they say a picture says a thousand words....
what abt mine?
Queen Tona @ 2:19 PM
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
great.
two days of the break is gone.
and all i ever did was consolidation.
today i got so fed up,
i realli wanted to scream at anyone and anything in my way.
and i just have the urge to tear off everything.
its irritating when u duno how and where the numbers come from
and why the hell the je are what they are.
den u feel so sian,
den u read again,
den u still duno.
den u tink.
am i born stupid?
i think thats the only question that i have the answer to.
i realli am born stupid.
let me wake up to find that its all a nitemare.....
aniwaz, xr have fun in thailand~~~ and be careful!
Queen Tona @ 11:02 PM
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
entire day of consolidation is enuff to drive me nuts.
and make me puke out everything.
sianz.
since when did i ever start my break with heaps of books and readings?
i aso duno.
i guess its since now....
ushering in the one week break with numbers is not fun. at all.
with every page, i feel everything getting more and more mixed up....
i dun even know...
whether at the end of the day,
i can finally consolidate with ease.
nvm.....
i shant talk abt sch work....
but it seems as if there is nth to blog abt except tat.
i haf no life!!!!
i haven been going out....
i haven been playing...
i haven been watching movies....
i haven been slacking....
=(
now....
i can take a break.
and head for the bed.
nitez world.
Queen Tona @ 1:12 AM
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Friday, September 22, 2006
i am guilty of not blogging.
but its not my fault.
what can u blog abt when u have no life.
imf has ended.
nth exciting happened actually.
just tat i am a bit richer.
and there is also a whole load of stuff piling up.
the one week break is here.
break is not a break.
its onli meant to make u feel like a break.
i have two quizzes coming up after the break.
tis sem is crazy.
its rare for me to start mugging even b4 midterm.
but it is indeed happening.
i hope i can last all the way till the exams.
and i hope mugging helps.
to make up for my stupidity
as for now,
i wan to slack.
i wan to go holiday.....
i wan to stop seeing words and numbers.....
tml....
its another dae of consol.....
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水
我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂的世界
如果是你发现了我
也别将我挽回
Queen Tona @ 12:54 AM
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Monday, September 18, 2006
"even if its just an empty shell, i will still want it"
tis realli quite struck me.
holding on to just an empty shell?
does tat shows how strong the love is?
or is it just plain stupidity?
i duno.
i wonder.
can u realli feel true happiness?
if u see ur love in the arms of another.
i can only say i am selfish.
i believe,
one chapter of my life is finally coming to a close.
actually it was closed a long time ago.
its just tat, like an ending to a book,
tis time, i can finally write an ending to that chapter too.
sometimes i will try to picture stupid scenes,
and tink of myself doing some drastic measure,
but i know nothing of that is going to happen,
becoz i am in no position to do anything.
when love is gone,
what is left is only me. you.
memories.
sometimes, it can be a painful thing.
i guess tis will be the last time,
i will let those memories flow
这一次
我像路人看着你走
真心的祝你幸福快乐
Queen Tona @ 11:00 PM
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
tml's the start of imf.
great. now its goodbye school and hello singapore 2006.
seriously, the event is too hyped up.
tat i dun feel a tinge of hyper-ness.
haiz.
i dun wanan go and think of all the stuff tats pilling up and
waiting for me.
i believe that all things happen for a cause.
so well, maybe all the events that are appearing is a test for me.
as long as i pull through, yeah!
nvm.
its two weeks more to the holidays.
b4 tat, i have 2weeks of imf and aso 2weeks of sch to catch up.
and den the one week hols will be spent muggin for the 306 quiz.
and i hafta get my dance cheorograph out by then too.
haiz.
jia you!
cyaz
Queen Tona @ 10:26 PM
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
when nth comes out right,
when nth goes the way it sld,
when u duno wat u want,
when u duno how to get what u want,
when emotions are too strong,
when heart is too heavy,
when greed is too much,
when i do the stupid things....
todae i accidentally deleted all the msgs in my inbox,
as in realli accidentally.....
i can only look on helplessly,
literally seeing memories disappearing right in front of me,
i felt a strong urge to cry,
when i see am empty inbox staring straight at me.
i duno wat significance a hp inbox can haf for u out there,
but for me, i cannot quantify its importance to me.
y isit tat things alwaz go the wrong way for me?
even stupid things like tis?
nothing seems right, nothing.
i feel like shit.
i haven been feeling tis shit-ty for a long time.
i dun see myself succeeding in any area,
i dun see anything in myself that i am proud off.
i dun see anything, worthy of anything.
i dun see me.
i see a stranger.
there goes.
everything.
its so empty now, its full.
Queen Tona @ 11:19 PM
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
Loneliness.
She has just returned home after a long day.
Faced with so many stuff, all waiting to be done,
She felt lost. She felt scared.
She tried to work, she tried to mug.
But nothing got in,
And with each passing minute,
Panic sets in.
She tried to call for help.
She tried to find comfort.
She tried to reach out to ppl,
She didn’t know who to find,
She didn’t know what to say,
She didn’t know how to say.
Book after book,
Pages after pages,
She pressed on,
She wanted encouragement,
She wanted a pat on the shoulder,
She just wanted a tiny bit of attention,
But you din seem to notice,
You din seem to care.
You did everything you shouldn’t have done.
She looked around,
She saw him.
She heard him.
Everything she pictured it to be.
She realized it was all but a dream.
She realized nothing’s going to change.
All along, she was alone.
The only one to face everything, herself.
Queen Tona @ 12:28 PM
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