4 a miracle.

k off to bathez.

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Sunday, August 03, 2003

hmmm juz read zr's blog... that sad story that he posted.
although this is not the first time i read it, but i still tear. its obvious that the story cant be true but yet it still seem so real to me. whahah, k la, to some, i may seem imaginative, naive. but well, heck la. the story is real v sad..... imgaine sacrificing ur life for someone u love and yet return to see ur loved one with another person....

*sigh* i guess, sometimes u wun be aware of wat strange and stupid things someone is actually willing to do for u. u wun notice, how much sacrifice someone has made for u, how much tears someone has shed, because u are too happily in the world of ur own..... because all u have in ur eyes is her and no one else. and no matter wat that someone do, she will never be able to get you back......

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Saturday, August 02, 2003

hmm realised that i haven been bloggin much and i haven been online these two days..... whahha turing guai? [maybe man. i wish. ]

aniwaz, saw my progress report... ok la, not as bad that i though it would look.... CDEO7... whahah how i wished it was ABCD man!!!! nvm.... at least it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.... they started a new column called the % column... rank u according to which % of the students u are with that results of urs... cant remember much abt mine. shall update u ppl when i get the report again.... whaha actually tink i am easily contented... some of my frens will be killin themselves over such grades but to me, i guess.... heck la, not all O and F good enuff le. *shrugS* tink this kinda bochup attitude is not going to help me much.... =X

hai, wednesday is the STUPID econs mock... yes paper 3, the essay paper... yes the entire syllabus!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! seriously i tink unless a mircle happens or something, i am not going to do well for it.... only started to feel a bit panicky on fri..... which is yesterday.... decided to at least muz read thru everything once... so....

fri: income and employment, demand and supply, elasticity, money supply, unemployment, inflation....
sat up till now: public finance, international trade....
end of today..: HOPE TO finish... BOP, forex, and market failure. which sorta finish the entire yr 2 except ec growth which i cant be bothered..... i mean although i can finish aso rather brief ones lor...... sure cannot remember by wed..... DIE. hope phyllis wun kill me.....

hai. aniwaz going to the lib laterz. getting quite sick of studying!!!!! boo hoo hoo. but well, tink from nex week onwards, muz switch to the mugger lifestyle, dun sleep too much, dun slack too much and MUG more!!

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