oh yeah.
i finally finish the drama today.
thot the last few eps were a tad too heavy.....
but well, its still not bad a show la.
简简单单，
其实很容易。。。。。
Queen Tona @ 10:43 PM
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Friday, August 24, 2007
sigh..........
half of the team is like not here.
=\
after effects of overwork.
i realised i haven seen my dad and bro for the week man......
watevers.
super hungry......... when is lunch coming......
another random post......
Queen Tona @ 1:06 PM
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
Sleepy at pasir panjang........
sian.......
times like this,
i imagine myself just dumping everything and leaving on a cab.
haha but the key pt here is IMAGINE.
Dr Sleepiness
Cr Energy
Queen Tona @ 12:23 AM
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Monday, August 20, 2007
let's have a random post.
1) today i went to tuas for an "excursion". very exciting indeed! kewl~
2) I am kinda missing my long hair....... when will it grow back
3) Tomorrow i anticipate some camping going on at the client's place.
4) My tuition kid has prelims on fri and i am SUPPOSED to go in on thursday again.
why doesnt her mum gets it that i am NOT FREE on weekdays...........
5) Let me wake up to a saturday morning...............
over and out.
Queen Tona @ 11:00 PM
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Sunday, August 19, 2007
今天，
真的觉得很幸福，很开心。
站在那美丽的夜空下，
有很梦幻的感觉。
只可惜，烟花的美太短暂。
尽管用再好的相机，
也留不住烟花瞬间的灿烂，
也捕捉不到那当下的感觉。。。
Queen Tona @ 12:27 AM
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Monday, August 13, 2007
surprise~
haha i am slacking my life away at the client's place
coz there is nth to do.......
we are waitin for the client to furnish out the stuff......
my tuition kid's mother keep asking me to go in on wed night to tuition the kid
coz she has psle oral on thurs.
but wed i confirm OT, so i say i go today,
but she says its too early. must tuition the night before.
seriously, i dun understand.........
does it even make a difference. sian
haha.
shall go and watch my mute youtube.
=P
Queen Tona @ 4:01 PM
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
and the weekends are gone just like this.
and it seems like i haven even done much stuff tat i set out to do for the weekends.
weird, its still the same 24hrs, but somehow for the weekends,
the 24hrs fly too fast.
i am sort of gearing myself up for the week.
coz, when ur aic tells u to be prepared,
u noe she really meant be prepared.
sat i went for my cousin's 21st bday,
and my relatives were asking me abt my job,
its weird how, now to me, i feel like its normal to work that late.
as in, i no longer yearns for the 5.30pm to arrive,
i no longer plan what i want to do when i get home,
in a way, i have more or less accepted reality.
i am trying to keep a positive mindset to work.
but it seems that somehow, simply being positive dun help a lot.
in the end, all that matters, when u are at the bottom of the hierachy,
is to endure. and endure. and endure.
let's look forward to the weekends den.
haha.
and look forward to october.
tinkin of going overseas haha.
是生气？是失望？是无助？
其实是接受。
那是一道永远也走不进的门。
等太久，努力太多，
结果始终是一样的。
你的世界，很遥远，
走的我很累。
今天，觉得很寂寞。。。。
有人说过，寂有了寞，
就不寂寞了。
我，只有我。
到底还有多久，
我才能到达，属于我的休息站。。。。
Queen Tona @ 10:43 PM
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Sunday, August 05, 2007
当自己做不到时，
又怎么能要求别人做到。
为什么，明明很想尝试，
但往往到最后，
还是没有跨出第一步。
Queen Tona @ 11:09 PM
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i tink this is going to be a very contradicting post,
but seriously, just feel like jotting down some of my random thoughts.
2weeks into my job.
and i am already feeling very tired.
mentally and physically.
there are times in the morning when i wake up
that i just feel like evapourating into the air, and just let me disappear for 1day,
and there are times in the morning,
where i tell myself, i am going to go there and do a great job.
i duno isit just me, or that we are all so shelthered,
that when we get thrown into the working world,
we cant take much hardship.
But, really, there are times, especially at night,
when i am still sitting in the office, trying to keep my brains working,
and i see other ppl appearing on msn,
den i start to question, y am i subjecting myself into all this?
like, is it really going to be worth it to give up my personal time?
everytime i reach home, i just feel so tired and lazy and drained,
and i dont even speak more than 10 sentences to my mum or bro, or dad,
and den i feel so guilty, coz i dun feel like this is my home anyway,
i practically just treat it as a hotel, coz i just come home and sleep.
sometimes i dun even see my bro and dad coz they are already asleep,
and den the nex morning i leave for work, they are still sleeping.
in fact, the time i spent sitting on the chair of the office,
is much more than the time i spend sleeping on my bed,
the time i see the collegues are a hundred times more
than the times i see my family and friends.
i have practically no entertainment.
my whole life revolves around,
wake up, work, sleep.
i haven watch any TV, read any newspapers, touch any youtube.....
the only entertainment is probably msn,
and thats only if i mange to squeeze out some time to chat a little secretly...
what do i really want to get out of this job?
good career? high pay? self-satisfaction?
den wat do i seem to be getting?
how much things do i need to forgo b4 i can succeed?
and in the first place, wat do i want to achieve?
sometimes i tell myself, i have already studied so hard for so many years,
and i really want to put my knowledge to good use,
and try to make it up as high the corporate ladder.
but seriously, how much am i willing to sacrifice to get to that stage?
i want to balance both.
work and life.
but is there really smth called the work-life balance in the audit field?
i really wonder, and wat do i really want at the end of 10 years?
a lonely yet successful career woman,
or to really set up a family of my own.
but wat if, after trying so hard, i never did manage it to the top,
and i still have to sacrifice my personal life at that expense.
and wat if at the end of 10years,
i look back and wonder, wat wld it have been if i strive harder, wld i have made it?
i duno, seriously at this pt of time,
i am very much for my personal life.
i dun want to lose myself over this job.
till the extent that the job seems to be my entire life.
but i also dun wan to give up so easily,
because i want to know how far i can go.......
so well, i am giving myself one year.....
one year to know what is it that i really want.
one year to know whether this job is giving me what i need.....
one year to try to balance and work out smth......
so maybe, one year later,
i will change to a job that may even pay me lesser,
but make me happier,
or maybe i will still stick to this job,
and be able to find joy in work,
but either way,
i just think,
it all boils down to.
wat am i happy doing.......
那时，你拉着我的手，
天空很蓝，
你的手很温暖。
“不再让你一个人”
一切都太不真实。
是梦。梦醒了。
原来，美丽的一切，
都只有在梦里才会发生。
曾经我很期待，
但现在我很累。
因为梦太美
现实却是刚好相反。
我不要醒来时，
心情是失落的。
我只要你，
消失在我梦里。
Queen Tona @ 12:08 AM
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