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Name: Jiahui
Age: 22
School: auditor in training ~~ntu acc~~ ~~njc~~ ~~st nicks~~ ~~peiying pri~~
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Monday, September 29, 2003

well, today was sorta results day. seriously, i tink gettin back results is juz so mentally draining....
worse den doing exams. i juz feel so exhausted lor. BAH.
its v nerve-rackin when they give u back paper by paper, den u add one by one and finally end up with that particular grade, i juz start to see numbers swarming ard me.
esp when they show u mcq ans and u mark... realli lor, aiyarz duno how to describe but i am sure u peeps noe how it feels.

got back the two sciences [most of it] plus compre.
got back everything for chem except the prac which we will get tml.....
tink most prob will get a D coz D needs 48/75 4 prac.

phsyics, left the fluids question. surprisingly i din fail like i expected myself to! whahah,
tink my prac realli helped me coz i got 29/34 lor. but the stupid design was horrible!!
i only got 2/14 HELLO, TWO~~~~~ i tink i realli hopeless at such stuff lor. ARGH
aniwaz, if i get at least 10/30 for the fliuds question, sld get a D too.

gp was bad. only got 21.5/50... heck la, i knew i wld screw up the paper, i juz cudden tink straight and conc at all for the compre... hope to juz pass my gp lor.
k la, overall, quite happy with the results, i mean considering the amt of effort that i did put in,
tink the results already quite good le. prob this will motivate me to really mug harder.... whahha but well, hecks aniwaz, still left with maths plus econs. not v certain of the outcomes of these two...... quite worried for econs..... dun realli wanna end of havin to face her for one xtra hr of lessons. but tink quite high possibility..... *sigh*

shall rest my mind and get ready for another hectic day...... whahha but lookin forward to lunch at marche!!! yippEEEEEEeeee

Queen Tona @ 5:47 PM 0 comments

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Saturday, September 27, 2003

haven been bloggin much... seriously, i am losing this interest and passion.
gettin sick and tired of sittin in front of the com and typin to myself.
besides, there is nothing much 4 me to blog aniwae.
come on, haven u all gotten sick of all those senseless entries,
which strive to be strong, live life happily, blah blah blah.
haven u all gotten sick of all those useless entries,
which contains un-realistics hopes for the future?
i have.

but i guess i will still update once in a while.
will there still be entires like those mention above?
i am not sure, i hope not.
becoz so what if u write down ur hopes and dreams,
does anione bother? does anione care?
nothing is gonna change aniwayz

Queen Tona @ 10:13 PM 0 comments

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Thursday, September 25, 2003

yipee its finally bloggin time 4 me~
whahah although i was supposed to come last nite... but i fell asleep. =X

aniwaz, econs paper was quite bad, 4 me at least.
BAH.
mcq was a total blur. i sorta look to both sides to "check"
and OH NO, both have almost diff ans 4 most of the questions!!!!
almost fainted.
whahah aniwaz, since it was the last paper, juz cant help grinnin away though the paper was BAD

den came my fav part!!! takeshi!!!!! whaha wenta lido though i seriously detest the cinemas there...
and the one we went was so SMALL. pathetic la.
movie? ok, din expect much already coz of all the rather negative comments....
[whaha those who dun wanna noe the story may wanan skip the contents below]

i mean the show, there were some touchin and sad parts but well tink the endin was quite a flop.
damn lame, i wld rather they minus the ending lor. BAH, i was totally HEH, lidat ending arh?
i mean, HELLO, where got ppl have earthquake until juz nice one big hole there......... no LOGIC.
but well, there were nice and touchin parts la, but no no no, i neva cry this time!!!!
=) *grinz* din had a chance man, everytime i start to feel sad, some farni parts will come out.
esp the edmund arh, WAH cannot stand it!!!! whahahha. but the last part [B4 THE EARTHQUAKE] was v nice, when they hear each other;s msg.... so sad. =(

but well, aiyarz, cant sae that the story was totally senseless, coz its true to some extent that maybe, perhaps such things do happen. its like u watch the show, den u will like keep " ai-yah, he sld have walk there a bit more, or she sld have waited a bit longer, or he sld have turned ard etc" but well, when u find urself in their shoes, u realise there is nothing much u can do also wat. how on EARTH wld u noe that she will be juz so near rite? perhaps thats realli fate. thot the fotos that they received were quite sad, feel so ke3 xi1 for them..... but well, aiyarz juz a story. stupid one, stupid ending!!!! at least juz stick to the book one still got more sense lor.... stupid director la! =P

aiyarz, update later la, off to play~~

Queen Tona @ 4:25 PM 0 comments

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Monday, September 22, 2003

this is cute~
http://www.jettaped.com/Webboard/File/JettapedTP1387.swf

Queen Tona @ 10:01 PM 0 comments

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Sunday, September 21, 2003

heeeex.
update time!! though i aso duno y sld i even bother when i tink not even 1% of the entire population is going to read my blog. whahha, like i care.

sat was quite a slack day though i did TRIED to mug. TRIEd.
mug a bit in the mornin and early afternoon. afternoon watch tons of TV!!! sob sob, feeel so bad.
y i alwaz sae wanna mug aso neva end up mugggin!!!! =|
aniwaz, had a totally HOME ALONE day yesterday coz bro had cca in the morning, den came home change
den go sch to celebrate mid autumn....
me was totally alone.... mum and dad at work.... feel so abandoneD!!!! =(
aniwaz, after bro came home to change, i can finally get outa the house coz i no need to open the door 4 him le. so i went shopping~ again!!!
hehez, tink when i not in gd mood i 4eva go shopping~
bought a black skirt.... [duno y nowadays juz love black skirts. i juz bought one like 1 mth ago? ]
bought earrings, wanted to buy shoes but decided not to.
tink spendin money makes me happy~ *shrugs*
but quite sad la, ppl all go shoppin in grps... poor me was alone.
HAI, seems as if not long ago when i wished i had more time alone
and now? i have all the time in the world to be alone man.
ARGH! the grass alwaz seems greener on the other side.

today was a bit beta. mug a bit more, oh and i muz sae.... i committed a big sin...
i ate a bowl of laksa..... MY GOD... die la die, sure grow fatter le..... =( sob sob sob.
y din i control myself!!! whahah reminds me of the show i watch juz now~ "love on the diet or sumthing"
whaha. although i already watched it b4.. but well no harm watchin it again~
not bad la, at least my time not wasted i tink~ hehez.
although the show is quite exagerrating... but well, not bad la. quite nice.
andy was so shuai~~~~ *droolz* omg..... so shuai....
where is my prince charming~~~~ whaha k, shall not be that MAD.

shall not be that desp aso. whahah, like i cant survive alone man.
i am a 21st century woman man~ juz like wat zr sae, whahah no need man at all!
=P
k, prob, the nex min, i will change my mind.
but well till then, i will survive~

Queen Tona @ 10:17 PM 0 comments

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Friday, September 19, 2003

yawn yawn yawn shall update a bit today~
whahah i have only 2 papers left and i feel as if i have finished my prelims~

k, let;s talk abt some more saddening stuff first......
papers on thurs and fri were much worse den mon and tues!!!!
feel more and more demoralised by the day.....
physics 3 was BAD.
fluids was the only normal question i tink!!!
i spend too much time on the stupid G-field and had a stupid mental block!!!!
argh, wasted so much of my time and ended with such stupid ans and values....
tink its a damn bad paper for me!!!! =( nvm.... paper 1 and 2 is my only hope!!!! whahha
and apparently my other fren in another clz thot that the paper was 3hrs and she left one plus Q blank.....
poor thing, whahha but u will neva noe, maybe i will do worse den her man!

chem 1&2 was still betta, although MCQ was another battle. against time.
whahah was too nervous at the beginning, guess quite a bit for some question,
but well, HOPE that i can pass my chem la, pls, pls, PLEASE!!!! =)

today maths 2 was quite bad i tink, worse den P1..... or maybe coz i neva study enuff.....
pure maths was tough..... stats was still ok.....
and i was so pissed with the invigilator!!!!!
i was already so pissed that i cant figure that question den he still keep walkin ard me,
and den last 5mins, he was practically plantin his entire face onto my paper!!!!
[ i can see the shadow lor!!!!! ] bloody hell la, wats there to see man!!!!! spare me 4 that last 5mins will die meh!!!!! ARGH, like to see so much den do for me la!!! #@%@%@#%@#%
if i had a little more PEACE, i wld have gotten that bloody ans!! STUPID!!
not to mention i started the paper with a mental block AGAIN.
only manage to pick up the pace when i reach stats.....
~#~#!~$~!$#$@%@%@, i had betta pass man. if not i will murder that dumb dumb invigilator.

aniwaz, after that went for lunch and shop shop a bit at town~
whahha, thats y i sae i feel as if prelims are over~
wenta new extension at paragon though the place dun suit us la. whahah but KPO mahz
realise town change quite a bit, even a new mos! whahah, maybe that means that i have become more guai!!!! i have not been to town that often!!!! =) *pat pat*
cant wait for wed to come~ wanna watch my turn left turn right, k k i noe a lota ppl sae its crappy and not nice, but got takeshi is enuff!!! summore, not sad den good la, i dun wanna tear man! nowadays that holland v gettin to touchin already!!!

k peeps, will update tml. hope i have started muggin again by then~

Queen Tona @ 9:41 PM 0 comments

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Wednesday, September 17, 2003

sigh. today no paper~
woke up damn late today to my surprise, at ard 10am when i actually slept quite early yesterday....
i guess i finally understand what they mean by, the more u dream, the more tired u get.
woke up feeling damn exhausted, realised my pillow was wet, my eyes were wet..

seriously, i tink all i noe was i was crying in more den half of my dream kae.....
but he turned back, and hug me, and told me everything was all rite...
that everythin is back to normal.

y isit that u alwaz appear in my dreams?
y isit that everytime u do, i wake up with an empty feeling,
y isit that its only in my dreams that i tell u the things that i realli want u to noe....
seriously, i have enuff of this rubbish.
can i like erase him from my memory pls?
i dun want to have to go thru the torture of replayin the entire scene again and again in my dreams again.
i dun want to have to be hurt time and time again when i wake up becoz i noe wat has happened is juz a dream.
i dun want to have that few mins/hrs of happiness becoz that sad feeling lingers with me the entire day.

i can easily push u to the back of my head and not tink of u in the day,
i have grown to master that,
but y? y isit that in my dreams, u appear so very often......

i dun want u to appear in my dreams,
i want to see the scene happen in reality....
but dreams are often the opposite of reality, arent they?

Queen Tona @ 6:07 PM 0 comments

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Tuesday, September 16, 2003

heex. shall update on my disatrous prelims......
since there is no paper tml~ whahha i feel like i am in holiday mood man!

maths and econs yesterday was hmmm expected? duno.
maths in the morning, that stupid seat i was in had the fan blowin directly at me!!!
bloody hell!!damn cold, thank god half-way thru the paper, someone turned it off man!
paper? hmmm shall sae its normal, expected standard... tink i din do ard 10plus marks lor.
skip vectors coz i din study that, plus the MI which was so damn complicatin.... can only prove P1 is true.
whahah hope can pass la~ aniwaz, there;s alwaz paper 2! =)

econs was bad, i was not prepared at all.
thank god those that i studied did come up a bit la.
but well, did one on wages, forex and this weird Q.
wages.... i was writing writing until i realli doze off..... @!$@#%@^%@
duno y la, den i woke up and realise to my horror that i wrote that sentence 3TIMES!!!!
argh, had to cancel everything and write again. was so pissed off with that question.
forex was ok though i din noe wat they realli want.
the weird Q was damn stupid. coz got part a and b.
i duno wat the hell they want in part a, but part b was on multiplier plus fiscal policy~~~~ yea,
so i choose that Q.
whahah y not the rest? coz Q1 was duno what they want.... Q3 was monopoly, i aso cannot do coz i din study mkt structure and pdtn and cost. Q5 was another killer question so heck.
whahah prays hard that i dun fail too terribly, coz i noe i have neva pass econs essay in nj aniwaz,
so who cares!~ if i do pass, den added bonus!!!! whahah =)

chem today was quite bad. din noe how to do that entire question on that organic chem where they give u ABCDE den u hafta draw everythinng out one.... heck. din had much time to finish aso coz i spend too much time in front la! and one stupid thing..... 3 physical chem Q mah. the last one is can choose one, so i do until Q3 den i realise to my HORROR, that i forgot to study for rxn kinetics!!! and both Q3 were on that!!! had to rely on my past memories!!!! ARGH! at least i thot the question wasnt that bad. whahah PHEW. cant believe i was so blur, when i saw the Q, i tink i juz sat there and OMG!!! whahah =X

k shall go watch a bita TV and mug later.....
oh no, i tink i am in holiday mood......
=P

Queen Tona @ 1:34 PM 0 comments

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Friday, September 12, 2003

hai sunday going 4 weddin dinner.
apparantly its my god-brother's wedding.
i sld be feelin so happy 4 him rite? the sad fact is.... i dun even noe how
he looks like la!!!! i only noe how my godfather and godmother looks like only......
=\
nvm, but well weddings are supposed to be sweet and nice.
so maybe thats a great wae to start my most dreaded prelims la. =)
lookin forward to it coz can doll up a bit mahz~
hehez, but cannot look nicer den the bride though!!!!! =P

was watchin the 1+1=3 show juz now when i was actually SUPPOSEd to be mugging....
HAI. i am hopeless when it comes to self-discipline la.
the show realli damn complicatin but prob its juz a true reflection of how society is today la.
whaha maybe a true reflection of how i am now?
one word.
complicated.

Queen Tona @ 10:29 PM 0 comments

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hai. i cant seem to be sensin the urgency to study.....
although its like HOW MANY DAYS to prelims.....
seriously, i see books i wanna puke now and i juz slack for 1 plus hr!!!!!!!!!!!
=|

tried recallin some of my chem.
found out that i cant remember much of it.
OH NO.
i feel as if this is gonna be the worst exam i eva had.
save me~~~~~
HAI. den y dun i feel any urgency to mug?!?!

had a weird dream last nite.
sweet.. v sweet.
but its scary y he turned up in my dreams.....
is it to confirm sum of my thots?
or do i refuse to tell myself to believe that i realli have fallen.....
fallen into that love trap.
BAH.
laterz~ hope i can mug finish my entire econs by then.
i have theory of wages....and makt failure..... and a whole lot of unremembered stuff that i sld have remembered. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Queen Tona @ 1:25 PM 0 comments

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Thursday, September 11, 2003

no news of zr.
wonder wat happen to him?
evapourated?
nvm

slack quite a lot today.
prob coz i noe i also no enuff time to mug finish
so i juz haiyarz read read a bit, play play a lot. =)
aniwaz, its juz the prelims~
whahha prob wun tink that wae when i get back the results la.
*shrugs*

Queen Tona @ 10:45 PM 0 comments

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Wednesday, September 10, 2003

hmmmm din catch the movie
coz of a dream i had. am too afraid that wat i dreamt of will happen....
perhaps its a blessin that i din watch, coz i guess i will be affected by it....
been starin at my fone as usual.
BAH.
i shall not be so stupid.
i shall be strong.

aniwaz, wonder wat happen to zr.....
his blog is gone, even his icq nick is gone......
hope its juz coz he wanna stop comin online....
and not coz of other stuff.... hope he is ok... msg him but he din reply...
*shrugS*

Queen Tona @ 10:32 PM 0 comments

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Tuesday, September 09, 2003

hmmm tink i am realli crazy over that jimmy person
wenta bought a book of his " pourquoi" meanin? why. yes why. wei shen me? why why?
no idea, prob there are just too many questions that are un-answered in this world?
why did i buy this book? duno, prob i do have many un-answered questions?

today was a rather bad day.... seriously, a person, a word, a msg can easily spoil my entire day la.
y isit that everytime i see him, i feel my heart sink to rock bottom?
y isit that everytime i see him, i neva look into his eyes?
y isit that everytime i see him, i juz pretend that i din?
y isit that everytime i dun see him, all i eva do is tink of him?
y isit that everytime i dun see him, i will give anithing to see him?
y isit that everytime i dun see him, i yearn to see him?
y isit that everytime i FINALLY see him, i wished i neva did saw him?

wat is this? why? why such contradictin thots?
y isit that we used to take the same path home together?
and now? y isit that we both still use the same path, but yet we neva meet each other?
seriously, y do i even bother to tink of y?
so wat if i do figure out those ans? will anything eva change?

movie tml, will i go and watch? prob. most prob. alone?
y? because its in the dark when u can shed tears and no one will care,
its times when u can easily sae that the movie was touchin thats y u cried, and everione will understand.
its times when i can flood the cinema 4 all i care......
*Sigh* k tink shall go watch the movie and mug at woodlands lib... y woodlands lib? y?

Queen Tona @ 10:40 PM 0 comments

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i am still in the dreamy "turn left turn right" mood......

hai. cudden sleep yesterday nite, there was lighting, thunder, etc.
i juz cuddle under my blanket, and felt so scared.
duno la, i tink its juz this thing abt thunder and lighting that frightens me, esp at nite.
k la, so dan3 xiao3 of me rite..... i duno la, was juz so scared. juz laid there and was huggin my doll.....
thinkin of some stuff....
i guess i have to get used to lightin and thunder, coz there will be no one to be around to comfort me.
no one ard to tell me everything is all rite,
nvm,
i am strong. i guess.

Queen Tona @ 9:38 AM 0 comments

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Monday, September 08, 2003

as usual, i find myself sittin in front of the computer screen again....
its weird, weird in the sense that computer has been quite a part of me, whahah cant believe
that i am lettin a dumb machine "control" my life! gawd!

been muggin quite a bit today, prob due to my co-operative brain which din give me a headache~ *pat pat*
=) finish yr one physics.... not v in depth but well at least i do have some idea la.
if mr yong knows that i have only started studyin today, i tink he will juz murder me man~
heck la, enuff of muggin 4 me man.

been listenin to the radio and they juz KEEP playin the "preview" of the movie... isit called turn left turn rite? i duno la, heck. but seriously, everytime they play it, i juz wanan watch!!!!! =| i have a feelin that i may juz go catch it on wed man... oh no..... cannot cannot. muz control.... hai, if i go arh, all i noe is betta get some tissues on hand man~ supposed to watch it after prelims.... with han wei they all.... whhaa den muz try not to be such a cry-baby le, if not that guangyi will suan me like mad!!!! but i realli wanna watch it!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! y lidat!!!! y muz show durin this time!!!! hurmph. control, control. whaha if i go arh, den zr u betta be careful arh, later let me see u with XXX. hiack hiack hiack, lidat not that i wnna be paparazzi but juz so qiao lor hor. =P
whahha was so tempted that i went to the movie site and start exploring!!!!
http://www.turnleftturnright.com

AHHHH cant get my hands off the website, cant wait to watch that movie!!!!
even if the movie not nice, got my shuai ge there can liaoz!!!! *droolz*
kkk i sound desperate, but i dun mind Takeshi Kaneshiro being my date 4 a day man,
k dun too greedy, juz eat lunch with me and i can faint liaoz. AHHHHH!!!!!!
heez hope to dream of him tonite~

Queen Tona @ 10:43 PM 0 comments

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yipeee its a happy morning~ woke up at ard 6 to mug 4 my un-finished chem~
although din finish all but only left with rxn kinetics and equilibria which i will have to sacrifice my other mornings in dreamland to complete....

hehez. feelin quite happy today. its weird how some small small things can help to brighten up my day~
juz some silly msgs can make me fly over the moon! hehez, k la shant be so crazy liaoz. tink i am going mad... no no no, muz control myself!!! cannot fall into ai4 he2 already!!! =) *grinz* whahha so happy~ k k k. tink i going MAD. whahah so happy~ lalala~. shall mug my heart out today~ so zong rong, dun worry yea, i wun slack that much one la, not so much as to "win" jiabi but becoz i am in a wonderful mood today~ =) whahha, tink i sound like some stupid idiot who has juz saw her prince-charming man. whahah =P.

lalala, k have a nicey nicey day today~ shall update on my progress laterz~ *muacks*

Queen Tona @ 10:40 AM 0 comments

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Sunday, September 07, 2003

hai. i have given up on muggin today.... my headache juz seems to be gettin worse......
and all i manage to finish is the stupid food chem which was enuff to KILL me. seriously, i cant gurantee that when i wake up tml, i will remember a thing abt food chem. aniwaz do i care wat exactly happens when food turns bad? do i care abt all the pectin chains, clostridium botulinum, bacteria wateva. heck them la.as long as i have eyes to see that the food has gone bad, who cares abt the chemistry in them? juz wastin my bloody time.

aniwaaz, decided that if i see a single word more of anything, my head will literally explode. turn on my player, maybe i seriously chose the wrong cd la. i thot i haven listen to that savage garden CD 4 v long so decided to have a go at it.

" I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
til the sky falls down on me..."

brings back wonderful memories, but memories are juz memories. 4 that moment, the world seemed so beautiful, my headache seems to be gone and i seemed to be the happiest gal on earth. but once that song was over, i know, i noe that nothing has changed at all and all that had happened was nothing but illusions.

its stupid, stupid to cry over spilled milk, its stupid to cry over something that has happened, its stupid to cry over something that is neva gonna happen. but this is how stupid i can be, this is how useless i can be, this is how naive i can choose to be. if i can have juz one wish, i want to stop the time, stop the time when u look me in the eyes and said that u love me, i want to stop the time when u hold me in ur arms and told me everything was ok, i want to stop the time when .... but can i stop time? no. thats y all i can do is to watch u go, all i can do is to see you take more and more steps closer to her, all i can do is to wish that one day, you will turn back and walk back in my direction.....

Queen Tona @ 10:35 PM 0 comments

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hai, tink this is really a bad start [ or rather a bad omen ] to my muggin spree

havin this splittin headache now la... y isit that when i finally decide to try and mug a bit
nothing wants to cooperate with me?
tink i am juz fated not to be able to mug smoothly man. ARGH.

started to feel that the end is realy coming....
i have like 2 days per subj? whahah and that's not even enuff 4 me to finish the bare min : flip thru the syllabus.... HAI
am supposed to finish chem by today..... and wat have i left?
transition metals, 1/2 of food chem, equilibria, energetics plus rxn kinetics...
wat is this?!?!?! MISSION IMPOSSIBLE?!?!?!
hai, tink i sld have juz done 3 subjs and make my life more enjoyable 4 myself man.
seriously, my only sarcity is TIME.

hope and pray that i can scrap thru the prelims man. realli. dun wanna end up with some shitty results though i noe that the amt of effort that i put in is not even enuff 4 me to hope 4 a pass. becoz HELLO ppl have started years ago and u? expectin to finish the syllabus in 1 plus week and expect a min E? hai..... HOPE LA HOPE...... hope is a good thing.

aniwaz, mum said that sld juz do my bez and not let those morons and monsters and nerds in my sch stress me up.... *shrugS* aniwaz, hope to get my first A in NJC [ k fine.... i noe my results sucks.. when ppl are gettin 4As i haven got one yet ] .... placin my hopes on maths man, am 4eva a few marks off A.... pls pls pls, thats seriously the only thing that i can sae i dun suck in.... *SIGH*

"excuse me, but can i juz apply 4 uni with one A level subj? *blink blink* " huh? no? fine.... den i guess its back to muggin 4 me and 4 goodnez SAKE, can my bloody head stop aching..... no amt of protest is gonna work, i have to mug LA.

Queen Tona @ 2:33 PM 0 comments

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Friday, September 05, 2003

hmmmmmmm have been tinkin of not bloggin.. but well tonite's dinner with guangyi and zong rong made me wanna blog down some thots.....

they were talkin abt friendship probs. sorta, basically abt yanzhi and guangyi's U NOE WHO [qingru].... duno la, juz feel that maybe i am not in the position to comment much so din talk much... but well, my opinion of yanzhi.... hmmm not that bad, prob coz i dun talk much to him either.. but well, i have quite a good impression of him.... y? duno, juz tink he is a shy guy who's not good with words. y? prob the v-day incident bah, was really touched when he waited outside the sch at 7 plus juz to pass me the prezzie. yes la, u may think no big deal, but well, i juz feel that he is rather xi4 xin1 la. so prob, my impression of him is a bias one, but well apparently, he seem rather insensitive to others, i duno la.....

somehow i feel when we grow older, things get so much more complicated.... in pri sch... one moment ago u cld be tellin so and so " i dun fren u already " and the next? u two are holdin hands, going down for recess together. now? u dun even need to sae anithing, juz ignore the person and this "cold war" can carry on till the end of time man. realli, have we complicated things up ourselves or have things start to get complicated with time? seriously, i miss the times when things were simple, when all u care abt is wat cartoon to watch, wats for lunch, wat toys to buy etc. now? even the simpliest things seem complicated. yes, someone may be happily talkin with u, but do you noe wat he/she is tinkin at the back of their mind? how sure are u that he/she meant wat they sae?

duno la, summore feeling sian diao abt relationships. its juz not the wae i thot they were turn out when i was young. love? oh two ppl meet, like each other, fell in love, get married, live happily after... now? love is when all u need is a smile, a msg, a sentence, a HI, and that can make ur day. love is makin him/her happy, not being happy. frens? oh, everyone is ur fren! we muz all be frens with one another. now? a slightest misunderstandin can cause two good frens to not talk at all!

hai, prob thats y they sae that baby;s smiles are the most innocent and sweet. becoz to them, everything is simple and to us? things are neva as simple as they seem to be

Queen Tona @ 9:32 PM 0 comments

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Wednesday, September 03, 2003

wenta the doc juz now..... had the usual chest pain on the left side.... irritatin, cant breathe properly
the doc sae prob due to my history of asthma last time.... gave me medicine. sae that prob i am too stressed up or wat, thats y this problem comes back again...... duno? am i stressed? maybe

today GP paper was a killer.......... if CT2 was bad, this is wat? WORST OF THE WORST? duno, essay was crap, duno wat to write, compre was hard, duno wat to write. i juz sat there and crap and felt so dazed after that...... sianz diaoz. seriously, if all the papers in future are going to be that hard, i duno how am i going to pull thru.... why am i even in njc? is this school really suitable 4 such an idiot like me?

Queen Tona @ 9:12 PM 0 comments

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Tuesday, September 02, 2003

sometimes a simple msg can make one's day....
and guess what, today is a happy day~

Queen Tona @ 2:22 PM 0 comments

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